Drifting SANITY Chapter 4
I watch Hiroki leave the room in shock of what he just said. 'Shinobu's class ends in 2 hours?! How did he know I was dating him?! Was it too obvious? Or did Shinobu tell someone?' These questions spiraled around my head for god knows how long. 'Ahh, whatever. As long as hes the only one that knows, then it'll be fine. Now its time to get back to work. I will NOT let this brat get in the way of my work.'
Its been an hour, just one more and I'll see Shinobu and speak to him face to face. I have one more hour to plan what I'm going to say to him. I must make whatever I'm going to say persuading and inviting, or else it will all fail, and I'll do nothing but make a fool of myself. I finish the last couple sheets of paper work I had to do, and then placed them into there racks. '30 more minutes until his class brake, finally. I wonder if he has any other friends or "sempai's" that hes closer to than me. I bet he has so much more fun talking to that foreigner brat than me! Every time they're together, Shinobu's almost always smiling, like hes having the time of his life.
… That foreigner is a threat. Shinobu's probably going out with him behind my back.' No, no! You're having bad thoughts! Of course he isn't cheating on you. You're just overreacting. 'But what if he is cheating on me? All the evidence is right there in front of you! He acts like he hates you, but says its love, he laughs and jokes with friends, but yells at me. Its so obvious! That foreigner and Shinobu are too close, so close that Shinobu is slowly starting to reject me. Thats why he left me to a "Friends House" with nothing but a text to wager. An angry text. God knows what Shinobu did at that house behind my back. He probably had such a steamy night there with his sempai.'
All these thoughts are starting to piss me off more and more by the second. I want to hate him, but I just can't jump to conclusions! I wont know if hes dating him until I see a kiss. Then and only then, will I-
RING RING!
The bell! Finally, 2 hours have passed! Now it is time to straighten this crap out.
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I silently walk my way into the cafeteria where Shinobu should be at, probably eating joyfully with his friends. As I walk into the cafeteria, I look around myself, trying not to be spotted by Shinobu, or anyone who recognizes me. So far, nobody suspects a thing. As I walk my way through the cafeteria (Holding a coffee cup for effect), I took advantage of my height. Like a watch tower, I looked over the countless heads of students and teachers in search of Shinobu, or one of his friends. 'Dammit, where is he? Did he even come to school today, or did Hiroki trick me?' As I was about to give up and look somewhere else, I caught a glimpse of something. A brown'ish jacket, blond hair, somewhat tall figure?.. Thats Shinobus' foreign friend all right! I can already picture the smug look on his face, but I cant see it since his head is turned.
I slowly stalk my way closer to the lunch table the brat sat at, trying as hard as I could to not look suspicious, but I'm starting to get odd looks anyway. 'Just a little closer, if I could just hear what they are saying..'
"Hey Shinobu, I got us the sushi you wanted!" He says, in English. Ahh! So he IS here! If only I can get a good look at him, but there's to many damn people in the way.
"But I thought I gave you the money to buy me the sushi?" He responds, playfully.
"Oh come on! Can't I not have at least one?" He ask, in such a sickeningly kind voice.
"aww, alright, but you owe me one!" He says, with a 'giggle' (something I rarely hear from Shinobu). Things then go a little quieter. I'm guessing they're eating right now, peacefully and happy. I swear, If I see them eating out of each others mouths like birds, I will chuck a chair at em.
"Mmm, these taste much better than they look!" Goldy Locks unnecessarily spilled, with such a happy-go-Lucky voice.
"I know! I get them almost all the time when I eat here." Shinobu said, also having the same irritating, happy voice!
"Hey Shinobu, you sure you're ok? You still seem a little blue." Really? Hes sad? Doesn't sound like it.
"Naw, its ok.. I'm fine, really!" Yeah hes fine. Stop patronizing him!
"Oh come on Shinobu. I can tell by the look on your face that you're still not ok."
"Sigh, my partner is just, such a jerk at times." What...?
"Your girlfriend? Is she really bossy or something?" I'm guessing he never told him he was gay.
"No, well... Not exactly.. Shes just so annoying at times!" What...?!
"Like how?"
"For some reason, she just started asking me all these questions lately! Like, 'why are we together,' or 'why are you making so much cabbage.'"
"When did she start asking these questions? Has this been going on for a while?"
"No! He-She just started asking them yesterday, and it was so sudden too. I think she might be thinking about leaving me..." I almost spoke out when he said that.. 'No, its not like that, Shinobu. I just wanted an answer, dammit!'
