A/n: A short intermission. This is not going to be sex, but will have references to it. There are no real warnings. It is simply just written to explore them deeper as a whole. Primarily the effect of Vladimir's influence in the world of Gaia and Karine's role!

Note: The sex scenes and this story itself are nothing more then an alternate universe for the RP guild and Thread and takes place "Before the death of Vladimir" and remember. ITS FANFICTION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Note 2: To get a sad effect listen to "Broken" By Amy Lee and Seether

A soft summer night found Karine sitting in the garden. The sun's few rays lit her like a torch, highlighting the softness of her eyes. During this time the sun could not harm her, it was a barely above the horizon, but it was how she got that slight tan. She would watch the sun set from the trees or from a park. It was on this night Vladimir Von Helson was away on some business. So alone Karine decided to relax. She remembers the night she came here and became a vampire.

Calm and collected the young 18-year-old young woman walked up to the mansion. It was a cold night, and she was dressed in a casual pair of dark blue jeans and a dark brown off the shoulder sweater with a black tank top underneath. Over it she wore a Dark brown jacket with fur trimmed along the inside and was buttoned up. Her black boots crunching on the dead leaves that spilled on the lawn.

Truthfully, she was scared. She wanted to be immortal... to be part of a family, to be loved. Her parents didn't love her. They raised her to be a genius, to be a scholar. She was raised to be a woman of intelligence. She was taught Abstinence instead of gratification. And it annoyed her to no end. She was also trained in science and heavy philosophy: And she was introduced into the cold world of human experimentations. Being part German her family continued to perform the cruel experiments that were performed during that war. And she was forced into participating in some herself. But then...then they tested animals and Karine's normal passive behavior, her silent obedient yet resentful personality fell for just that second. It was the first time she killed. And here she is, 5 years later after the incident to be turned. She was going to be put to use, but not in the way people expected her.

They treated her with caution, with care, and she hated it! She knew very well that vampires were very physical. Lustful even. And she had heard tales of how Vladimir will give the gift of immortality to those who are indeed worthy of it. So lost in her thoughts she had no idea that she was being led in and towards his chamber. His study. Apparently she was on autopilot.

"Why have you brought this human, Zhivago?" His hypnotic deep voice brought Karine from thoughts and caused her to blush ever so faintly. But she remained neutral. She had to. It was the only way to survive.

"This woman wishes to be turned..."

"And what is your reason, young one." She gave him her answer, and Vladimir saw the intelligence, and the use she could be: A spy, a tactitan, his little prodigy scientist and she was also very diplomatic, very useful. And her charm, she could fool anyone. She'd be of great use.

"Alright." Her eyes widened as he came closer to her, and her first instinct was to back away, but when he bit down on her neck, she lost all train thought and quickly pain turned to pleasure and then she felt numb. When she came around, Vladimir was cradling her; he was sitting in his chair, just holding her like a child. He was...it was like being loved by a father and it felt wonderful.

"It must be taxing, to be so mature."

"It is the only way I know to survive. To be able to keep peace, to be logical. Emotions are too much. I promise to not be a burden."

"And you won't. You'll have all the resources you could need. However I have many others I must look after, and your knowledge will be useful." And it was quiet. She just smiled, and looked up at Vladimir, soft blue eyes glazed over with tears. She cried human tears...it amazed Vladimir to no end.

"Even as an undead, you retain you're human qualities."

"I feel its best we all do. To remain sane."

"I see." And so she talked about all she knew, the limits of human and more. It was the only time she talked to him, and got so close.

A contented smile made its way to red painted lips. She was so grateful for that night that anything she felt now would melt away. But even so she began to miss feeling the arms hold her, his voice; she began to miss as much as she hated to say it, her parents. While never showing love they would praise her and she missed that. With Vladimir she was reduced to begging, she was a submissive. She wanted to be claimed, broken, raped and she loved every minute yet still…

"I still wish I could be of more use besides a distraction, besides a tactitan…besides his scientist. I want to be appreciated for more the n my body and my intelligence. I know I'm important to him but I wonder…does he appreciate me as a being?" It was not unusual for Karine to question her role in his life and her role in life itself.

Still the sun had completely set and the rising red moon made Karine sigh. A harvest moon…a red moon.

"Blood has been spilled." She whispered softly. She then began thinking of a story she was told. A Legendary Guardian of Chaos who suffered so much and still her light shone on brightly into the dark despite welcoming it with opening arms.

"I'd like to meet her…the Chaos Guardian…I bet she's beautiful…" Karine's wistful sigh was carried by cool wind.

As the night dragged on she realized how cold she was getting.

"I wonder…would Vladimir be worried if I left him?" Thinking deeply on this Karine left the park and began to walk the streets of Durem. She soon made her way to Isle De Gambino and sat down on the beach. The water washed against her bare feet and she giggled softly. It felt so cold. How she missed the warmth of the sand during the day and the feel of the sun.

"Nothing will ever be the same. I can no longer live in the Light…I am…nothing but his slave. His toy…his spy and scientist. I am one of his most cherished childe… but that is all I am, isn't it? Am I not useful anymore then this?" Her anger began to well up inside her. She manipulated the energy hence the waves began to crash more violently.

"I cannot accept this! I have to have another purpose…" Her anger soon dwindled as tears fell from her glossy indigo eyes. "I'm so lonely. I'm not sure what to do anymore. This is just to much…to much emotion…."

So she stood there crying into her hands. The moons glow did nothing to hide the sadness, for clouds soon gathered and a light rain began to fall. As if the heaven's them selves were mourning her pain. She wanted to know who she truly was…and what her true purpose in life is…but she knew that she would never find it.

"I can only…live out this role I've been given. I'm nothing but his…heart body and soul. I'll do whatever he asks of me…and I'll love him endlessly even if he…never truly sees me for who I really am."

Resolved Karine walks back to the mansion heads to her room to change before she heads to the library. She was going to loose herself in the world of knowledge until she had control, only then would she face the coming night.