"Hermione he just said he wanted to try something new, something that I couldn't offer him and then he left" my voice became lower and lower becoming a whisper at the end of my sentence.

She gave me a sad look "and what is it now, the 5th time he has done this"

I looked at her sideways "Is that supposed to help me?"

"Harry I know you are vary attracted to him but you can't let him treat you like this"

I looked at her with despair "Yes that what I get for falling again, it's just I can't keep him out of my head, it's the way he makes me feel the way he kisses me the way he makes me fall in love"

"The way how he's in your mind the way he kisses you and the way he makes you cry Harry! Don't you see, we've been here so many times before? Don't your instincts tell you to be aware that he's destroying you? He hurt you so many times before and still you take him back every single time. Don't you see his bad for you!"

"but …but…you don't understand…so OK he has a few flaws but everything else…it's just….you don't know how he makes me feel "

She let out a sight "Harry you have to open your eyes and see he's not the one you think he is"

"What's that supposed to mean? You think I don't really love him or that he doesn't love me?"

"I'm sure you think you really love him but think about it, if he loved you would he have broken up with you 5 times. And think about all the flaws and all the right things, like how you would prefer if he left his hair long instead of short and how you like his sarcasm, or the guy before him how you wished he was taller and had black hair."

I looked at her a bit confused "So what if I would like a few changes, you don't love everything about Ron either"

"No but think about it, maybe you're transferring your feelings from another person on to him"

"I don't know any other person that would be as perfect as my Daren"

Hermione gave exasperated sight "Yes well I can't force you to see something you don't want to see but if you remember you're here because you don't have your Daren anymore."

My face fell "Yes, no more Daren"

"I wish, he will be back saying how he found out a new part of himself and how he wants to share it with you and then after a few weeks he will again brake up with you to find another part of him"

My face lit up "Do you really think he will be back?"

She yelled at me outraged "HARRY! Don't you get it, he only uses you, he breaks up with you has another guy to fuck and then he wants you back so you can take care of the bills. Don't you see he is BAD for you, you shouldn't be with him anymore."

"Well news flash I'm not"

"Not for now, but when he comes back crawling you will forgive and forget, but you shouldn't! You should break up and make it final"

I looked at her defeated "But how will I live without him?"

"Better"

Sorry that it's short but this is the first thing I wrote but didn't know how to start the story but then I got the idea for the first chapter and so on and that how this story started. I wanted to write something more to this chapter but I like the ending like it is. There will be more I just don't know when. Oh and most of the chapters till now have a song that inspired it I wonder if anyone figured out what the songs are…now that I think about it I think I mentioned them so forget I mentioned it :P but don't forget to let me know what you think.