Chapter 4
The next day as Rachel and Finn were sitting vigil at there children's bedside the doctor came in and asked, "Do you guys mind leaving the room for a few hours i would just like to run a few tests on Chris and Sawyer and i need them alone so there not tempted to leave anything out because you guys are in the room." Rachel nodded.
She then went over to Chris, kissed him on the head and said, "Baby, mommy and daddy are just going to head out for a few minutes, but the nice doctor is going to run some fun tests on you and your sister." Chris nodded and before he could say anything Finn came over and gave him a hug.
"Chris, like mommy said your only going to be gone for a few minutes and then we can continue the card game we we started playing before." He pointed to the bedside table next to the bed to show an unfinished game of Uno. "Just remember i'm gonna beat you." Chris laughed and smiled. Finn then walked over to Rachel and held her hand as they walked down to the cafeteria. They both bought coffee because they knew that they were going to be there for a while. They then sat down and interlocked hands again. Finn then noticed that Rachel was shaking.
"Rach, you have to calm down! This pressure isn't good for the baby or yourself. I love you and everything is working out for the better Rach, i mean you saw Chris. He's really progressing and his head is getting better." He then took another sip of coffee and rubbed his thumbs over her knuckles.
"Finn, i don't know how your staying so positive about all of this! Chris might be okay now, but you know how he is, constantly waking up in the middle of the night from nightmares and Sawyer is just well not getting any better. She's dying Finn and there is nothing her own parents are doing to stop it. I mean were her parents Finn, we were supposed to protect her and we just let her down." She started crying and sobbing into her hands. Finn immediately stood up and knelt down beside her rubbing her back for support. He made soothing noises and glared at the onlookers warning them with his eyes that there was nothing to see.
"Baby please listen to me she's not going to die because i am going to hire the best doctor out there. She can't die and i wont let her! She is my Princess and she is not going to die before i do. As for Chris yes, his nightmares are a problem but there also normal for a kid that has just gone through what he has. I mean he was just in a car accident for gods sake. I would be surprised if he wasn't having nightmares." Rachel smiled up at him and gave him a hug.
"Oh i forgot to tell you, i called my dad's and they said that there going to come down for a few days to check on the kids and well us. Daddy's convinced that after an event like this I should get counseling." She started laughing and then she realized that Finn was giving her an encouraging smile. She gasped and asked,"Oh my God you think i need counseling too, don't you?"
Finn looked at her with a reassuring smile and said, "Babe i think you need to talk about the accident with someone other then me. I mean i see you crying every night when you think i'm sleeping or even when you talk to Chris you apologize for being an awful mom. All i'm saying is please just talk to someone with what your feeling whether it be me, your dads, or even a rabbi." That got a little chuckle out of her. He held her hands in his and kissed it.
"Thank you Finn, i just don't want to bother you with my problems because i know that your blaming yourself for this whole thing. Finn, just because you were driving doesn't mean that you caused this. I just need you to know that this isn't your fault. You may have been driving but that driver was on the wrong side of the road and we were just all at the wrong place at the wrong time." Finn looked down and nodded.
"I know but i just keep thinking about the what if's. Like what if I was to turn off another exit or what if we left Disney earlier or later then we did. I mean would we still be in this situation? Would we still be waiting for our daughter to wake up?" Rachel started to tear again, She hated seeing her husband ponder over what if's. She looked at him and stood up out of her seat and hugged her husband who was now wrapping his bear claws around her.
When she finally looked him in the eyes she whispered,"Finn, you can't keep thinking about the what if's! Your going to make yourself crazy. You have to ask yourself this though, maybe this accident happened for a reason, I mean we did all survive and i'm pretty sure it did." She held his hand and continued to speak, "Look Sawyer and Chris didn't die! Me and this child are not hurt and i am so happy that you are okay. We survived this crash baby because god isn't done with the Hudson family yet." She then placed a sweet kiss to his lips and smiled at her handsome husband. They then sat back down at there table.
"Rach, you don't know how grateful i am that you and the kids survived, but sometimes surviving doesn't always mean living. Yes Sawyer survived but she's not living! She can't breathe on her own or do anything on her own. I need her to live before i can breath again." Finn said walking away leaving behind a sad and confused Rachel.
When Rachel followed Finn, she walked back into her children's room to see Finn siting at Sawyer's bedside and apologizing. Rachel was done with her husband feeling sorry for himself so she yelled, "Maybe i'm not the one that needs therapy Finn! Look in the mirror and wake up because i think you need it more then me."
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