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iv. Crowley
He'd thought Crowley had been dead. He might as well have been. Because he didn't remember anymore. Something had happened to his closest friend, he didn't remember anything. Killian was lost all over again. It seemed life didn't like him having connections with anyone.
Crowley had been the first to his side in so many situations. Crowley had been his own personal diary, everything that had bothered him, Crowley knew about.
But Crowley had loved him, and Killian had felt so damn bad, because he didn't like him back, not like that. His heart had remained with his Swan.
Crowley might as well have been dead. He told Killian to leave him alone, he told Killian he didn't want him there, he had tried to kill Killian himself. Killian didn't know why he stayed.
Maybe because part of him saw himself.
Maybe because he needed someone to hate him more than he hated himself.
Crowley might as well have been dead, the old Crowley was. The new Crowley had hated him at first, and then again with split personas.
He might as well have been dead.