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I woke up quite early the following day, I thought about what Shane told me that night and I realized that he was right, before I could fix anything I should at least fix myself first and it means finding a job, I ran through some old newspaper and found this one company that needs people who knows computer and without any hesitation I grabbed my jacket and went to the address of the establishment.

When I came inside I had the feeling that I was back in New York again, because the space looks exactly the same as our building although it's just a bit smaller but looking at the interior it has a very contemporary feel in it and as I walked down the hallway I was surprised to see a line of unemployed people all sitting and waiting for their turn to be interviewed. I sat next to a guy who smelled l like a taco truck and he looked at me and said "You trying you're luck young man?"

I gave him a smile and gave him only a nod and he continued "You're not gonna get it" and he looked away and I gave the man a shrugged.

It was a long wait but when my turn came I inhaled as much air as I could get and go through the whole interview, though I've been a boss before it still scares me to be interviewed, it makes me think of all the interview I got before I became big but I was confident and I was hoping to get the job, and when I came inside I saw a chubby old man and he said firmly "Please sit down"

I sat down on the right of the table and he spoke "It's really an honor to meet you Mr. Benson"

I looked at the guy puzzled and asked "pardon me?"

He looked at me with a huge smile on his face and told me "I heard about you and you're company, and it was a total lost for you to let go of it, and to know that a very successful man in the computer industry walks right into my office to work for me, it really is a great honor and by looking up to your resume I just think I found the right guy for the position"

He stands up and offered his hand for a shake and I grabbed it and he continued "Welcome to the company Mr. Benson" and after that day, the following days went pretty well, I got to move out of the old building and rented a newer and bigger apartment and I bought a second hand Car so that I could have an easy access to my workplace because taking the bus was really a hassle to any working person.

One Night while I was going through some paper I heard a loud music coming from my neighbor and the music was more of a pre-schooler song so while I was checking the papers in my hand I went out and knock on the door and when he opened I said "Hey men. Do mind turning the volume of the kiddie song down I'm trying to work on something here"

The guy stood their and I look up at him and he suddenly he said "I know you, you're that dude on iCarly years ago"

I look at the guy and thought that he was one of our fans and I said "Freddie Benson"

"Oh!...that is you" and he grabbed my hand and he sort of hug me in a manly way and I said "Yeah, I was behind the Camera, Never thought you would notice me"

"How could I not, by the way I'm Griffin, Remember?"

I look at him for a second and said "Whoaahh, you got beard now"

He smiled and said "Lady's love bearded man" and he laugh and said "Would you like to come in?"

I was hesitant at first knowing that I had to do something but then again my feet were on it again, it drag me inside and when I look at the place it was full of cabinets that has pee wee babies in all sort of costumes and some are still in their box form and I suddenly blurted out "Wow"

Noticing my reaction he said "I know, isn't it cool having all of them surround you"

I look at him and thought to myself that it's not cool, it's creepy but since I don't want any fight at this time of the night I just said "Well, yeah, of course specially for a guy like you" and I smiled so that he wouldn't notice that I was just lying and he suddenly spoke "Well, I mean were guys but you can't resist this little babies, any way care to sit down, I'll just grab you some drink" I had a feeling that the guy was utterly nice and good looking but the only weird thing is his collection of dollies or pee wee babies as he said.

He came back with a glass of soda and put it down on the table and he asked "How's life?"

It was one of those conversations were in you just want to stay out of it but something in me keeps controlling what I do and because of that I suddenly blurted out "Pretty much like nothing"

He look at me curiously while I try to not to look at him when he said "I know, It suck doing almost the same thing every day" and he took as sip of his cola and continued"By the way, How's Carly doing, I heard she is a photographer here in Seattle"

That question made me spilled the cola I was holding and he said "Did I say something wrong?"

