Fired Soul

Disclaimers: I don't own Twilight or any characters of Twilight. I own the specific plot I write and any characters I come up with. I don't make money off this story.

Summary: During the Cullens' little baseball game that Edward invited Bella to, James' coven comes along. But, not everything is what it seems with Bella Swan and James.

Warnings: Maybe some course language. Some sexual situations. Some violence. INCEST. THERE IS INCEST IN THIS STORY.

AN: This is still a trial story.

Don't like what I write? Leave this story, don't review, and don't come back.

Simple right?

Warning: There is INCEST in this story. Don't like it? Don't read it.

00000000000000000

I made sure to keep my hold on James' jeans as I gazed a the calm, dangerous looking forms of the Cullens.

I didn't know if they were angry at me for coming here.

Maybe they were angry about me leaving Alice and Jasper's side and stealing their car. I'll admit: it was a bad thing to do, but I wanted to see James so bad, and I couldn't walk. I could have taken a taxi most likely, but I didn't think of it at the time. I just did what James told me to do; I got away from Alice and Jasper.

I couldn't see very well, but I could see them just enough to not see any anger on their faces, but vampires were masters at hiding what they felt and other emotions.

Emmett looked to be at his full grizzly height. Intimidating yet eerily calm. Emmett took a glance to me and back to James a few times, as if just seeing that I was here and unharmed.

James would never harm me.

Why would he think that?

Rosalie didn't have that scowl on her face at all. She seemed more like Esme and Alice mixed: compassionate and loving, while standing firmly and – with worry? I wondered why she was worried looking almost, but I didn't Rosalie so well, so I couldn't guess.

Esme was next to Rosalie looking calm but still so intimidating. Nothing like the Esme I knew. I saw Esme look at me with a soft smile before locking her gaze back on James who was completely quiet and still.

Carlisle stood with that same calm look on his face that I remembered. While he had that odd intimidating stance and look on his face, he didn't take his eyes off my and James' closeness.

It was just another society thing I guessed.

I couldn't bring myself to not care.

Carlisle was really a father figure to me. My dad accepted me and James because he was a Swan.

Carlisle was a Cullen.

An outsider.

An unimportant figure in the Swan family.

Yet his opinions meant a lot to me for some reason.

Why did it bother me so much?

Alice was a sight to see from her height of five feet. Her topaz eyes were looking dark, but with my sight: I couldn't really tell. Alice even looked dangerous.

Jasper was another story. I could almost see those genius gears in his head turning and taking everything in. He looked to be examining James and I. It didn't seem as if he was judging, but more like; trying to understand something.

Why did it bother me so much?

Was I really doing something wrong?

I couldn't bring myself to not care.

The Cullens were important to me. Their opinions mattered to me. But this was James; my brother. He was my everything.

The one I was born for.

I last looked to Edward who was beside Carlisle and Alice. I had almost been afraid to look at Edward. I wouldn't be able to not care with Edward. The others' looks might have shaken me, but Edward was so different.

I loved Edward. He was a wonderful man who understood me and didn't judge me when I had told him of my family and James. He just took it in so well, and never seemed to be repelled.

Edward was important to me and I didn't know why I was so attached to him.

When I looked at Edward with what my sight would allow me to; he didn't look like the others did. He was utterly calm, and still looked compassionate as ever with me. I caught those eyes with my own and Edward gave a smile.

I knew he wasn't angry right then.

I didn't listen to him, but at least he wasn't angry at me.

I felt James move that icy hand to my waist, and I could see the Cullens tense a little.

Why did they tense?

''You should say hello, dear sister. It's rude to stay silent with company.''

James lightly reprimanded me.

I was okay with it. He was my brother after all. It was his job to do those things.

''But there's nothing really to say is there?'' James chuckled lightly. ''I underestimated the little pixie I guess.''

James told me. I knew he was talking to me. It was just a thing I knew about.

I turned my head to James again. He was keeping those ruby eyes on all the Cullens masterfully.

''Alice, James. She's my best friend.''

I told him truthfully. Alice was my best friend. She was always there to talk and do things with me. It was nice.

Almost like a sister, except she wasn't a Swan. Only Swans were family right? They were bred so pure, and every Swan was loved, protected, and cherished as family and loves.

Even the ones with those imperfections. They were just not made right for some reason. But they were still Swans, and they were family.

Swans love family. Many times in ways society scorned, but we loved them.

James gave a grin at me and kept those eyes on the Cullens.

''So she is, Bella. So she is.''

James said in that soft voice.

I turned my eyes back to the Cullens. My sight was taking a little while to adjust to the almost blackness of the room. It was terrible that I could barely see anything.

I was stuck in an awkward silence for myself. I had no idea what to say to them. I had just left and stolen Alice car.

I thought I should apologize for stealing Alice's expensive car. So I started there.

''Sorry for stealing your car, Alice. I think it's still out there.''

I told her softly. I really was sorry for taking the car.

Alice gave a smirk at me on that deadly calm face.

''It's okay, Bella. I have another one. Don't worry about it, sweetie.''

Alice said in that soft voice. She didn't have her usual happy voice, but she didn't seem angry.

