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One sigh... followed by another. It was that time of the day again. He would always meet up with Feliciano and Ludwig for a study group in the library. But he didn't want to... he didn't want to see Ludwig after what happened between them, it would just be too awkward.

His date with Alfred had just been the day before and he was still a bit nervous since they had agreed to go on a second one, even if they hadn't set a day for it. To his surprise, nothing happened during the date. They just talked about common interests and ate, all while looking up to the stars and trying to find the little dipper.

However... there were more important things to worry about other than the second date. Ludwig, he was inside the library along with Feliciano, both waiting for Kiku to arrive. He was never this late, usually he was the first one to arrive and wait for them instead. But Kiku was just pacing outside the library door, thinking about whether or not he should go in.

"Alright... ", Kiku said to himself as he grabbed the door nob to the library door. "Just do it Kiku... go in there, get it over with and get out... "

He took a deep breath and opened the door, quickly spotting the couple sitting at their usual table. Feliciano as always was clinging onto the german's arm, while Ludwig would try to read his book. Kiku quietly walked over to them and sat down in a chair in front of them, setting his books on the table.

"Hey Kiku we were starting to worry about you!~" said Feliciano.

"Yes, sorry I'm late, shall we get started?", Kiku swiftly changed the subject, he was afraid to be questioned as to why he was so late.

Ludwig smirked at him, surely thinking about what had happened between them a day ago, but Kiku didn't notice, he was careful enough to not even look at the german, more less talk to him. In a way... avoiding any kind of contact with him.

During the whole study, it was like this. Ludwig would stare at Kiku throughout the entire thing. Even though Kiku was not looking back at him, he could feel the stares. It made him feel very uncomfortable, but even so, he pretended to not notice and keep studying.

"Hey Feliciano... don't you have to go pick up Romano in a few minutes?", said Ludwig, after what seemed hours, instead of minutes of silence and study.

"Oh you're right! I completely forgot!" Feliciano quickly stood up and gathered his things, he threw the back pack over his shoulder and kissed Ludwig's cheek. "I'll see you tomorrow." He smiled at his lover and waved goodbye at both students before leaving.

Now it was very uncomfortable.

"Well... I should get going as well", Kiku said, trying to sound busy, when in reality he just didn't want to be alone with the german.

"Why? Have another date?" Ludwig smirked.

"N-No... I just... have to go to bed early... I-I have a test tomorrow... "

Lies... since when did I become such a liar?

"Oh? Let me walk you to your dorm then", he said while standing up and taking his things.

"No no... that wont be necessary."

"But I insist... I want to hear all about your date Kiku."

"Uh... " To this point Kiku was a blank. He had ran out of excuses. Resisting too much would make him seem as if he was hiding something and the way Ludwig smiled worried Kiku, he seemed almost evil. He knew this tortured him.

"Besides... ", Ludwig said as he walked over to the other student. "I can't let you go around campus at this hour... someone might want to hurt little Kiku."

Not only was the japanese student blushing like mad, he was now scared for his life. He was too afraid to turn down Ludwig's offer to walk him to his dorm, so he just nodded while trying to hide the fact that he was trembling like a fool.

"Good... "

They both exited the library and began walking towards Kiku's dorm which was just a few minutes from the main building aka the school. There were different types of dorms depending on the nationality of the student, what one might call the "asians' dorm building" is where Kiku's room was, right next to Im Yong Soo and Yao's room. Kiku hadn't yet been assigned a roommate but it didn't matter, he liked it like that, more room and more privacy.

During their way there, Kiku refrained from making any comment, and he did not even dare to look at Ludwig. He would try to find other things to distract him like... the flowers planted on the side of the pavement which led to the dorms, or even the lit posts that would provide them with light so they could see where they were going... this reminded him... it was getting pretty late. He looked up to the sky and he could already see the stars. Of course.. during this time of year the sun sets in earlier. He smiled when he saw the little dipper, thinking about his date with Alfred and how much fun he had.

"Well?" finally the silence was broken by Ludwig.

"H-Hm?"

"Aren't you going to tell me how your first date was?"

Kiku fidgeted. "...I-I'm sorry... but I don't feel comfortable talking about it... "

"Oh? Is that so?... Did he kiss you?"

A silence followed.

"He didn't, didn't he?"

Kiku just stayed quiet, either not wanting to answer his questions or feeling too embarrassed about it.

"What a pansy... who is this guy anyway?"

"You don't... need to know... ", he replied softly, trying not to anger Ludwig with his answer. He was basically trying to say 'why should it matter to you?'.

Ludwig remained silent and kept walking, Kiku doing the same until they finally reached the building and went up to Kiku's room. He quickly took out his key and unlocked the door, he just wanted to get away from the german as soon as possible.

"Well... t-thank you... good night Ludwig." He said as he opened the door and tried to walk in as fast as he could, but Ludwig stopped him by pulling on his sleeve.

"Wait, you're not just going to leave just like that, are you?" He asked, pulling him back outside and holding him closely. "How about a goodnight kiss?"

"W-What?"

"Relax... you make it sound like a bad thing."

"That's because it is! You have Feliciano! And I'm dating someone!"

"Feliciano doesn't matter... and I couldn't care less about the idiot you're going out with."

"...How... can you say that?..."

"Isn't it obvious?" He said while leaning in closer. "I like you..."

"...Ludwig... I-I... "

At that moment Kiku could feel Ludwig's hands caressing his face, up until now Ludwig had been forceful and intimidating, but this soft touch... was another side of him. Ludwig leaned in and kissed the other gently, Kiku giving in without hesitation. He wanted this, but yet again it felt wrong.

Ludwig pulled back, to stare into the other's chocolate brown eyes as caressed Kiku's lips with his fingers. This caused Kiku's lips to part, letting out a calm sigh, something about Ludwig's touch made him feel so at ease, so hypnotized. The tall blonde smiled and leaned in again, this time, sliding his tongue inside Kiku's mouth. He didn't recognize this type of kiss and he certainly didn't know how he would return it, so he let Ludwig guide him as he kissed him back the same way.

Ludwig's hands traveled down Kiku's torso and caressed his waist and lower back, while Kiku was quickly being overwhelmed by a new feeling. The smaller student wrapped his arms around the other's, deepening the kiss, he wanted more of him and at this point he couldn't control his body. Ludwig pushed Kiku on the wall, where he would proceed to kiss him more roughly. Small moans and incoherent words exited both their lips as they would loose each other in one lustful moment. Finally Ludwig pulled back, if only so they could both catch their breath.

"..I want you... ", said Ludwig, staring right into the other's eyes.

Kiku remained silent for a couple of seconds before realizing what it meant. He shot his eyes wide open and pushed the german in front of him, escaping from his arms and making his way inside the room, shutting the door and locking it.

"...Kiku?" Ludwig stared blankly at the door, where inside the room, the japanese remained silent, still in disbelief of what had just occurred. He then heard Ludwig's footsteps slowly fading away.

Kiku pressed his back against the door and slowly slid down, still panting from all he had gone through.

...What is wrong with me?

Next chapter will be put up once I get bored again (bored enough to write that is )

And also.. thank you very much for the reviews ^^ they make me very happy and keep me motivated to keep writing. I can't believe people actually like what I write XDDD;;

ppppfffff real quick lol I just noticed how I always seem to end the chapters with a little thought from Kiku rofl I seriously didn't notice this until now, maybe I'll keep doing it, kinda like a tradition/signature/blah