I first want to say thanks to everyone for reading, leaving a review, or even just giving this a chance like ya'll did with Bulletproof. I really want to say thank you to zumvio0807 for their review because it gave me a few more ideas I didn't even think of! Trust me, before you even left me some ideas I can promise you they weren't going to be instantly happy again. And Emmgie, if there is mistakes please let me know! I don't really know anyone on this site so I'm just constantly re-reading and spell checking to make sure I don't miss a mistake or two.
To everyone that cried the last two chapters...you may continue to be sad for at least another chapter or two.
Kurt smiles as Kayden plays on the floor of the hotel they're staying in for the next two days. He had to fight with his father to make him hold off on buying the plane tickets. He really wants Blaine to realize how stupid he was, to realize how much this affects Kayden who's never seen any real violence in the home until the night before. Kayden constantly asks Kurt when Dada is going to meet up with them which makes Kurt's heart ache even more. He usually just gives Kayden a quick answer which seems to work on the tot. There's a knock on the hotel room door, confusion spreading on Kurt's face. He peeks out the peep hole in the door but all he can see is a bouquet of roses, yellow with red tips mixed with full bloomed red roses.
Kurt knows Blaine found him, he figured he would once he went to the bank to see what was going on in their joint account. Kurt takes a deep breath before unlocking the door. Blaine shifts from foot to foot in front of him, eyes looking at the roses and not at Kurt.
"You and roses." Kurt gives Blaine a small smile, taking the bouquet from Blaine's hands. Blaine sadly smiles, still standing outside of the hotel. He sees Kayden playing on the floor, completely enthralled by his toys.
"Did you know that your favorite roses basically mean I'm falling in love with you? And fully bloomed red roses mean I still love you? At least, that's what the flower lady told me." Blaine looks at Kurt before his gaze drops to the hotel floor where his son is. "Can I come in?"
"I don't know Blaine…" Kurt moves a few steps, placing the roses on the table near the entrance of the room. Kurt looks over his shoulder, making sure Kayden hasn't seen Blaine yet. Kayden's still making cars crash, racing them around on the floor around him. Kurt leans against the door frame, looking at his bare hands before looking up at Blaine. Blaine's face has completely fallen the second he basically said Blaine couldn't come in.
"I'm really sorry Kurt. I still love you. I still love Kayden. I still want to be with you, make you and Kayden happy. Remember a few weeks ago? We talked about another little one? I only want that with you. I could search this whole fucking town for someone else and I'd still come back to you. I don't know what else I can do, to prove to you that I really am sorry." Blaine hardly ever cries. He's only cried once or twice in front of Kurt. If he remembers correctly, he cried when he told Kurt about his father, which that conversation ended in Blaine telling Kurt he loved him for the first time, and when they got to hold Kayden for the first time in the hospital. But here he is, in the hallway of a hotel, crying in front of the only man that thought he wasn't some stupid slut in high school, a man that said he'd love him as long as they both lived.
"Blaine…I…I think we just need some time apart." Kurt barely whispers out, eyes staring at the complicated pattern on the carpet floor. Blaine's beat up converse come into his line of site, which Kurt then slowly looks up at Blaine. Blaine's eyes are puffy, red around the edges from crying. The hazel honey eyes look as if the owner was in indescribable pain. Blaine raises his hand, softly sliding down Kurt's face, stopping on the slim male's cheek.
"I love you enough to respect your wishes. I'm so sorry Kurt, so fucking sorry. I'll never drink again, I promise you. Can I…can I say goodbye for now to Kayden?" Blaine's bottom lip is quivering as he tries to control the sobs that want to escape. He watches Kurt, watches the male turn slightly to look over his shoulder. Kayden has stopped playing, opting for tugging on his ear and leaning against the bed, eyes drooping shut.
"I…okay. Just be quick because he won't want to sleep for a while after you leave." Kurt knows that sounds kind of harsh but he really doesn't want Kayden to see Blaine. He was preparing Kayden to understand Blaine may not be around for a while. Blaine moves into the room, walking quietly till he gets to the little boy on the floor. Kurt watches Blaine squat down to Kayden's level, kissing Kayden's forehead. Kurt covers his mouth as tears begin to fall, watching his son stare at Blaine before the little one hugs Blaine's legs.
"Love you Kayden. Be good for Dada okay? I'll be back around soon." Blaine finally stands, lifting Kayden up and setting him on the bed. The little boy curls up on his side, eyes drooping as Blaine steps away, walking back over to Kurt. Kurt's frantically wiping his cheeks, trying to hide the fact he was crying. "No, Kurt please don't cry. I'm sorry, I'll fix everything okay?"
Kurt just nods as Blaine slowly begins to wrap his arms around his waist, pulling Kurt close slowly. Kurt finally just lets Blaine hug him close, his face falling in the crook of Blaine's neck. Kurt pulls away first, pushing Blaine softly until he realizes Kurt wants to be let go. Blaine presses a kiss to Kurt's cheek, lips lingering a lot longer than they need to.
"You aren't staying in town with Kayden are you?"
"My father thinks I should come to Ohio for a while with Kayden, to get away from the city and basically, our home. I'll probably stay a week or two, work is letting me off for however long I need."
