Chapter Four:
If she had been asked, Olivia wouldn't have been able to explain why she was looking at the internet comments on their sex tape. It was masochistic in the extreme, but for reasons she couldn't articulate, she felt the need to prepare herself for anything that might come up when she was called to the witness stand the next morning. The comments on this particular version of the video slanted towards the positive. Positive for the viewers, that is, not for Olivia herself. Even the most determined optimist in the world would have found it difficult to find a silver lining in this situation. Not to say there weren't a few religious tirades and misogynistic invitations for threesomes.
The first comment was, sadly, 'First!', and so was the second. After that, things started to get a little more interesting and a lot more painful.
"i dont understand i thought that brown hair chick was from a tv show?" - Olivia had no idea which actress she might resemble, and gave up trying to figure it out since there was no way to tell.
"This is the hottest thing I've ever seen."
"*Sploosh!* World's. Best. Orgasm."
"We live in sad times where our politicians post their sins against God for all the world to see." The first response to that comment coaxed a small twitch of a smile from Olivia's pursed lips. "You probably typed that with your dick in your hand. Go die in a fire."
"those two are hot but it would be so muhc hotter if I was there! lol ;D"
"If I get 17 thumbs up I'll leave this open on my best friend's Dad's computer!" So far, the attention-starved internet troll had only received six thumbs up. The overall rating for the video had been disabled by the poster.
"I feel bad for them. I heard the tape was stolen from there house?" Olivia could practically hear Alex ranting about the correct usages of their, there, and they're in her head.
More rants about God and sin sent the comments section spiraling into a full-on gay marriage debate, and Olivia turned away, disgusted. She tried to remember what line of reasoning she had used to explain her actions, but couldn't come up with anything except that, on some level, she had wanted to hurt herself. Now the question was why.
"Olivia?" The soft voice coming from behind her startled the captain, and she let out a shaky breath, turning around in her computer chair.
"Alex, you scared me. Sorry I'm a bit jumpy."
The District Attorney frowned. "What were you doing?"
Olivia knew there was no use hiding. She hadn't been fast enough to click out of the window. "I was reading some of the comments on our..." For some reason, Olivia felt too emotionally exhausted to finish the sentence.
A brief flash of anger crossed Alex's face, but it disappeared just as quickly, replaced by a look of worry and confusion. "Why?" she asked, putting her hands on Olivia's shoulders and massaging the trigger points behind her wife's shoulder blades.
"I wish I knew. I guess I wanted to be prepared for whatever they throw at me tomorrow."
"It won't be that bad. You know all of questions Jonathan will ask."
"He's not the one I'm concerned about," Olivia muttered.
"The Defense tried to argue that your testimony was irrelevant, so I doubt they'll have too many questions for you. I bet you'll be done within fifteen minutes." Olivia knew that Alex was lying, but since it was to make her feel better, she didn't protest. The important thing was that Alex cared about her.
Feeling a little vulnerable, Olivia decided to confess some of her worries. "I just don't want to see you hurt anymore. This has been hard on you..."
"It's been hard on you, too," Alex reminded her. "Both of us were on that tape." Both of them had been violated. Both of them had been hurt. Olivia's reactions had varied from possessive anger to intense worry, but in the past couple of months, she had rarely allowed Alex to simply offer comfort. Suddenly, she realized that she needed it. She wanted to make love with Alex, not just because she wanted the blonde physically, but because she craved the emotional intimacy.
"Alex, I - we could..."
"- I know," the attorney said, stroking Olivia's upper arm and giving her a soft, loving smile. Before the blackmail, neither of them would have thought it was necessary to check in with each other. The answer to the unspoken question was always yes. Now, they couldn't help being a little hesitant around each other, even though neither of them was to blame.
Carefully, Alex cupped Olivia's cheek, bringing her wife's face closer. Both of them felt a familiar, relaxing heat rush over their skin like warm water as their lips met. Olivia didn't just accept Alex's kiss, but returned it with full force, pulling closer and encouraging the attorney to wrap an arm around her waist. The need for breath forced them apart sooner than they would have liked, and Alex took the opportunity to walk Olivia backwards towards their bed. They had purchased it together shortly before their marriage, but hadn't broken it in until after they returned from their honeymoon. It was truly 'their' bed, and not simply 'a' bed.
"I want you to let go tonight," Alex whispered, kissing Olivia's chin. "You've been over-thinking the testimony you have to give tomorrow." She reached for the brunette's hand and squeezed it, lacing their fingers together as she eased Olivia into a sitting position at the foot of the bed.
"I'm pretty sure that's always been our problem. It's not easy for a lawyer and a cop to turn off their brains and stop thinking."
Alex's response was a seductive smile. "Maybe I can help..." she purred, straddling Olivia's hips and leaning down for another kiss. Like the first, it was hard, deliberate, and very deep. Olivia's hand gripped Alex's hip when the attorney tilted her head ever so slightly to one side, her lips parting in a clear invitation for more. She couldn't resist tugging on Alex's lower lip with her teeth before following the hint and pressing forward with her tongue. However, Alex surprised her by taking control of the kiss herself, thoroughly possessing Olivia's mouth as she straddled both of her legs, letting her fingers run through the former detective's dark hair.
