New Moon Scrapbook Chapter 4: Bring Me To Life, a twilight fanfic

Bring Me To Life- Evanescence

How can you see into my eyes like open doors
leading you down into my core
where I've become so numb without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
until you find it there and lead it back home

No one knocked on her door. No one called her. No one talked to her. No one looked at her. She was invisible. Bella could hardly bring myself to get up in the morning. Bella knew she was doing the bare minimum to survive. Every morning her weight was dropping. Her bones began to peek out from beneath her skin. It was all because of him. His heart had grasped her own and stolen it from her, ripping open a wide hole in her soul.

(Wake me up)
Wake me up inside
(I can't wake up)
Wake me up inside
(Save me)
call my name and save me from the dark
(Wake me up)
bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up)
before I come undone
(Save me)
save me from the nothing I've become

Without her heart she could not live. Without her life, she was dead. Severe depression had sunk in for her. Tears constantly lashed her and every night she would dream of that horrific moment when he had left her…in the forest…alone.

Now that I know what I'm without
you can't just leave me
breathe into me and make me real
bring me to life

Her eyes gazed back at her, cold and lifeless, as she stared in the bathroom mirror. Her cheekbones were becoming more prominent as her weight plummeted. Her cheeks were also always puffy from her leaking eyes. She was trying her best to live but it was too late. She was too far gone. She was dead. Cold and pale. Unliving. Alone. In pain. Dead.

It had been months since he had gone. Bella did nothing but sit at her window and watch the rain lash at her through the window. The marks on the window almost mirrored her own tear tracks. Every now and again she would see what she thought was a glimpse of him and the pain of her loss and her own death would hit her harder each time. She glanced out of the window seeing for the first time. She saw a silver Volvo pull up outside her house and a hand flew to her throat as she choked on air.

Bring me to life
(I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside)
Bring me to life

frozen inside without your touch without your love darling only you are the life among the dead

Gasping and wide-eyed, Bella fell to the floor. Tears ran faster down her cheeks. The doorbell rang. She screamed as the gaping hole in her abdomen ripped open. It was as if a light had come and torn her stomach. She balled herself up on the floor and cried out as the pain hit her again as she heard voices. The pain was becoming too much for her. She cried out weakly once more as the pain faded from her fingertips.

all this time I can't believe I couldn't see
kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
I've been sleeping a thousand years it seems
got to open my eyes to everything
without a thought without a voice without a soul
don't let me die here
there must be something more
bring me to life

She lay on her side, clutching her abdomen, for a long time. She was aware that time passed while she lay there. She felt the sun on her and disappear again while she stayed there. Bella didn't think she mattered anymore. She could feel that her life was of no importance. She wanted out with it all. She wanted death to consume her and burn up all her pain. She needed a distraction but nothing seemed to work with her. The pain just kept on rebounding inside her body.

Bella got up and ate. She showered and got dressed. That was as interesting as her morning life was. She glared at the bathroom mirror at her appearance. Not only would he never love her but no one else would either. She weighed herself and noted that she was three pounds lighter. She sighed and groaned as her stomach ached. She grabbed some Tylenol and a glass of water and went back to bed. She lay on the bed staring at the ceiling. Her life passed before her eyes slowly. She no longer had a grasp of time and the winter vacation was torturing her. She couldn't think of anything but…him. Slowly her knowledge of him and his ways…drove her over the edge and down into the dark abyss.

(Bring me to life)
I've been living a lie, there's nothing inside
(Bring me to life)