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I'm sorry I haven't updated in a long time but here's the new chapter .
I'm going away on a vacation on the 30th of August and I'll be back on the 30th of September , and I don't think I'll be abe to write during my vacation . But hopefully I'll be able to update once more before I go .
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Here's chapter 3 . Enjoy =)
Two weeks passed . Two weeks . And I haven't spoken to Stefan except once . I have spent 10 years of my life talking to Stefan every single day and now he's here , just a few blocks away from me and I see him every day but we don't talk . And I hate it . I hate it so much . It's Stefan ! I've never felt so distant from him . Even when he was miles and miles away , I always felt he was here with me . But now I don't know how to talk to him or what to say .
I'm very depressed . I miss talking to him and having no worries as to what to say , I could always be myself with Stefan but now I can't . And it's killing me . I just want to talk to him and laugh and joke and tease him and him teasing me . I miss him so much it hurts . I just want my best friend back . I feel so empty without him .
The second day of school , I didn't see Stefan except in History class and he just smiled at me . I wanted to talk to him but Caroline and Bonnie were there .
Do you know what's the thing that's disturbing me the most ?!
It's the fact that Caroline can talk to him all she wants and I can't . She's always talking to him , they have 2 classes together so they see each other a lot. I love Caroline but when she's talking to him , I can't help but feel a little hatred towards her . But at least Caroline is a good person , I know her and I know if Stefan needs someone she'll be there . Unlike our head cheerleader Katherine Peirce .
Katherine is … well , she's a B**** , there's no other way to say it . She has long brown hair that's always so well done , big brown eyes and a body to die for . She always wears very short dresses or skirts and extremely tight tops that show too much cleavage . She slept with 99.9% of the guys at our school . She has them all wrapped around her little fingers .
And now , she has eyes for Stefan . I don't know how they actually met but unfortunately they did . She invited Stefan to sit at our lunch table and she's always sitting next to him or on top of him . She's always flirting with him, fluttering her eyes, pushing her cleavage on him, touching him and whispering in his ear. I don't know why he doesn't push her away , he seems like he enjoys all this attention .
I wish I could tell him that she's only using him because he's hot , that he's just a name on her list but I can't because we're not talking like we used to . I just don't want to see him hurt . I know that when Stefan loves , he loves with all his heart . And I know that he had his heart broken once before and I remember how brokenhearted he was . I don't want to see him like that again . He deserves a girl that makes him happy and actually cares about him . Not some slut who only wants to sleep with him and then cheat on him .
I get up from bed at 10:30 , it's finally the weekend . I have a quick shower and put on sweatpants and a t-shirt and go downstairs . Jenna is out with a friend to have breakfast and Jeremy is still sleeping . I have some cereals and then start pacing around the house trying to figure what to do . I wanted something that could take my mind off Stefan and I finally decided to reread one of my favorite books .
I go back to the backyard , lie down on stomach and start reading . I was doing fine for a few minutes until a certain someone started popping into my mind . I closed the book with a bang and turned to lie on my back with an annoyed sigh . Why couldn't I take him off my mind ?! Seriously, I felt like I was cheating on Matt for constantly thinking about another guy .
Of course that's an other problem; my relationship with Matt . I tried , I really did but I just can't love him . I want to , I really do but I just can't . Maybe there's something wrong with me , after all , girls would kill to have a guy like Matt in love with them. I want to break up with him because I don't want to lead him on anymore but it will break his heart , and I can't bear being responsible for breaking his heart .
GOD ! I have to do something , anything . I don't want to think anymore .
I decide to go to the Grill , there are always people hanging out there and I could talk to someone and hopefully it will occupy my mind .
I get up and go to my room . I pick a hot pink one-shoulder dress , with a thin brown belt on the waist and my brown sandals . I braid my hair and apply a little make up . I do all this in the hope of keeping my mind busy and I think I kind of succeeded .
Since the car is with Jenna , I go walking . It's a nice day and the Grill is not far . Kids are playing in the streets and people are having get togethers and grilling outside . It's all very natural . It reminds me of my parents , especially my dad. He loved to grill , whenever the weather was good , he would go outside and grill .