I look at him and thought,' is this one of those conversation I had with Carly's ex Boyfriends?..de javu'

"Freddie"

I look at him surprise and said "She's fine, she's doing as I know of, well"

He smiled and said "It's good hearing that, but are you two not like a couple? I mean not that I'm barging in to your personal life but I was just curious"

I couldn't actually think of the answer to his question but then again that inner demon that's been controlling me started to take over again and I said "We're not going out, His actually with somebody right now"

He looked at me in disbelief and said "Oh, I'm sorry to hear that, I thought Carly likes you and just uses my pee wee babies as an excuse to break up with me, I apologize"

I smiled at him to let him know that it was ok but he continued "So, you're cool with her dating somebody else?"

I smiled and said "I'm trying not to give up on her but I just couldn't do it, I guess"

"Oh come on Freddie, Don't lose hope, do something"

I look at him and asked "something like what?"

"I don't know, the thing you're good at…making her notice you"

I smiled and said "I'm not good at it, because if I was good at it, me and Carly would already be together"

"Well yeah, you're good at it, you stole her away from me"

I was kind of shock on what he said when he spoke "no worries I got over it long ago, but still I know you were the reason why she broke up with me, the girl is all over you Freddie"

I couldn't explain to myself what I'm supposed to feel the moment he told me that and asked "That's not true, she likes bad boys"

"She does, though she is more into guys like you"

"How did you know that?"

"Don't tell this to her alright?" he put down his cola and continued "When we were still dating she left me in her bedroom, and I was sitting there all bored and had nothing to do when suddenly I saw this notebook, I didn't intend to look at it but since curiosity was trying me, I opened it and saw this entry that only says 'I'm tired of waiting for the boy living next door' and before I could look into the notebook more she came inside with a juice in her hand, luckily she didn't notice me looking at her personal diary"

I couldn't let the words out of my head, I don't know how to prove it but what his saying maybe real and suddenly I spoke "I don't know what to say"

"Well I have to say something" he stands up and went to one of his pee wee babies collection and continued "Do something about it, I know you're not giving up but nothing will really happen if you don't do anything, speak up, be a man tell her what your really feel"

I look at him and nodded and I stand up and said my goodbye and he waved at me and I left his room still thinking and I said to myself "This thing happened to me before".

I woke up the next morning still having the odd feeling that it had happened to me last night was the same thing that happened to me few nights ago, talking to this guys and giving me advice but then all of what they said were true, I had to stop running away from it, I should never give up, and I should speak up and be a man, but I don't know how. I need a chance.

I went to my office quite late that day and I was setting my computer when one of my officemate called me and said that Mr. Willow would like to talk to me.

I came in to his room and it smelled like burnt paper and I said "Good Morning Sir"

He looked back and said "Freddie, Sit down, sit" and he gestured his hand to the chair on his right and continued "Just the guy that I would like to talk to"

I smiled and he said "You know that this company is just starting and you also know that we will be having a dinner party for the big people in the industry right?"

I sat up straight and nodded my head and he continued "Freddie, I want to ask you a favor"

I look at him and asked "What is it sir?"

He puff his tobacco and said "I want you to be my guest speaker"

I look at him surprise and he said "You were successful before and I know you can be successful in the future and a good way to welcome those investors is for you to tell or maybe just give them a warm welcome, tell them how your life went from how you became successful and how you ended up working here in my company"

I still couldn't believe what the guy said and I asked "Sir, It would be an honor, but I don't think it should be me speaking up there, I mean it should be you, since you're the owner of this company"

He laughed and said "I know, but just you and me I get a little stage fright when I see pools of people staring at me, and plus I know you had great experiences in speaking with press people and the likes so I think you're fitted for this task"

I still don't know what to say and he said "Here is the invitation, dress nicely, and I will be seeing you there" and he handed me a thin folded paper and he continued "Help me make this company big, would you Freddie"

I couldn't do anything so I accepted his offer and he gave me a handshake and when I went out the door I realize 'I've never been to a party since months ago'

A/N: I hope you guys enjoy the new chapter..:) R&R