Hey guys!!!1 I'm SOOOO sorry it's taken like forever to write a new chapter!!! I've just been in this crazy writer's block mode! Well I see that some Team Edward fans have started reading this story which has really made me think about how this ending is going to be! I'm still thinking about it, But I thought I'd just let you know so that you won't be put down. This chapter is in Jacob's point of view so I hope you enjoy!
I was thinking about Bella. How her lips felt pressed against to mine and how she seemed so much happier than before. I really do think I was changing her thoughts of things. I was healing her. I knew that much. But what Bella didn't know is that she was changing me, too. I felt happier when I was around her, and things weren't so bad with the pack anymore. I felt that if as long as I had Bella by my side, the world and its retarded complications would be ok.
As I sat there on that beautiful beach day, daydreaming and fantasizing about my beautiful Bella (was I feeling ok? I mean seriously? DAYDREAMING???) , I heard a long depressing howl from the woods. Well, I thought, that's weird. Sam hasn't sent a distress call like that in quit a while. In fact, I don't think I've heard that kind of howl since Victoria…. OH MY GOD VICTORIA!!!! Something had happened with her and I had to figure out what it was. What if she got past us? What if she made it to Forks? What if she got Bella?
The tremors started almost immediately. I had to get away from here so that nobody would see me transform. I couldn't risk transforming in front of all of these people at the beach enjoying this beautiful day not knowing that some horrible monster was out there, hunting my loved one. I sprinted to the forest and finally got past where anybody could see me. I changed right then and there not even waiting to take my clothes off. I heard them rip as I transformed into the huge beast that I had gotten used to over time.
"WHAT HAPPENED? WHERE IS SHE? AND HOW DO WE STOP HER FROM REACHING BELLA? WE HAVE TO MAKE PLANS IMMEADEATELY TO ATTACK!! I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT YOU LET HER THROUGH YOU BI-"
"Jacob," Sam spoke, "Calm down. this has nothing to do with Victoria. Bella is as safe as she ever has been…… well….. almost"
I saw Sam's thoughts flooding quickly through his head as if it would hurt me less, as if it would have made a difference.
But it didn't. I saw the Cullens moving back in. I saw the borderline being reinforced. I saw the cold, pale faces of my enemies who haunted us all. The enemies that posed a threat more to me than anyone.
"There back," Sam whispered through our thoughts.
The Cullens were back….. which meant that I had lost Bella again into the world that had caused her so much pain. Though I knew that the moment she saw Edward's face again, she would forget all of it. She would forget all of the beautiful moments that we shared together these past few weeks. She would forget all that she had to go through by trying to get over him. She would forget how much trouble they had caused. She would forget that we had something special.
She would forget me.
And as I realized this, I suddenly became furious. After all that he had done to her, she would just accept him again. She would throw her whole life away to some god awful bloodsucker who had the urge to kill her every second of the day? After trying so hard to forget, after trying so hard to let go, she would just give up AND LET HIM BACK INTO HER LIFE AS IF NOTHING HAD CHANGED? AS IF NOTHING WAS DIFFERENT? AS IF NOTHING HAD EVER HAPPENED BETWEEN BELLA AND ME?
"Jake, man calm down it'll be ok."
CALM DOWN? CALM DOWN? HOW COULD I CALM DOWN? I HAD JUST LOST MY ONE TRUE LOVE TO THE THING THAT WAS MY ENEMY! THE THING THAT WAS THE MOST UNHEALTHY FOR HER!!!!
And with that, my heart tore into two. It was over. There was no hope, and I could feel it. But no matter what I thought, what I dreamed. what I prayed, I was still going to have to try. Try to win her back. Try to make her realize what she was getting herself into by being with him. Try to make her realize that she loved me more than him. But not right away. Because if I saw her right now, I would probably break down. And if I saw him right now, I would kill him. I would avoid her for as much time as I needed, and then I would make my stand.
"Good choice. " Sam said, "I think that that would be for the best."
And with that, the pack transformed back into humans. Everyone but me. Before I knew it, I was running. Running from all that was happening and washing away every thought away of the past few months except for the feel of Bella's lips on mine.