"You are so incredibly beautiful," Olivia said impulsively, her hands wandering around Alex's waist to caress the small of her back.
"I know," Alex shot back, gripping Olivia's shoulders gently and forcing her to lie down. Once Olivia was stretched out beneath her, the blonde made quick work of her shirt, blue eyes darkening hungrily at the sight of her wife's breasts covered only by a black bra. "So, are you ready to be ravished by the most beautiful woman in the world?"
Olivia smiled, knowing that Alex wasn't just referring to physical appearance. It was true that the district attorney was an extremely attractive woman, but the part of herself that Alex had trouble seeing as beautiful was her soul, not her body. That was why she needed Olivia to remind her. It had taken years for both of them to get to this point, but with Olivia's steady encouragement, Alex felt comfortable with who she was for the first time in her life.
"Ravish away, sweetie."
Alex slipped her fingers beneath the underwire of Olivia's bra, gently cupping her breasts, trying to express through touch just how much Olivia's love and support meant to her. Although Olivia was usually the more dominant one in the bedroom, she gladly allowed Alex to take control this time. She could sense that Alex wanted to comfort her, and she had to admit that affection from her lover was exactly what she needed to ease the weary, tired ache in her chest.
"I want to see you too," Olivia whispered, tugging on the sleeves of the attorney's pullover. Even though she didn't appreciate the interruption in her plans, Alex obligingly lifted her shirt over her head and undid the back clasp of her bra before Olivia even had the chance to ask.
Keeping her movements slow and deliberate, Alex began trailing kisses down the column of Olivia's throat, smiling slightly every time she found a sensitive spot. She nibbled gently on her lover's pulse point, enjoying the way Olivia shifted beneath her, trying to find some kind of friction to ease her growing arousal. A sigh of relief escaped her lips when one of Alex's knees settled between her legs. "It's all right," Alex murmured against the warm skin of Olivia's throat, "I love you."
The DA was touched by the trust and vulnerability Olivia was placing in her, but her thoughts darkened for a moment as she remembered something. After the tape came out, one of her first thoughts had been: 'thank God it wasn't Olivia...' Olivia didn't seek comfort as often as the average person, especially physical comfort, but when she did, it was something intensely private. Having their sex life plastered all over the internet had been difficult, but the attorney was grateful that she had been the submissive one on the tape. If it had been Olivia... she didn't dare think about it.
When she felt Olivia's hands reach up to cup her bare breasts, Alex let her head fall back for a moment, enjoying the gentle touch and relishing how perfectly she fit in her detective's palms. She only allowed her wife to continue for a few moments, though, before brushing her hands aside and lowering her head, scattering kisses over Olivia's rapidly rising and falling chest. "I am going to kiss every inch of you," she announced, nibbling along the upper portion of the brunette's breast. "And I'm going to take my time doing it."
Olivia knew better than to protest. She simply wove her fingers through Alex's soft golden hair and let her wife have her way.
There was no need for any more words as the lovers discarded the rest of their clothes, sighing as their naked bodies pressed together on top of the mattress. Olivia wrapped her arms around the slender frame above her, encouraging Alex to let her take some of the attorney's weight. Alex's lips continued to explore Olivia's neck and shoulders while her eager hands trailed up and down her wife's sides. Needing more, Olivia shifted underneath Alex's naked form, spreading her legs and allowing the blonde's pelvis to settle comfortably between her thighs.
Encouraged by the soft, content sounds Olivia was making and the flush that was slowly spreading along her olive skin, Alex's lips trailed down to Olivia's breasts. The SVU captain stiffened as Alex's warm mouth latched onto her nipple, but melted again as the pleasurable sensations registered. She clutched the back of Alex's head, trying to pull her even closer, and the lawyer responded by stroking Olivia's legs. She began at the knee, but her hands crept higher each time, occasionally skimming Olivia's inner thighs and making her hips push forward involuntarily. Alex gasped around Olivia's nipple as the detective's wetness smeared across her hip. Sensing how excited her wife was only ratcheted up her desire.
Alex spent several torturous minutes at Olivia's breasts, teasing the tips to hard points and then blowing cool streams of air across them, only occasionally grazing the sensitive buds with her teeth. Everything Olivia did to try and speed up Alex's slow, thorough seduction seemed to backfire. When she lifted her hips, clearly inviting Alex to touch between her legs, the DA removed her hands completely. Spreading her legs and arching her back to put herself on even more prominent display didn't work either. Finally, she resorted to pleas. She tried to make a quip about Alex's promise to kiss every inch of her body, but the words wouldn't come. All she could manage was a strangled, helpless "please..." that sounded like it had come from someone else.
It was all the permission Alex needed. Slowly, she strung together a trail of open-mouthed kisses and gentle bites, following the muscular line that bisected Olivia's stomach. When Alex's teeth nipped just beside her navel, Olivia felt the muscles in her legs flex. She was finding it impossible to hold still.
