DISCLAIMER: Man, do you people really have to rub it in my face that I don't own Twilight? Jeez, here I am, tryin' to do something nice, and all I get is the fact that I have to make a stupid ass disclaimer... :( I want to own Twilight, but I do not, nor will I ever, own it. All rights go to Steph, BUT I still want to tell y'all that the plot, characters I might bring in, and Jasper (MAN, I love that vamp :D) are all mine... Well, at least Jazz is in my dreams... ;)
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Chapter 4: Friendship
Charlie and Sue's wedding would be up soon, so Alice was on her mark, picking out outfits for everyone and seeing for the perfect gift. She kept going on with blank expressions and searched the future to see what would be the perfect gift for them.
One day while having another vision, her face lit up, and she said: "Yes, it's perfect!,, and then she was out the door. We all stared after her, all of us except Edward, who played the piano. Then we all eyed him. "What was that about?,, I asked him, making my way towards him.
"She had a vision of the perfect gift we are getting Charlie and Sue,, he said randomly, as if it was perfectly normal, that he knew what it was all about. For us it was. For anybody else normal wouldn't be the right word.
Alice came back after an hour or so, with an excited expression her pixie-like face. She wouldn't reveal the present yet. I loved her insanely, but sometimes she got a little annoying. I rolled my eyes at her.
"You'll get an interesting call in a minute Bella!,, she said.
"May I ask from who?,, I said sarcastically.
"Nope, you will find out in 27 seconds!,, she teased. I just rolled my eyes more.
26 seconds later the phone rang. "HA, you said 27 seconds!,, I teased back. Now it was hers turn to roll her eyes.
"Bella here,, I answered the phone.
"Hi Bells, it's Charlie,, I heard an ecstatic Charlie reply.
"Oh hi Dad, what's up?,, I said, while Alice and I stuck our tongues out at each other. Then I smiled at her, and she responded the smile with a bell-like laugher.
"Can I come over?,, I frowned. He usually just showed up. There must be a special reason behind it. I thought all this in a fraction of a second so for him there wouldn't seem to be any hesitation.
"Uhm, sure dad, you can come whenever you want. Is Sue coming too?,, I said quickly.
"Uhm, no she's in La Push.,, He were almost exploding with delight, I could hear from the undertone in his sentence.
If Sue was in La Push, and Charlie came here, then it must be something pretty serious. And his voice was so excited that he sounded like a kid locked up in Disneyland all alone.
"Alice, is my dad going to tell me that Sue is pregnant or something?,, I asked her as soon as I had hung up.
She gawped at me like I was crazy.
"You should think you had my gift!,, she said in disbelief.
"It wasn't hard to figure out, what with his excited voice, and Sue not coming with him here!,, I assured her.
"Sue is in La Push, probably telling the good news down there.,, I said.
Alice smiled at me and said: "Yeah she is!,,
When Charlie came, I had to do my best looking surprised. If he knew that I had already figured it out, he would become sad, and maybe a little suspicious. Not good!
So when he walked in the door, and I as usually hugged him hi, I held a confused expression on my face.
"So, what's up dad?,, I asked trying to sound excited for the upcoming news.
"Bella, you may want to sit down.,, he started, and followed his own advice.
I sat, and looked curiously at him.
"So Bella, you know that Sue and I are getting married soon. And now we have some more exciting news. We plan on expanding our little family.,, he said to me with eyes sparkling at the excitement and happiness he felt. I wondered how Jasper felt right now.
As the human me would have done without trying, I tried to seem confused over what he said. "Uhm, what are you trying to tell me dad?,, I said in a puzzled tone with a irritated undertone. Perfect!
"What I'm trying to tell you is that-,, he cut off. And like I would have done when I was human I said: "Oh spit it out dad!,, in a annoyed voice.
"Hmpf,, he mumbled but his excitement took over and he forgot it in no time.
"Sue is pregnant!,, he said.
I did my best to sound surprised when I congratulated him.
"Oh, that's so great dad. I'm so happy for you guys.,, I said a little sly that I had figured it out just by listening to his voice.
Then all the others came and congratulated him too.
