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MM: Sorry for the really, really, REALLY late update. I never updated this ever since June because I've been busy updating "Youichi's Birthday Present" (which is, by the way, finished). I also posted a new story entitled "Twist of Fate" and I plan to update it alternately along with this story… which means I won't put it on hiatus. I won't put my stories on hiatus anymore since I think that everyday it's getting more passé.
I hope you can understand the situation… well, I present to you, Chapter 4!
Natsume's Painting
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Dedicated to: Ruin Princess (ILY BUDDY!)
Chapter IV – Love and Jealousy
Disclaimer: I don't own Gakuen Alice… it belongs to someone else!!!
The shining moon was light to the brunette. She was crying her tears out loud at the field. How could Natsume deny the fact that he loved her? As she continues to weep, a guy walked towards her direction and handed her his handkerchief.
"Why are you crying?" he asked
Mikan replied with a sniff. "Nothing… I was just crying because I wanted to."
Then, he sat beside Mikan. He looked up in the sky, and said, "You know what, Natsume always loved painting. But he never expected that you'll be alive. I think Natsume's a bit confused in his situation right now. He's been suffering ever since." He said.
"So, you think I'm a burden to Natsume?" Mikan asked
"To be honest, yes." He replied. "Why don't you give Natsume some space first? Then maybe everything will be back to normal."
"How can I be called normal?" Mikan asked as he turned around towards her. "I'm a painting that has been brought to life. I never experienced childhood or birth… I've never experienced love… What will I do if Natsume wasn't here? What will happen if Natsume didn't wish me here?"
"If Natsume didn't wish you here, life would've been the same for him." He replied as Mikan looked in him and continues to listen. "Everyday, he comes back to his room, tired, and sleeps in class. And in the afternoon, he still rests himself at the Sakura Tree. And in the evening, he prepares himself for another mission."
"Everyday has been the same for Natsume. Nothing has changed… but when he wished you here, his everyday life has never been the same." He said. "I memorize his schedule, since I know that he's going to do it everyday. But I fear the day that he'll never come back at dawn…"
While Mikan listened to his side, she begins to understand Natsume's point of view.
"Thank you… Ruka" she said as she laid her head on his shoulder.
On the other hand, Natsume, feeling guilty, worried about Mikan's sake… so he searched for her in every corner of the academy.
Finally, he found her under the moonlight. She was resting with his best friend, no one but Ruka. Suddenly, jealousy began to sprout, and Natsume got so angry. But, he was able to control it and walk away without disturbing the two.
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After a conversation with Ruka, Mikan went back to her room. As she closed the door behind her back, and opened the lights, she saw Natsume by her window. Surprised by this, she asked, "What are you doing here?"
He growled for a moment, and asked, "The question is… what were you doing?"
"I took a walk around campus. Why?" Mikan asked, but that wasn't the answer Natsume was looking for.
"You had a talk with Ruka?" Natsume asked. Mikan realized that Natsume knows, but she tries to deny the truth by saying no.
"Liar", Natsume whispered.
"I'm not lying!" Mikan exclaimed, and then, Natsume stood up and went up close to Mikan. Then, he said, "Look in my eyes and tell me you didn't meet with Ruka."
Mikan can't, since she is an innocent lady. It's hard for her to lie just like that.
"Tell me!" He yelled at her.
"Alright, alright, alright! I did meet him. But it was only an accident. He handed me his handkerchief when I was crying and we talked for a while."
"Why were you talking to him?"
"Why do you even care? Ruka's your best friend, right? He has trusted you all his life and you don't trust him!?"
"I do trust Ruka!"
"Then why do you doubt your friendship with him? You told me that you don't love me, so you don't have the right to be jealous since I can hang out with any guy I like."
"I'm not saying I'm jealous alright!"
"Then explain to me the reason why are you here. Why are you sitting by my window, waiting for me and wanting to talk to me about Ruka? Why did you believe me when I told you I was Mikan, your painting? Why did you wish for me to live? Why did you make me as a daily routine of your life? And beyond them all, why did you even painted me in the first place? Isn't it because of love—believing that you can find something or even someone to be with. Isn't that what you want!?!? "
"Mikan--,"
"That's enough," she said, "You don't love me anyway, so maybe I must be from another painting… but not yours."
"Mikan--,"
"You can go now." That's all Mikan can say, and Natsume followed by going out of her room. He walked with a shocked yet miserable expression going back to his dorm. He remembered those days when she was just a painting. "My creation has feelings now, but why am I so cruel to her when before I loved her? Why did I lie about my feelings?" Natsume thought
On the other hand, Mikan went near the window. She clenched her fists and banged the wall while crying. Then, she kept on saying "Idiot".
"That idiot Natsume. Why did you even love me? Why were you lying to me from the very start!?!" She said as she kept hitting the wall with her fists until it bled, since she punched too hard. Mikan kept on crying and crying.