Finally, Alex shifted down until her face was only a few inches away from Olivia's core. The attorney lifted her wife's right foot, draping Olivia's slender calf over her shoulder and spreading the former detective's legs even wider. Olivia couldn't remember the last time she had felt so exposed and safe at the same time. Only Alex could take away her fear in such a vulnerable situation - and having someone's head between your legs was about as vulnerable as it got, in Olivia's opinion. She had slept with her fair share of men and women, but oral sex had never been one of her favorite activities... not until Alex.
"Please," Olivia repeated, her voice breaking. "I need -"
Alex knew exactly what Olivia needed, and she lowered her head, her tongue sweeping through wet, glistening folds with one broad stroke. That first brief taste made her growl in satisfaction, and she began to please Olivia in earnest. She loved doing this, had always loved doing this, and if it distracted Olivia from her dark thoughts and gave her some measure of comfort, well then all the better. The former ADA felt Olivia's fingers weave through her hair, and almost stopped what she was doing, but decided that her lover was only searching for something to hold on to, not trying to direct her mouth. Normally, Alex wouldn't have minded. In fact, it aroused her when Olivia took control and 'forced' her mouth exactly where she wanted it, but Alex wanted this time to be about reassurance and connection. She wanted Olivia to let go and trust her, to remember that she didn't have to carry her heavy burdens alone.
Olivia's attention was torn between her tongue and the warm, soft palms that rubbed up and down her inner thighs in soothing lines. The low moans and hums of contentment that escaped from Alex as she worked only increased her desire. With her head moving between Olivia's legs, her fair hair glowing in what little light had managed to enter the room through the window, Alex was a stunning sight, and Olivia couldn't tear her eyes away. Warmth curled low in her belly, coiling tight and squeezing, causing her inner walls to twitch even though Alex wasn't inside of her yet. The unsteady rocking of Olivia's pelvis told Alex that her wife was more than ready for some direct attention. She closed her lips over the hard point of Olivia's clitoris and sucked, pinning the brunette's hips to the mattress with both hands when she tried to buck against the new sensation. Alex's reward was a loud, wordless cry from the desperate woman beneath her, and she would have smiled if her mouth had not been otherwise occupied. When she used her thumb to pull back the sensitive bundle's protective hood, exposing it even further, Olivia's fingers tightened in her hair, but not to the point of pain.
Just as Olivia began to grow accustomed to the steady sucking, Alex unbalanced her again by testing her entrance with two fingers, seeking more slickness and heat. Alex moaned around the small bead captured between her lips when she felt just how wet Olivia was for her, and the vibrations made the brunette hiss and shudder. Not wanting to overstimulate her lover, the attorney pulled her mouth away for a few moments, distracting Olivia from the sudden stop by easing two fingers inside of her. Resting her cheek against a firm thigh, she gazed up along her detective's flat, tanned stomach and past her breasts, pleased to see that Olivia was watching everything. As their eyes met, Alex's fingers burrowed even deeper inside of her, forming a hook and rubbing back and forth across the sensitive ridges she found there. Alex enjoyed firm thrusts, the friction and burn that Olivia's fingers caused as they plundered her, but she knew that her wife was different. What drove Olivia wild was feeling Alex move inside of her, curling and pressing against her inner walls.
Maybe on another night she would have drawn it out longer, would have brought Olivia right to the edge before easing her back down and denying her, but right now, in this moment, Alex wanted to show her wife that her love and trust was not misplaced. She lowered her head again, breaking eye contact so that she could take Olivia's hard point back between her lips, running her tongue over its tip and sucking firmly. Together, the skillful fingers that plundered her and the warm mouth wrapped around her were Olivia's undoing. She let herself come, releasing emotionally as well as physically, comforted by the knowledge that all of it was for and because of Alex. Her Alex. The woman she loved, and the woman that owned her heart. A few tears escaped, leaving hot trails on her already flushed cheeks, but she didn't even bother to brush them aside.
"Thank you..." Olivia panted when she finally found her voice. "Alex..." The blonde knew that Olivia wasn't thanking her for the orgasm, or even the comfort. She was thanking Alex for taking care of her, for being her anchor, for keeping her safe and making sure she knew that she was always, always loved.
Alex was in no hurry to move from her comfortable position between Olivia's legs, and she rested her head against one of Olivia's hips. "We're going to be okay."
"Mm."
Instead of taking the lackluster response as a sign of doubt, Alex knew that it was probably because Olivia was tired and still slightly dazed. Her suspicions were confirmed when she shifted up further and saw Olivia's head fall to one side, her eyes fluttering as she fought to keep them open. "Are you sleepy, dear heart?" she asked, trying to hide her smile. She loved it when she was able to leave her wife so well-satisfied that she could barely stay awake.
"Mmhmm. Need a minute."
"That's it, handsome. Just rest for a while. You can have your turn later." Secretly, Alex had no plans to give Olivia a turn at all, at least not tonight. She wanted her lover well-rested, alert, and relaxed for court the next day. If she said that out loud, though, Olivia would protest, and all of her hard work would have been for nothing.
"Love you..."
Alex shifted back up to the head of the bed, wrapping Olivia in her arms and letting the former detective's head rest against her shoulder. "I love you, too," she whispered as Olivia slipped into unconsciousness.
