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This chapter not too much really happens. It is mostly Jade's pov to explain why she has been acting the way she has to Tori and Scotty I hope everyone enjoys. R and R.

Jade's POV

I can't believe she lives next door. I can't believe she is friends with my brother. The worst part of all of this I that I am happy she moved in. Beck and I broke up about a month ago; he cheated on me with a Northridge skank. I can't really describe the reason it upset me. I haven't actually really wanted to be with him for some time and he obviously felt the same but Jesus he could have broken up with me before he just cheated. It was unnecessary to cheat; he makes me feel like I just deserve the cheating. I know I sound hypocritical almost because I haven't wanted him and the only reason I stayed with him is so no one knew my feelings for a girl. I admit I am a little fearful of liking a girl and wanting to date her. Tori Vega. I feel for her but I can never tell her. She could reject me, she could humiliate me and tell everyone how I like her and have a laugh with everyone. I can't take the rejection again.

Vega and I started getting to an almost friendship over the past year but then I started acting like my ganky self again when I developed feelings. I couldn't help it. I didn't want her to figure out I liked her so I started pushing her away again. I hated myself every time I pushed her away but I didn't know how else to not reveal my feelings. I act like a confident gank, like anyone is blessed to even have me look at them but in reality I have fear of rejection and know I am not good enough for Vega.

Vega has that little relationship thing with my brother, so I couldn't even tell her if I wanted to. I think they actually might be a couple the way they spend time together. I know I saw her making out with the skank the day I found out she moved in but she isn't around as much as Vega hangs with Scotty. And when skank bag is hanging with Vega, they act like just friends.

I hate admitting it but I am jealous of my brother. Not just because he is so close with Vega but that is a huge jealousy thing too, but because of the fact that he gets everything he wants. Scotty has support from my father for everything dad thinks Scotty is great. He got to go away to boarding school like he wanted when he got in trouble, I only got to go to Hollywood Arts because of my mom's support. Even after I got in my dad doesn't care about anything I do. I don't know if Scotty knows that dad has barely spoken to me since Scotty left or came to one play for me.

I don't hate Scotty I resent him though and I don't want to but I can't help it. I know I have support from my mom but Scotty has support from both our parents. I'm jealous dad loves him and support's him but can barely even speak to me. I wouldn't admit to anyone how I feel because I'm too proud to talk to my father, not that he would even care anyways. And not Scotty pretty much has the girl I fell for. Ever since I saw her kiss that skank and hang out with Scotty all the time I can't help but say something mean. I wish I had the confidence I pretend to have so I could tell her how I feel but she could laugh in my face and reject me like Bobby did.

Bobby was a guy I really like before Beck. He found out I liked him lead me on and then humiliated him in front of his friends. Scotty punched him out after he did that and then we moved into this house. Scotty and I were really close then. I vowed after that to never let myself be that vulnerable again. I would never let Beck know that the little self-esteem I actually gained while dating him was crushed when he cheated on me. I would never admit to Vega the day she told me I was pretty on our fake date made me feel so good I actually wanted to hug her.

Why would Vega want me anyways even if I told her and she didn't laugh in my face. Vega has Scotty, he's the nice guy, he thinks about other before himself always. I'm just a giant gank that went out of my way to make Vega constantly feel bad about her and tried to ruin anything I could for her. Any girl would pick Scotty over me given the choice.

I continue to stare at the ceiling in my room. I just lay in bed I can feel the tears running down my cheeks. I hate when I allow myself to cry.

"Hey you busy?" I hear Scotty says as he knocks on my door. I try to wipe my eyes so he doesn't know I was crying.

"What?" I say in my angry tone when I pull open the door. I see the look of disappointment cross Scotty's face for how I talk to him now. I know it deeply bother him we aren't close anymore, it's not his fault but I can't even stop how I talk to him or blow him off anytime he tries to have a conversation with me. It is even worse since he hangs out with Vega all the time. I take out my jealously that he could have anyone he wants.

"I uh, well Tori, Nicki and I are going out for some food and to the movies, Tori wanted me to invite you." Scotty says shyly rubbing the back of his neck. Why does Vega want me to come? Does she know I like her and wants to rub it in my face?

"Ew I don't want to hang out with you and your two girlfriend Scotty. Plus I would rather lock myself in a cage filled with venomous snakes then ever voluntarily hang out with Vega. " I heard a sigh and someone walk down the stairs. Fuck, that was probably Vega on the goddamn stairs where I couldn't see.

"Fuck Jade. I don't know what the fuck your problem is or why you have to be such a fucking bitch to Tori. But never mind I even fucking asked. I know not to make that mistake again. God Jade I don't know what the fuck happened to you or who you are anymore but I miss you." Scotty started off yelling at me but the last part he said in a quiet sad voice that pulled at my heart. He just shook his head and walked down the stairs. I felt sick to my stomach seeing the hurt look on Scotty's face in my head. I can only imagine Tori's face. Fuck my life.

Tori's POV

I have never seen Scotty look so upset. I was upset with Jade's words but they got to Scotty more. He apologized multiple times on the way to the restaurant we were going to eat at. It was this new pizza place.

"Scotty, you need to stop apologizing, I know how Jade feels about me, I'm just sorry she upset you so much."

"We used to be so close Tor, I just don't know what happened."

Nicki met us at the pizza place then we hit a movie. Scotty came to hang out at my house for a little while after we just numbly watched some tv.

"Tori, we need to get through to Jade. I know something happened to make her closed off. Beck is no good for her, she needs someone that would actually care Tori, I know her and my dad don't have a very good relationship and I doubt she has a decent one with our mom. I know she likes you and we need to bring up our game and make her admit it to herself." Scotty had a mischievous smile on his face.

"What are you planning?"

"Jade hates being ignored, maybe we tried to hard inviting her to hang out. When your mom goes on her business trip next weekend we are having a party. And we are not inviting Jade." I return Scotty's smile, we both know how much Jade hates not being included in something. Jade will say something is boring or doesn't really want to go, but if there is something going on and she isn't included it pisses her the fuck off.

"You are brilliant. " I say turning back to the TV.