''It's only a car after all.''

Jasper said quietly to me. At least he wasn't upset at me stealing Alice's car either.

I could only nod. It seemed childish, but I didn't know what else to do.

How do you really apologize for leaving two people without a car because you stole it to escape back to your brother's side?

I didn't think it was possible.

''She only did as told. So there really is no reason to be angry, correct?''

James stated to the Cullens who all stood and stared silently at James who grinned and chuckled.

''I don't think your friends like me, Bella.''

James claimed about the Cullens.

I knew they didn't, but I didn't know why. James was very enjoyable to have around. An intelligent conversation holder who was just a nice man to have with you.

I loved having James with me.

''No, we don't.''

Emmett piped up in a strange voice.

I couldn't place that voice. It was so unlike Emmett, who was almost like a brother.

But he wasn't a Swan, so he couldn't be a brother could he?

Emmett was imperfectly bred after all. He didn't have Swan blood so purely bred into him like James and I did.

So he couldn't be my brother could he?

When I looked to James, he was smirking in Emmett's direction as he caressed my hip like he normally did.

It was just another James thing that I loved and was used to.

''Good thing your opinions don't matter to me, right Emmett?''

James stressed the Cullen's name, making Emmett let out a growl.

''Remain calm, Emmett. We're not here to fight, James.''

Carlisle stated calmly as he gazed at me.

I knew what they were here for, but I couldn't leave James now.

I just got him back!

I wouldn't leave him now. I couldn't.

''Oh? Then what are you here for?''

James asked curiously.

I knew James knew what they wanted, and why they were here from him stepping just a little closer to me, and keeping both hands on my hips to hold me in place. I wasn't going anywhere, and from my hold on his belt loops; neither was he.

''Bella, come here.''

Edward spoke for the first time in that soft, gentle voice that I was so used to.

I looked to Edward; the only guy I had loved besides my brother.

Edward looked understanding of what I was doing, yet he wanted me away from James?

I didn't understand it.

I didn't understand.

Why?

I stayed put in my place with James. I didn't know what to do.

I was stuck and so confused.

I hated this feeling.

''It's alright, Bella. We're just going to talk, then you can go where you wish to go.''

Edward told me in that same gentle, soft voice.

I had that feeling Edward was lying. And James must have too due to him giving a huff of disbelief.

James stayed quiet though, and waited on me to make my choice.

But, Edward didn't lie. Especially to me. Edward wasn't like that at all.

He told the truth.

He told what he meant.

Yet, that feeling wasn't disappearing.

Edward was planning something in that one hundred and eight year old mind of his, and I didn't know what it was.

Sometimes I wished I was a mind reader like Edward was.

Edward held out his hand in a gesture for me to walk to him and take it.

''Come, Bella. Let's just talk. James will still be here when we're done.''

Edward spoke again in the same voice.

I looked to James who seemed very distrusting. James didn't seem to believe Edward at all. I had my doubts, but I trusted Edward.

He hadn't lied once, so why would he lie now?

He wouldn't would he?

James looked to me with those ruby eyes softening.

''If you want to talk, I don't mind. I'll stay right here.''

James told me truthfully. I knew he wasn't lying.

James had no reason to lie, so why would he? He was my brother, and he had never lied to me once.

James just didn't lie.

He was perfect like that.

I thought it over for a good minute while looking at my brother. He seemed to know I was debating on letting him go and going over to Edward and the Cullens who looked like they had a side plan if I was honest.

I just didn't know.

''Go on, little sister. I'll be right here waiting.''

James whispered quietly and undid my hold on his jeans to give me a small push backwards to get me started. I almost scoffed at the normal James attitude when he lifted that eyebrow at me, but instead: I made my slow way over to Edward's side.

I turned to look at Edward, out of their reach so I could try to decipher that look on their faces. Especially Edward's look.

Edward still had his hand out for me to take, and he just kept it there calmly and patiently. He had those dark eyes that I could just now see from my closeness to him from the dark room, locked right on to me.

I took a long look at Edward and his hand.

I knew I could trust Edward. He was trustworthy, though not a Swan.

Swans could always be trusted. They were bred like that.

But something in me just felt a little lost on this subject.

I took a chance and gave my hand to Edward, making him grasp it lightly with that crooked grin of his as he gently pulled me back to him. I couldn't help myself, I just let a smile grow on my face from his normal actions of putting his arms right around my waist.

Natural for the two of us.

Natural for James and I.

Yet, why did one feel so different than the other?

That's what confused me so much. This confused me so much that I didn't know what to do.

And that's what I hated.

''I was worried when Alice couldn't find you. She hadn't had any visions on you for a few hours now.''

Edward told me quietly.

I knew that she must have been worried. Her car stolen and me gone all in one day. Probably not a nice thing to feel.

''I'm sorry. I wanted to see James. I hadn't seen him in months, Edward.''

I informed the Cullen.

Edward sighed and took a glance at James who was standing stiffly and keeping those eyes on me and the other Cullens who looked to be stranding straighter.

''I know, Bella. You missed your brother. I understand that, but you shouldn't have left.''

Edward told me.