I arrive at the Grill 20 minutes later and I'm right; there are so many people there . I walk inside and find Matt siting with some of his friends , his eyes meet mine and he smiles , gets up and walks towards me . He puts his hands around my waist and pulls me in for a kiss .
"Hey you" He says as he pulls away .
"Hi"
He walks me to their table and I sit with his friends , I can tell they are very annoyed at him for bringing me to sit with them but they don't say a word . I let my eyes wonder around the place , looking for faces I know , until my eyes land on him .
He's here , Stefan is here . He looks as gorgeous as ever . But that's not what makes my heart beat so fast . It's the fact that he's here with not anyone but Miss Katherine Peirce . They are sitting on a table at the back , cuddling . She's practically sitting on his lab and they're laughing . Why is he with her ?! Doesn't he know she's bad news ?! Hasn't anyone told him ?!
I look away quickly before he catches me staring at him , or before Matt sees me staring at another guy .
I spend 2 hours at the Grill doing nothing but keeping tabs on Stefan and Katherine's date . He seems genuinely happy . I can't understand why or how . She's a b**** . She's only using him .
I get up abruptly and walk to their table , I hear Matt calling for me but at that second I don't care . Before I reach their table Stefan raises his head and his eyes meat mine , he gives me a questioning look but I keep going until I'm standing directly in front of their table .
I stay silent for a minute wondering why I came here and what I wanted to say . But when Katherine turns her face and stares at me I remember why .
"Oh look who's here " Katherine says sweetly .
I force a smile and then look at Stefan "I need to talk to you" I say seriously .
He looks at me , trying to read me , trying to figure out why I suddenly decided to talk to him .
"Well , honey , I'm sure it could wait . See me and Stefan are on a date " Katherine says smugly.
I don't look at her , I keep my eyes locked on Stefan waiting for him to say something .
He blinks and then turns to look at his date "I'll be right back" He then gets up and we walk together outside the Grill and stand in the parking lot .
I turn around to face him and he's looking at me , waiting. This is so awkward. It never felt awkward with Stefan before .
"I'm sorry I'm keeping you from your date" I say apologetically
He shrugs "It's fine . What's wrong?"
I take a deep breath , here it goes "Are you sure you want to be with Katherine?!"
He looks confused "I'm not with her , I'm still getting to know her and so far she seems friendly"
"Friendly ?! That's got to be the first time I hear Katherine and friendly in the same sentence!"
"I hate to burst your bubble but she is ! What's your problem with her ?! You're always looking at her with such hatred "
"Katherine Peirce is NOT friendly ! She's just using you" I say rather too loud
"Well at least she's talking to me . She's being my friend !" He says just as loudly
Ouch... That hits string. He's right .She's being his friend and I'm not.
I feel tears threatening to roll down my eyes and I hold them in . I look at the ground , too scared to meet his eyes .
"I'm sorry ." I whisper .
He's silent for a little then he sighs and I can hear him moving forward until he's standing in front of me . He tilts me head upward until my eyes meet his .
"I didn't mean to yell at you"
I shake my head "No it's fine you're right."
"What happened to us ?!"
"Life"
"I don't want us to be like this anymore . I want my best friend back"
I can't hold the tears in anymore and they roll down my cheeks.
"I want my best friend back too . I've missed you Stefan"
He pulls me in for a hug . He holds me so close just like the last time . And it sends tingles all over my body .
"I've missed you too"
"So what now?" I say when he lets me go .
"Now , we start talking to each other in school , we start hanging out and getting to know each other even more "
"That sounds nice"
"Yeah it does"
We stare at each other for a few more minutes and everything around up stops .It's like we're in a bubble .
"Stefaaan!" Katherine's voice comes from close by . She's looking for Stefan . He voice bursts the bubble and suddenly we're back on earth.
"I should go to my date but I'll call you later today so we can do something , what do you say?"
"Yeah sure . I'd love to"
He grins and gives me his phone to save my number . And then he goes back to the grill .
I go back inside for a few minutes only to say goodbye to Matt . And then I walk back home smiling like an idiot all way long .