Chapter 4

So this is the scene in the episode where I genuinely thought Elektra would come out or say something to Johnny.. but she didn't and I was disappointed.. so here we are.. Chapter 4 based on that scene where she does say something! Sorry that it's pretty short but enjoy... :D

Later that evening, after showering and changing into some clean, dry clothes and just about managing an awkwardly silent dinnertime, Elektra knocked on Johnny's door.

"Go away." she heard mumbled from the other side.

She opened the door anyway. She was never one to listen to demands from Johnny. "It's me" she called, not knowing why. It probably wouldn't matter to him. "Feeling bad?" she questioned.

"What do you think?" Johnny said, again mumbling, lying on his bed not moving.

"Good," Elektra sighed as she leant against his drawers. "Now you know how gay people feel when people start mouthing off without knowing anything about it."

Johnny turned on his bed and sat up and slightly raised his voice at Elektra "Are we still on this?! Why do you care so much? Seriously? Sure, everyone else is mad at me for what I've been saying but you're more angry than anyone else, why? Why does it bother you so much that-"

"Because I'm gay Johnny." Elektra interrupted him. "I'm gay, and I know that if I ever had a kid that I'd do a damn sight better job of taking care of it than my straight parents ever did with me." She just couldn't hold it in any more. She needed to tell someone and she also needed to give him a justifiable reason for kicking off so much.

Johnny just stared at Elektra. "Are you being serious or are you joking to make a point?"

"No I'm being serious Johnny. It's one of the reasons I'm in this place. I told my parents and they hated it."

Johnny paused, contemplating Elektra's answer. "I'm sorry," he eventually said. "If I had known I wouldn't have said what I did or tried t, t, to con, t, tinue..." Johnny stopped talking, on the verge of tears.

"It's okay, 'cause I know this isn't really about Gus or being a gay parent. It's about you feeling like you're not wanted isn't it? And what I said really didn't help so I'm sorry.. really sorry. I was just so angry at you."

Johnny nodded slightly and gave a small half-smile. "I don't blame you for saying what you did. I deserved it. But I still can't help thinking... if Gus can get fostered why can't I? Am I really that bad?"

"Course you're not," Elektra said softly. "It's just not your turn. But don't let it get to you otherwise they'll have won."

"Who?"

"Whoever put you in care."

Johnny looked at Elektra and smiled sadly and she smiled back at him reassuringly. Sensing the conversation was over Elektra started to walk out of the room. She was just about to close the door when she turned back around to Johnny. "Please don't tell anyone what I told you. I'm not ashamed of it or anything, I just think that they need to hear it from my mouth, not yours."

"Sure. I won"t say anything," Johnny paused. "Thank you Elektra"

She smiled and closed the door.