We drove home with Charlie, who said that Sue would have dinner ready. When we got there Seth, Leah and Sue already was there. When we stepped in the room Sue came and greeted us.
"Oh, hi there Edward, Nessie and Bella. How are you?,, she said and her voice too was all happy.
Seth and Leah sat on the couch in the living room. Seth looked really happy, to get a half brother.
But when we stepped in the room to say hi, something clicked for Leah. She got up and ran out the door without saying a thing. We all stood there looking like one big question mark.
"I got it,, I said and I could see the disbelief in Seth and Edwards eyes. I just shook my head at them, knowing it was my fault Leah ran away.
I walked towards the forest where Leah's scent lead me. When I was hidden by the trees I started running and followed the scent of Leah, and then the stronger scent of dog where she had phased. I kept running until I sought her. She had phased back, and was pacing back and forth on the small path. When she smelled me, her nose wrinkled and she looked up scowling at me.
I stood still, hands forward, as to say that I came with peace.
"Leah, I know you and I haven't got along quite well, but I think that if we just got to know each other better, we could do better.,, I said moving a little forward.
She said nothing.
"Leah, what have I done wrong?,, I asked with little voice, I didn't like being hated.
No answer.
Then it clicked. She didn't run of, until she saw me. She had been happy enough on her mother's way until I came into view. She was disgusted by the thought of her being related to me. My face pained when I realized how much she despised me.
I turned my back to her, shoulders and head hanging, slowly walking back to Charlie's house.
Leah surprised me when she said: "Bella, wait!,,
I turned around fast enough to see her taking a trying step towards me.
"I'm sorry Bella. I know I haven't treated you too good.,, she sounded sad.
"It's just that-,, she trailed off a little but then started again.
"It's just that I don't know what to think of you.,, she said.
Then she fell to her knees and the words started to flow.
"When you and I still were humans, I was sort of jealous at you. You had a great friend in Jacob, and you had a wonderful boyfriend who loves you more than he loves himself. When you were in La Push visiting Jacob and Seth and I stepped by, I could see how much in love Jacob was with you. And I became jealous at you because you had so many boys around you, while the one I loved suddenly imprinted and dumped me. It was a hard time for me, and I had no "real" friends I could talk with about it. You moved here, and then BAM every boy at your school, many boys from the reservation just fell in love with you. For me it seemed like you enjoyed being center of attention, but when I took a closer look it seemed for me like you didn't like it. And that made me almost angrier at you, because you just thought it was embarrassing. You had every boy who would be glad just to be your friend, and you didn't even notice. And in their eager to become your friend they totally oversaw the ones who really needed a friend. The more I couldn't speak to anybody about my problem, the more I just hated the thought of you. Sorry-,, she trailed off again to take a deep breath.
I stared at her, not knowing how to feel. Did Leah –LEAH- sit there on her knees apologizing to me? I fell to my knees too, and crawled over to her. She started crying.
"All, I ever wanted was to have a real friend, a friend like Jake is for you. But everybody took my sourness about my loss of Sam as a warning of staying away from me. and then when I became a wolf, and found out that I was a dead-end, and found out what Edward is, and what your plans were, I got even more hatred in my system. Just like Rosalie, I would give anything to be normal again. In my case it even is possible. But still I'm frozen at 20 for many years forward, and what if I meat somebody who is human and aging the way it's supposed to be, and he grows from me? I don't know what I would do about that, I have already been hurt too much. And then, when you got a baby and gets to keep her forever, I just lost it. Here I am forever frozen at 20 and it's not possible for me to have a child. And I really want one. I'm afraid I'll never be able to get one. And I don't know what to do about it.
The thing that made me mad the most, was that you kept paining Jacob once. He was totally in love with you, but you chose some vampire over him. Understand me right, it is kind of bad for a werewolf not to be chosen over a vampire. At the time before I became a wolf I kinda had a crush on Jake-,, she smiled a little between sobs.
"And then, when I had the opportunity to get away from Sam's thoughts I took the chance and had to protect you. It really wasn't nice for me you know. And the worst part is, that when you moved to Forks I had an idea that you might be able to be the friend, I never had. And now, when I have confined my feelings too long, and figured out that you and I were going to be stepsisters I couldn't take it anymore. The one I hated the most was going to be related to me. And I'm sorry for everything I have done to you. For all the times I have denied you too harshly.,, she finished and dried her eyes with her sleeve. I sat there for a tiny while, and tried to make my super fast brain work again. When it slowly – for normal vampire standard- worked again I felt very sorry for her.
