Maggie had been into town and had ordered a couch and armchair, a dining table, and coffee table, which would be delivered in a week's time. She was heading to the electrical store next, a TV and TV stand next on her list. She was walking close to the waterside, enjoy the warm spring afternoon. She felt her heart skip a beat and got butterflies in her stomach as she saw her. She was standing by the water, looking like she was waiting to meet with someone. Maggie stopped walking. She was on the other side of the street, and she had unintentionally stopped behind a tree, hiding her body from view. Alex looked so beautiful standing there in her leather jacket and Demin blue skinny jeans. Maggie took a deep breath, watching as Alex checked her phone before she looked to her right, smiling as she saw the woman walking towards her. Alex put her hand onto the woman's arm and rubbed it gently. Maggie felt her heart sinking and her mouth went all dry. Was Alex dating this woman? Maggie couldn't help but check her out. She was tall and pretty, with long blonde hair tied back in a ponytail. Maggie watched as they took a seat on one of the benches that ran along the waterside. She wanted to leave, she didn't want to see Alex with another woman, but she felt like she was glued to the spot. She exhaled lightly as she saw Alex once again touching the woman's arm as they looked deep in conversation. She took deep breath, feeling her bottom lip trembling. She cleared her throat, trying to push back the feeling that she was going to cry. She started walking away, quickly, not wanting to see anymore of the scene.

Kara was over at Alex's place again. Alex felt like her sister was around a lot more lately, but she wasn't complaining. She loved just hanging out with Kara, even if there was a part of her that felt like Kara was checking-in to make sure Alex wasn't going to start drinking. "So, how did it go at the clinic this afternoon?" Kara questioned, reaching for a potsticker and stuffing all of it into her mouth at once.

"Uhm, yeah," Alex gave a little nod. "Fine."

"That's all you are saying?" Kara questioned.

"Well, do you really want to know all the ins and outs of what happens?" Alex asked, reaching for a potsticker. She got a rather deathly glare from Kara, but she ate it anyways.

"Well yeah," Kara asked. "I'm interested and beside it's going to be my niece or nephew."

"So, you need to know how they were made?" Alex questioned, reaching for her water and taking a drink as Kara nodded in response. "Okay," Alex rolled her eyes. "I had a physical exam today and all seems good, so the next step is to pick some sperm and for it to get checked and I've got some fertility drugs to take then when I'm ovulating I go get….inseminated." Alex cleared her throat as Kara popped another potsticker in her mouth.

"So, like do you get a book or something with a list of eligible donors?" Kara questioned.

"Uhm, yeah. I have a list of…..donors," Alex answered. She had a feeling she knew where this was going. "You want to help me look, don't you?" Alex asked, and Kara nodded, an excited smile on her face.

"Well this isn't just about deciding what restaurant to eat at," Kara argued. "This is a baby, Alex and I feel as Auntie, I should get to help." Kara spoke as she reached forward taking yet another potsticker.

Alex laughed but she knew Kara was just excited at the thought of becoming an Auntie. "Well this is slightly weird, but you can help me pick out the donor," Alex told her, and Kara gave a little clap before looking around the room. "You're looking for the book, aren't you? You want to do this right now?"

"Well, it's not like your monthly cycle is going to wait till you make a choice, is it?" Kara questioned.

"No, but it's a monthly cycle, Kara," Alex answered. "I have time to decide and I'm going to ovulate every month, so…." Alex wanted this to happen as soon as it could, but she also wasn't about to rush into making a decision just for the sake of it.

"Okay, I guess," Kara sighed. "I just…I'm excited," Although she had her reservations at first, she was excited at the thought of Alex becoming a Mum and of course, she got to become an Auntie. "So, when you going to tell Eliza?"

Alex shook her head, as she exhaled, not liking the thought. "Not yet."

"You going to wait till you are pregnant?" Kara wondered.

"Uhm," Alex bit her lip. "I was kinda thinking about waiting a little longer. You know, I could wait and let the baby tell her."

Kara laughed. "Alex," Kara put her hand on her sister's arm. "You're going to need to tell her before then," Kara told her. "I'm sure she'll be okay with it anyways. She'd love to be a Grandma."

"I know she will," Alex replied. "But it's not like I've been sober for that long, so she'll probably think I should wait," Alex sighed. "And I'm single."

"So," Kara shrugged. "You can do this," Kara assured her. "You aren't having second thoughts, are you?" Kara wondered, noticing a sudden change in Alex's mood.