"So her drinking problem wasn't the only reason you came to my house for." He told that blond-headed bitch about the drinking too?!
"Yeah, I just don't." He then slumped over in his seat and clasped his hands over his face. "How am I supposed to face him?"
"Him?" Shinobu then abruptly looked up. I'm guessing he took notice of his little slip up. "You mean she?"
"AhhhAHhh, YEAH! I-I meant she! Just a slip of tongue! Haha!" He brushes off, with a nerves laugh. (not the best at lying)
"... Shinobu, are you gay?" Oh shit.
"Ahh, well.. I-I.. Not really.."
"Its alright if you are Shinobu, Where friends! You didn't have to lie about." He says, in such a sickeningly kind-hearted voice.
"S-s-so, you're not weirded out that I'm gay?"
"Not at all. Hehe, I guess you can say we have something in common." What?!
"You're also?!-"
"Yeah, but I think I'm more in the bi team." Shinobu stayed silent. "Hey Shinobu, are you going to your boyfriends house later on?"
"I... I-I don't really know if I can do it. I might need more time."
"... Do you still love him?.." The question caught me off guard, and almost made me crush the coffee cup and spill the hot liquid all over my hands. What!? What a stupid question! Of course he loves me. He was obsessing with me nonstop when we first me-
"I.. I don't really know." … what?
"Wanna stay over my house tonight, then?" What?!
".. yeah, that'll help me out a lot."
"WHAT?!" I could not stand this bullshittery no more! I'm at my limit now!
"M-Miyagi?! How long where you here?!" Shinobu questions with wide eyes.
"Long enough. I think I heard everything I needed to hear."
"Is that you're boyfriend?!" The blond-headed brat questions. What a dumb question, of course its me! "He looks like hes in his 40s." This little shit... but he does have a good point. I don't know why Shinobu was attracted to me out of all the young hotties around here.
"Its 30s, and it is non of your business of what goes on between me, and Shinobu." I look over at Shinobu to see one of the most shocked faces I have ever seen. I couldn't tell what hes thinking; nothing but a concoction of emotions, but I knew happiness was not one of those emotions.
"Go away, I don't want to see you here.."
"So now you want me gone? days on end, you where harassing me, now out of the blue you want me gone?!"
"You brought this upon yourself! The way you where acting yesterday was COMPLETELY uncalled for! an-"
"Dammit, keep your voice down! You're causing a scene. Lets just go ho-"
"NO!" Ahh! Hes shouting again, and in such a public place too. Hes trying to make me look like the bad guy! "I am not going to yo-"
"Shoosh! Seriously, lets just go into a more private place and talk?" He then abruptly stood up, and stared me in eyes. His eyes look a little glassy, like he was about to cry?
"No, I don't want to see you. Not now at least... You hurt me vocally, and I just cant live with you after what you've done." He whimpered, just barely cracking a whisper. He turned around, and before he could run away, I grabbed his arm. He turned his head and looked at me in shock.
"Miyagi? I told you I do not want to see you!" Agh, such a scene! I just want him to listen to me. Why is that so hard?!
"Shinobu, just hear me ou-"
"Let Shinobu go, Mi-ya-gi sensei." I turn to see Goldy-locks, or in other words, Shinobu's lice headed friend from England. (I think its England?) Why is he so eager to keep me away from him?
"I told you to stay out of this!"
"If Shinobu's life is at risk, I'm involved." At risk?!
"Wh-what the hell? Shinobu's life is not at risk. I just want to talk to him, right shinobu?" I wasn't paying enough attention. As I was trying to reason with the foreigner, Shinobu tugged is hand out off my grip and bolted to the door. "Wait, Shinobu!"
"You see? He doesn't want to be with you anymore!" Oh my god.
"Shut. The fuck. Up." Good, he listened, but it didn't bring Shinobu back. I was going to go after him and try to talk to him in a less public area, but there are already enough eyes on me. Agh, I really hope nobody tells any of my bosses about this.
I walk the opposite direction of where Shinobu ran in defeat, head down and all. As I dramatically left the cafeteria, I turned my head and took one more glance at that foreigner kid, and I wish I haven't. His arms where crossed, his eyes where narrowed, and he had the most smug, shit-eating grin I have ever seen.
You'll regret this day. Not now, but soon.
Very soon.
I know, I have a dark sense of humor :D
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