"I'm so sorry too, Leah. I should have realized that you just needed a friend, and I didn't. I abandoned you when you needed me the most. I'm sorry for what I have caused you and Seth. I truly am. Can you ever forgive me?,, I started cry tearless sobs too.
"It should be me asking you for forgiveness!,, she said. We half smiled at each other and then I maybe did something thoughtless.
I leaned over and hugged her, despite her fire-hot skin, and awful smell. I smelt bad to her too, and my skin was freezing cold to her. She stiffened but then relaxed and hugged me too. We sat like that for a while and then, when we both stopped crying –in my case, when I stopped sobbing- we rose from our knees and started walking back to the others. I laid my arm around her shoulders and tried comfort her by robbing my other hand up and down at her other arm –and left goosebumps- but she didn't flinch.
Maybe she would be able to talk to me about the Sam-thing. Maybe she would be able to get over him. I was glad that we finally could get along. And maybe I could be the friend she had missed.
When we walked out the forest and towards the house, Edward and Seth saw us through the window. And their eyes started bug wide, when they really saw us. I tried to let of my shield to let Edward in, but it was too hard on this distance. When we got in the house, I tried again. This time with better luck. I replayed the scene and Edward understood the most of it, but something must have been to "girly" for him to understand. He shook his head in confusion, but composed himself. Seth hadn't a chance understanding. He would have to ask Leah later.
Later when we were on our way home, I tried to explain to him what he didn't understand. First when we got to the driveway he finally understood everything. We got inside and found the house empty. On the desk there was a note to us: Gone hunting around Seattle, are home by midnight.
We decided to stay at the main house. Renesmee- already fast asleep- slept on the couch. She seemed far away, but we wouldn't disturb her. We went to Edward's old room, where the huge bed still stood. I laid down, and felt Edward lay beside me. I closed my eyes, and felt his eyes on me. I turned my head towards him, and opened my eyes to find his staring at me. His eyes were so irresistible that I involuntarily kissed him. Suddenly I was on the top of him, and the kiss became more eager and passionate. And then my clothes were on the floor and so were his. And then sooner than I expected the others were home and we had to stop.
We hurriedly got dressed up, and after checking my hair, I was running down the stairs after Edward. I must have had a regretful look on my face, because Emmett started chuckle. I would have blushed if such a thing hadn't been impossible to me. Thank God for that!
Instead I just scowled at him. He laughed a lot at that. I looked at Edward who stared at Jasper. I then looked at Jasper, and he looked ashamed. The truth washed over me, when I saw his face. Oh. Jasper had told on us. He would have to pay for that! Maybe I should fight against Jasper the next time. Hmm that might be a great idea. Take him down, like I did with Emmett. That would be quite a challenge, but I was up for it. This would be fun. Then Alice looked at me, when she saw my plan, and nodded. It was both to tell me that I was right in the thing about Emmett knew, and me fighting Jasper.
"Thank you Alice,, I mouthed to her. She smiled at me. Fighting against Jasper without Alice approving so, would be a disaster.
Jasper must have felt what I felt and he looked apologetic at me. I just smiled a sly smile at him. Then I opened my shield to let Edward know about my plan.
Bad idea. His head snapped up when he read my thought and he shook his head angrily. Then I thought: 'Why not?' he just shook his head again.
'Is it because Jasper has so much fighting experience?' I kept going.
He nodded.
'Remember I have still my new born strength, and he even taught me something himself. I told him it would be used on Emmett, and he helped me. What he doesn't know is that I can find a way to do it on him too!' I mentally smiled, and then he could see it for him. Me taking Jasper down, maybe the only one able to do so. He grinned and nodded.
Jasper, who couldn't read the thoughts behind the feelings, looked confused at us, when he felt what we felt.
Then I controlled my emotions and Jasper relaxed a bit. He can only wait for it.
Then everybody except Edward, Carlisle and I went to work on the new houses.
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