"No, I just…." Alex shook her head as she looked downwards, playing with her hands.

"You imagined doing this with Maggie? The pair of you picking out a donor together?" Kara spoke softly, taking a guess that thoughts of Maggie had something to do with Alex's sudden change in mood.

"I don't think I'm ever going to get over her." Alex's voice broke and Kara pulled her sister into a hug, softly kissing her temple as she held her in the embrace.

Maggie had spent most of the evening unpacking her clothes and putting things away in the kitchen and bathroom. She was able to get same day delivery for the TV and unit and it had been delivered and she'd built and set it up, so at least she had something to watch, even if she didn't have any furniture to sit on. She'd ordered take-out for dinner, not really feeling like cooking, but mostly because when she went to the supermarket earlier she'd only bought beer, a bottle of whisky, coffee, bagels, and some ice-cream so she couldn't really get a substantial meal out of that. She was sitting on the floor in front of the TV, balancing the bowl of rice and Thai Mango Chicken on her lap as she watched the latest episode of Greys Anatomy. She remembered that her and Alex always reserved Thursday nights to curl up on the couch together and watch Greys. She looked down to her phone which was laying on the floor next to her and hit the home button, sighing lightly as there was still no reply from Alex. Maggie was hoping she just had a new number, but after seeing her with that blonde woman that afternoon, she was starting to think that Alex had moved on. She knew that when she started work on Monday that she could run Alex details into a computer and she'd be able to get her number, but she didn't particularly want to do it that way. There was still the option of going around to her apartment, but Maggie still needed to pluck up more courage before that would happen. She picked up her beer and took a long drink. "Uh, c'mon Maggie," Maggie spoke quietly to herself. "You came here to get Alex back." Maggie put the beer down next to her and moved a piece of chicken around the bowl sitting in her lap. Maggie was of course scared of the rejection. She wanted so badly to see Alex and talk to her, but she knew that the issue they faced was a big one. That was still there, not matter how much they might profess their love for one another, the kids issue wasn't one that would just magically go away. But Maggie wanted to make it work, she wanted to try again with Alex, and maybe, that meant her opening up her mind to the idea of children.

As soon as Grey's Anatomy finished, Kara knew she could talk again. She'd been looking over the list of donors and had a few in mind that she was about to suggest for Alex. "So, what about this guy?" Kara questioned, shoving the paper in front of her sister. "32 years old, he's a research scientist at a university, so he has that whole geeky, nerdy thing going on like you have," Kara spoke cheekily. "He's -"

"Can we not do this tonight?" Alex questioned.

"Sure," Kara put the list onto the coffee table. "You want to talk about anything else?" Kara wondered, her hand gently rubbing Alex's arm.

"No," Alex shook her head, knowing what Kara was getting at. "I…." Alex sighed lightly. "I'm done talking about it, Kara," Alex spoke sadly. "There's nothing I can do, you know we wanted a different future and besides, even if I did want to do something about it she lives in Gotham now, so…." Alex trailed off, giving a little shrug as she hugged the cushion closer to her. "She's moved away, she's probably moved on."

Kara exhaled lightly. She hated how much this was still hurting her sister and she wished there was something she could do to stop her from feeling so sad. "I could fly to Gotham, hunt her down, bring her back." Kara stifled a laugh.

"What and force her to be a Mum?" Alex questioned. "I love her too much to force her into that life. She doesn't want that. I'm not going to make her do something she doesn't want to do." It really was a sucky situation. They both loved each other very much, but just saw very different futures.

"I guess," Kara exhaled. "Well there's a lot of Earths out there," Kara started. "Maybe one of her doppelgangers will want a baby with you." Kara said, a grin etching on her face.

Alex knew her sister was only joking but she shook her head and replied anyways. "Wouldn't be my Maggie," Alex looked down as she spoke, playing with her hands. "Well she's not been my Maggie for a while but, you know what I mean."

"Mmm," Kara nodded before biting her lip. She could see Alex was uncomfortable with the conversation and was about to move it on, when her mobile started buzzing. She reached forward and picked it up, seeing it was an alert from the DEO. "Ah, looks like I gotta go," Kara jumped up from the couch. "I'll be back soon, so don't touch anymore of my potstickers." Kara waved her finger out and Alex bit her lip, holding back a laugh as she nodded her head, watching as Kara ran off and flew out of the window. Alex sighed lightly, leaning her head back on the couch and closing her eyes tightly, hoping that one day soon, she'd be able to stop feeling so sad.

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