The next day, Mikan looked as cheerful as ever going to school. She was humming and skipping heading to class until Ruka saw her and called her attention. "Mikan!" he called
Mikan stopped and looked back. She saw a waving Ruka behind her. She waved back as Ruka caught up with her.
"Good morning" he greeted her.
"Good morning to you too!" Mikan replied with a smile
Natsume was walking to class when he stopped and sees Ruka and Mikan together. Jealous of it, he began to ball his fists, wanting to express his anger against them, but can't. He just can't fight against the friend he only has, and the girl whom he loves. Since he can't jus fight with Ruka, he just continues to walk and pass by them.
Mikan noticed Natsume, so she followed him. Ruka felt bitter afterwards.
"Hi Natsume," she greeted him as he continues to give her a cold shoulder. "Hey Natsume, could you just talk to me for a while?"… Yet she's still being ignored. Then, she blocked him along his way. "Why are you ignoring me?"
"Step aside," Natsume said
"Look, I know we fought last night but I wanted to tell you what I feel." Mikan replied
"Whatever," Natsume answered back, but Mikan stretched her right hand out, and said, "You won't pass until you say sorry."
Natsume was a bit annoyed this time, so he slapped Mikan's hand so that he can pass.
Mikan felt the pain, since the hand that Natsume slapped was the hand that got wounded when Mikan punched her fists on the wall. She sat down with her feet supporting her as she holds her hand and hissed the pain. Natsume began to worry when he looked back, so he asked, "What's wrong?"
Mikan looked up and replied, "Nothing… You just hit my hand too hard" as she continues to react to the pain.
Natsume pulled her hand all of a sudden, and she felt pain again. He was shocked to see that his creation was ruined… she was injured, but how?
"Where did you get this?" Natsume asked, but Mikan didn't reply. He got madder so he asked once more, "Where did you get this!?"
"Natsume," Ruka called Natsume's attention. Then, he told Mikan to go to class before she gets late. He confronted Natsume and asked, "Why were you torturing Mikan?"
"I wasn't torturing her. She had an injury and I just wanted to know how she got it." Natsume replied as he turned his back against Ruka
"But aren't you being cruel to her?" Ruka told him
"I'm not being cruel… you are."
"What?" Ruka asked with a curious face
"You know I love Mikan. What were you doing to her comforting her like a boyfriend she never had?"
"I don't know what you're talking about Natsume."
"You certainly know what I'm talking about! You were my best friend and a trusted companion yet you have the guts to say to me that you don't know what I'm talking about!?"
"Why do you think that I'm hitting on Mikan!? Mikan is not a possession Natsume." He replied while going inside the school
"Why you little--." Natsume said as he punched Ruka on the face.
Then, Ruka began to hit back, but even stronger that made Natsume shocked. "Actually, you're the cruelest person I've ever met!" Ruka told Natsume. "I never liked the way you acted with everybody. Yeah, you're the most powerful person here in the academy. So what? You die everyday! You treat all your friends with a cold shoulder, you walk around looking cool but the truth is that you're hurt inside. And the dumbest thing you have ever done is lie to Mikan about the fact that you love her! You know what your problem is, Natsume? Trust—you don't have trust. You think that everyone betrays you and you don't even trust your friends!"
"You know what, have it your way. I do like Mikan, but after the way you treated her, it seems like I don't have a choice. I must fight for my love. And you must too. Learn how to face yourself without losing, Natsume. Because if you lose to yourself, you'll lose with anyone." And after his speech, he left him, sitting with a shocked look.
Ruka went to his classroom and sat beside Mikan. Mikan was a bit happy by the feeling that she has a companion beside her, but little did she know that he was a lover of hers.
That night, Mikan was inside her room, studying for her test tomorrow. Then, she thought, "Hmm… this calculus thing isn't a problem. Natsume designed me to be a smart person. Wait… Natsume? Wait… I must be daydreaming of him. But whatever I do, I'm really designed… ergh… I'm meant to be with Natsume. Being without him feels lonely." She sighed after, and then she heard a knock on the door.
"It's open!" she said as two girls opened the door and entered.
"Anna, Nonoko. What brings you two up here?" Mikan asked
"We're having problems with Calculus. Will you help us?" Anna asked. Mikan replied with a nod.
"Suddenly, I begin to realize why I am here, what my reason is for staying here. It is true that Natsume wished me to become human, but even if I don't know the reason is, I want to be more than being Natsume's pet." Mikan thought.
END OF CHAPTER
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Here's a preview of the next chapter:
"Natsume, why are you wearing that?"
"Isn't it cute? I know that girls like cute stuff like these."
"If you're really motivated to get Mikan back, you better do it properly."
"Ruka, I know Mikan more than you. I created her so I know her inside-out. And I'm not losing to you."
Well, here it is! I will try to update if I have time and PLEASE REVIEW! Maybe no one liked it because no one reviewed… :(