''Alice and Jasper wouldn't have let me see him. Neither would you have. I took matters into my own hands to see my brother.''

I told him with just a little irritation below feeling myself mellowing out. I couldn't tell if it was my own emotions on their own, or Jasper manipulating me.

''I just wanted to see James again.''

I repeated myself again.

Edward gave a nod of his head.

''You've seen him. Now what are you going to do?''

He asked me.

''I'm going with him. It's about that time anyway.''

I told him truthfully.

Swans usually ended up with their lovers at seventeen, and moved somewhere to live out a life of our own.

I was seventeen now, almost eighteen.

James was stuck at twenty-one in physical age.

It was our time to move and start over.

I didn't know what James' plan was with me being human, but I was sure we would figure it out somehow.

Edward gave another sigh and let his hands settle a little tighter around my back. I could feel James' curiosity and my own at Edward's move. I caught a glimpse of Emmett moving his foot a little ways behind him and turning his body in a pouncing stance that I had seen before. Rosalie did the same as Emmett did, as did Jasper and Esme.

I looked back to Edward who was shaking his head and looking at me.

''No, Bella. We are going somewhere else.''

He paused.

I knew it.

I knew it.

I knew it!

''You included.''

Edward finished softly with the same look.

I knew it!

Outsiders were to never be trusted!

I heard a growl and I didn't know if it was a Cullen or if it was an angry James who had just been played like I had by someone I thought understood me.

''I told you, little sister. Outsiders aren't to be trusted. They aren't Swans. They aren't pure like us or our family.''

James stated angrily with that growl, making Emmett release his own growl with Jasper.

I stood still just looking at Edward with hurt and confusion.

So much confusion.

Why?

''We are different, James. Our family isn't produced through incest, and we aren't ill like your family has passed down generation after generation. Think of this as an intervention.''

Carlisle stated to James, making him growl again.

''Bella isn't ill like our mother was. She isn't a traitor to our family. Bella is perfectly bred through trails of mistakes, just like I was.''

James defended the Swan name. James took pride in our family like I did.

But James knew when and who to trust.

I obviously did not from me trusting Edward to understand.

Carlisle didn't understand.

Esme didn't understand.

Alice didn't understand.

Jasper didn't understand.

Emmett didn't understand.

Rosalie didn't understand.

And Edward certainly didn't understand us.

Now one but a Swan would understand us and our family.

I was stupid to think that he would.

I was stupid to hope it.

I was most certainly stupid for falling someone not a Swan.

''You're no different that everyone else, Edward. Now I know why you can't trust no one but a Swan. Other are just imperfectly bred, and imperfect blood.''

I stated with my anger most likely audible as I tried to jerk out of Edward's hold.

Too bad for me that Edward being a vampire was able to keep his tight hold on me.

''Go James.''

I told my brother firmly.

James stood completely still and looked to me with some hurt on his face.

I didn't want him to go, but staying here wasn't the option right now.

We would have to meet up some other time where I could find him again, and I knew the perfect place.

''Go home, James.''

I told him again.

James looked confused for a second, but he must have clicked something in his mind because he blinked and took a shot and disappearing from my sight.

I knew Emmett, Rosalie, Jasper, and Esme had followed him from Emmett curse word flying from his mouth without Esme's usual reprimand.

I continued my jerking to make Edward let go, but he just wouldn't let me go.

''Let go, Edward.''

I ordered.

''Bella stop, and just relax.''

Carlisle told me in that usual voice of his. I knew I was left with Alice and Carlisle.

''Shut up, outsider.''

I spat out in anger and some hurt.

Carlisle was the first non-Swan that was a father figure to me, and this was what I got for trusting someone.

Backstabbers.

Every one of them unpure, imperfectly bred Cullens.

I heard Edward sigh again, before I was whirled around and held to his chest: limiting my movement by a lot.

''Bella relax or you'll hurt yourself.''

Alice told me in that small voice.

''Shut up!''

I yelled at her.

Alice was the first non-Swan that was a sister figure to me, and this was what I got for trusting her.

A backstabbing outsider that was imperfectly bred.

I wasn't too worried about hurting her feelings or anyone else's.

My own were hurt. I was taught to care for my own feeling first and foremost.

And that's what I was doing.

''Bella stop.''

Edward told me in that whisper.

I was about to retort, but I felt a pinch on my thigh.

I looked down to see a syringe imbedded into me before being removed quickly and gently.

I knew it had been Carlisle from my eyes trailing up to his face that didn't look sorry at all as he capped the needle and pocketed it.

I blinked rapidly as I tried to fend off that sleepy feeling.

I knew it was a sedative by the drugged up feeling that was quickly consuming me.

I attempted to stop myself from falling asleep, but I was so powerless to that tired feeling.

I thought I felt myself being laid on the floor by Edward, but everything was blurry and kept coming in and out in choppy motions with missing clips to them.

I tried to keep my open longer, but that black sea washed me away quickly with Edward carding those hands through my hair like he did during the nights at my dad's house in Forks.

I just really hoped that James made it home.

Done.

I'll try to get the next one up quickly if I think of anything.

Don't like what I write? Leave this story, don't review, and don't come back.

Simple right?

Major Fire Blaze