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12 hours I had been waiting in the emergency room. 12 hours and still no word as too how Charlie was. I don't remember when Edward got here,
Nor was it my main concern at the moment.
What if Charlie didn't make it I asked myself, where will I go I'm 18
Now will I have enough money to stay in the house?
Or will I have to move back in with my mom and Phil.
I felt selfish for only thinking of myself at a time like this but I couldn't help it. I gripped the handles to my chair tightly when I heard a door open and the sound of heavy footsteps coming from the hall, but they then faded.
I sighed in frustration getting out my seat no longer able to sit still. I paced around the room heart beating fast. Why haven't they come out yet? Why haven't they come out to tell us everything will be okay and that Charlie will make a full recovery? Because he won't a small voice said in the back of my head, he won't and there to coward to come and tell you to your face. Finally those two heavy doors opened and revealed a doctor. Edward rose to his feet and came to stand beside me
"Dad" he said nodding at the doctor.
So this was Edwards's father. The look on the doctor's face gave away what I already suspected. I couldn't breathe I put my hands on my mouth to cover up the sob that was building in my throat
"I am so sorry ms swan" said the doctor gravely. My knees buckled beneath me and I fell to the floor crying harder than I had ever in my entire life.
"No" I cried
"No this can't be happening"
I felt Edward pull me up and I buried my head in his chest sobbing harder. My chest was heaving so hard. I pulled away and looked up at his face to see that he was crying too. I forgot his history with Charlie.
"We did everything we could" said Dr Cullen.
"No" I said wiping my eyes and turning to face the doctor.
"No you didn't because if you did he wouldn't be fucking dead right now" I said I felt terrible for taking my anger out of the doctor but I didn't care at the moment.
"And I his daughter" I said pointing to myself "wouldn't have to go home and start planning his fucking funeral"
"So thank you, thank you so fucking much for all of your help" I shouted.
"Bella" Edward said looking astonished.
"Goodnight Edward" I said turning and leaving the emergency room.
"Bella wait" he called after me. I ignored him and kept on walking towards my truck.
"Could you wait for one seconded" he yelled catching up to me.
"What "I yelled "what do you want Edward.
"I...ugh...I want to make sure your okay" he stuttered
"Well thanks" I sighed "but I'm not"
"I know" he said taking my hand in his and pulling me towards him. "Stop" I said putting my hands o his chest. He looked down at me confused.
"We can't do this anymore" I said stepping back
"Why not" he asked sounding shocked and hurt.
"You're my teacher, and tonight was great but I think we should end it here before we get to attached"
"Bella" he whispered looking stunned "why are you-
"it's over" I said cutting him off "forget it ever happened" I said turning and getting into my truck, I could see him still standing where I left him when I pulled out of the parking lot.
I ended up pulling over to the side of the rode at some point during the ride home because I couldn't see anymore with tears streaming down my face. I cried for Charlie, I cried for myself, I cried for Edward. And eventually I cried myself to sleep.
The week went by fast, and the day of the funeral was upon us in a blink of an eye. I smoothed my black dress that hung to just above my knee. And brushed my dark hair so it hung in waves down my back with minimal make up. I turned once more in the mirror sighing, last week Charlie and I were watching football and eating far too much pizza and this week I was
Planning his funeral.
"You look beautiful" said my mother coming up behind me and placing her hands on my shoulders
"Thanks mom" I said quietly turning around and wrapping my arms around her like a small child. We stayed like that for a minute before too quickly it was time to go. The funeral was being held at forks cemetery, and of course it was raining so there was a tarp over the seating area. It was amazing to see all the lives Charlie has impacted and listen to all of their stories. Each one of his family members dropped a rose on his coffin and said a few words of goodbye before they turned and joined the rest of the people.
I held onto my rose tightly until it took my turn last "dad" I began taking a deep breath "you are the most amazing man I have ever known, and will remain to be" I pauses swallowing hard " and I'm going to miss you so much"
My voice broke "I'm going to miss cooking for you and watching football and taking bets over whose going to win" I laughed remembering those memories
" I'm going to miss going fishing every summer to Many times and catching more fish than our freezer can hold" I looked up to see Edward standing on the other side with tears streaming down his face.
"but most importantly I'm going to miss having my daddy to pick me up off the ground when I'm hurt and tell me that there's nothing wrong with me and that you'll always be there for me" by now everyone was crying
"And I know you will be, I love you dad and don't you ever forget it"
I dropped the rose in and blew him a kiss before stepping back and walking away. I had said my goodbyes I didn't want to linger any longer. Today was hard enough.
"Bella" came a soft voice behind me that I would recognize anywhere. I stopped but didn't turn to face him. I felt him come closer and slowly wrap his arms around my waist; I leaned back against him taking comfort in his arms.
"I'm so sorry Edward" I said turning to look at him.
"I didn't mean any of it I was upset and-
"It's okay Bella" he said cutting me off
"We'll talk about it later, let's just get you home first" he said taking my hand and leading me to his car.
When we got to my house we both sat silently. Neither knowing what to say
"Bella" he sighed running his hands through his hair
"I think you were right" I looked at him shocked
"No I wasn't I was wrong" I said trying to sound strong but my voice cracked
"No" he said his voice sounding strained
"You weren't, I am your teacher that's all I should be" he paused looking me in the eye and said
"and that's all I'm going to be" I shook my head "I'm 18" I said begging him with my eyes
"You're still my student"
"Only for 6 more weeks" I yelled back at him
"Bella don't make this any harder than it is"
"This is right" I said placing his hand on my chest over my heart
"Were right, can't you see that" I said he shook he's head and pulled his hand away from me
"All I can see is a big mistake" he said before opening his door and getting out
"I'll see you at school" he said slamming the door. I sunk down in my seat hitting my arm repeatedly begging myself to wake up. I lost my father this week and now I had lost Edward too. No I'm not going to lose him. I swung my door open and began running in the direction he left in
"Edward, Edward stop" I yelled to the empty street he was nowhere to be found but I kept running until my legs could no longer carry me.
I sank down in the middle of the street, and just sat there staring at the trees wishing I could take back the last few weeks.
Wishing I never left Phoenix. Wishing my father never died. Wishing I never met Edward. I felt a sudden burst of anger shoot through me, if he doesn't want me then fine he can't have me,I will walk into his class tomorrow and smile and pretend like nothing happened, like I don't care about him in any way more than a student would normally care about their teacher. I would go on with my life and pretend that it hadn't been touched by the most beautiful man I had ever met. I would go on and pretend that I didn't fall in love with Edward Cullen and that he was nothing but another teacher to me. Starting now. And I did.
Short I know. Tell me what you think !I would love to get some feedback on the whole Bella and Edward situation, And here any ideas or what you think should happen next.
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