(well here's another instalment! Thanks for reading the other chapters I'm really glad people like it so far disclaimer: I do not own twilight but I do own the plots to bitten love. All original story lines are Stephanie Meyers)

bitten love

chapter 4 : depression and the hunts.

After the incident I didn't dare to go out, Edward wouldn't leave my side. I still couldn't believe what had happened, I could still see me killing my family , even Jake! I felt despicable. My over active imagination was showing me their blood me drinking it. I could taste it in my mouth.

Edward was trying to comfort me telling me he had never seen a new born with so much self control. It made me feel worse. A month passed of me doing nothing but mope. I didn't want to worry Edward so I tried to make it as though nothing had happened while I was around him. I watched T.V most of the time or read a book. Not doing much. After a while I saw the look Edward was giving me. I knew I wasn't fooling him.

"C'mon Bella. You must be dying of thirst -no pun intended- your eyes are like coal!" Edward pleaded for me to go with him

"NO I'm not hungry, thirsty or whatever you call it!! I'm not going out." I spun away from him childishly so I couldn't see his face. I heard him sigh from behind me. I felt his arm under my legs which I had my arms wrapped around his other arm placed itself on my back and lifted me up.

"E-Edward put me down!" I whispered not wanting to attract attention to us while in the dark street

"No. It's not good moping around. And it's worse for you to starve yourself!" his voice was calm but had a hint of deadly anger. It scared me slightly. I didn't want to go but I didn't have the strength to argue or fight with him.

Edward started to run. After three hours of running – It seemed like longer- his pace slowed and he put me down in the middle of a forest. It was dusk. The bright sun- sun!? how far away from forks are we!?- became orange turning the leaves a beautiful auburn colour and then they turned black as the sun left the sky only the light of the moon shined on us.

"Edward wher-" Edward interrupted me by shushing me I looked around but couldn't see him I heard a noise like a bear roaring. I smelt blood. The same feeling from before knotted my stomach, burned my throat. This time I couldn't resist. I found the bear and it's blood. I felt venom in my mouth. I felt my teeth suck the blood of the bear. It tasted sweet and it felt good sliding down my throat. The blood eased the burning and unknotted my stomach. I felt full after a while. I was happy.

I felt the blood trickle down my mouth. I pulled away wiping the blood with a leaf. I didn't want blood on the clothes. I walked a bit off not wanting to look at what I just drank. I sat on a small hill.

Thinking of what had just happened but , as unusual as it sounds I just didn't care. I heard a rustle in the bushes adjacent to me.

"Edward?" my voice broke , I was currently slightly scared.

"Edward don't mess about come out!" I shouted at the bush feeling a bit stupid.

"Bella? Don't run again please." I jumped at the voice I would know it anywhere. Jacob.

"Jake seriously don't it's not good for you to be around me. And hang on how the hell did you know I was here!?" I realised he must of followed me or saw me and Edward or something.

" I smelt someone and then. I recognised part of the scent it was yours so I followed it. Bella whats happened to you?" Jakes voice sounded upset and worried.

"Jake I'm telling you it's no good to be around me any more. I nearly killed you last time. I don;t want that to happen again. Jake don't tell Charlie or Renee I'm still alive.. well I sort of am." I giggled nervously.

"what do you mean sort of alive? You don't mean. You can't mean!" Jake's voice got louder he knew what had happened now.

"Jake quieter please!" I felt someone's hand on my shoulder. Jake was right in front of me now

"Please Jake go." I begged turning my face away from him.

"Fine but promise me something."

"Anything" I said just wanting him to leave.

"don't forget me." I felt his lips on mine. Soft and gentle. I didn't know what was going on.

When I realised what was going on Jake had gone.

(okay that's it for this instalment, I have no idea what was in my head at the last bit. Remember this is my world it's not really that much based on what Stephanie Meyer wrote so Jake inst a wear wolf here. Thanks for reading review please!!)