"Oh, I guess I'll see you when you get back?" Blaine watches Kurt look at the floor before his feet lead him to the door. Before he leaves, he places Kurt's ring on the table next to the flowers. "Just in case you decide while you're in Ohio you want to come back to me."
Hour or so after Blaine leaves, Kurt gets Kayden to sleep. He cries almost the whole night, holding the metal band in his hand.
Kurt smiles as his father picks up his grandson, almost throwing the boy in the air.
"He hasn't stopped talking about you and your son since you called." Kurt smiles at the woman next to him. His father got remarried while Kurt was in New York. Kurt wishes he could have came to his father's wedding but they just got Kayden and Kurt wasn't too sure about flying with an infant. The woman Burt married has been extremely kind to Kayden and Kurt, which makes Kurt miss his mom just a little bit more than usual.
"I'm sorry that we had to come Carole."
"Oh sweetheart don't worry. I'm kind of excited you're here. I get to meet my grandson for the first time!" Carole smiles as Burt walks back into the house, Kayden giggling under his arm. Burt lets the little boy down and Kayden comes flying towards Kurt.
"Did you have fun with grandpa?" Kurt watches Kayden grin, his words smashing together because of how fast he's speaking.
"Kurt, why don't you fix Kayden a spot to play so we can go talk in the kitchen." Kurt smiles at his father, nodding his head as he grabs one of Kayden's bags. He dumps a few toys out, watching Kayden run and sit on the floor to drive his cars into a plastic Elmo toy. Once Kurt is sure Kayden will be ok, he walks into the kitchen, standing behind a chair at the end. "Why? Why did Blaine cheat on you?"
"He was drunk dad, I told you that already." He watches his father ball his hands into fists before letting his hands uncurl.
"He promised to stay true to you, to never make some stupid mistake." Kurt starts to slowly back out of the room, heading back to his son.
"Dad, I really don't want to talk about it anymore." With that, Kurt goes back to the living room, sitting on the floor with Kayden to play cars.
"So, to Blaine's new single life!" Blaine punches his friend in the shoulder, glaring at the other male. Nick holds his hands up, almost whispering sorry to Blaine.
"I still have a fucking ring on my finger. He has his ring. He may not be wearing it but he still has it." Blaine stands up, walking out of the living room to the kitchen, grabbing himself another bottle of water. His friends, upon hearing that Kurt had left him for the time being, brought over a ton of liquor and beer. Blaine promised Kurt that he wouldn't pick up another drink, not one sip of any sort of alcohol. His friends keep hounding him to have beer or two, loosen himself up. Blaine keeps refusing.
"Is he ever coming back?" Blaine turns, smiling at Santana. They went to high school together, but never really spoke. Santana was a gossip queen until her senior year, when someone let it out that she was gay and in love with a fellow cheerleader. Blaine and Kurt had their suspicions on who the girl was but then graduation happened and everyone went separate ways.
"I hope so. He left only the furniture and larger toys in Kayden's room. Our room was completely turned upside down though. I finally cleaned it up the other day. He took almost all his things and the only pictures left are either me and Kayden or me and him." Blaine grips the counter as Santana pats his back, a slight pout on her lips. "I shoved him and pinned him into this counter right there on the corner. I've never hurt him physically before. I never once raised my hand to him or Kayden. But I caused him pain, so much pain, and now I have to deal with the pain too."
"Do you even know the name of the guy you slept with?" Santana questions, her hand sliding from Blaine's back.
"No, I don't even know how I met him. All I remember is fighting with Kurt, Kayden seeing us, Kurt taking Kayden to his room, and I cleaned the place up before I left. That's all I remember San." Blaine rubs at his face furiously, feeling tears threatening to fall. Santana, who is never really the type of person to give you compassion, hugs him close to her side.
"Why don't I take you to your bedroom and kick all these assholes out?" Blaine just nods as Santana pulls him to the bedroom. He lays on top of the sheets on the bed, rolling over to place his face in Kurt's pillow.
"Doesn't smell like Kurt anymore…"
"What doesn't?"
"His pillow San, it doesn't smell like him anymore." Blaine mumbles as Santana sighs, walking out of the room. He can hear Santana yelling at Nick, Jeff, David, Thad, and a few others to get their booze and get the fuck out of the house. They aren't helping Blaine right now, sitting around drunk off their ass. Then Santana comes back into the room, sitting on the edge of the bed.
"Blaine, I'm positive Kurt is going to come back to you, once he realizes that he loves you and this is just a small glitch. I mean, you didn't even know what you did till you woke up the next day."
"You really think he'll come back to a slut San?" Blaine almost yells at Santana but manages to calm himself down. Santana sighs, pressing her mouth in a quick kiss to her friend's cheek.
"Blaine, he stuck by you during senior year. Yeah he sort of left you for two days but he came back. You never cheated on him then and this was just a drunk mistake. Just give him the space that he wants, say you'll do anything he wants you to do like counseling or getting a fucking job, and he'll be back soon. If he's not back by the end of the week, I'm coming to stay till he does because I do not trust you here on your own." Blaine gives Santana a funny look as she rolls her eyes. "Boy, I saw all those empty frozen pizza boxes. You need real food."
"And a real friend?" Santana gives Blaine a small smile, hugging him again one more time before she stands to leave.
"And a real friend."