now Cato can never have kids! hahahahaha perhaps he'll recover…

Chapter 4 – Peeta's POV

Just seeing Cato on the floor is enough for me. "That was awesome!"

Katniss smiles at me. "Thanks. Now go take your shower."

I nod and go into the bathroom. The water is freezing, but it helps me think. Do I remember fully what happened? How could I have been so careless? What am I feeling right now? Does Katniss want to do it again? No. Don't think that way. You may have already screwed up her entire life. But she was gorgeous last night. The way she said your name. The way her hands touched you-

There is a knock on the door. "Peeta? How long are you going to be?" It brings me back into reality. Katniss would never do that again. Especially with me.

How long have I been in here? I shut off the water and throw a towel around my waist. "I'll be right out." I dry off and get dressed. I open the door and find Katniss sitting on my bed. "Sorry." I look around and Cato is nowhere to be found. Thank God.

"Cato left. Has holding his crotch when he stumbled out." She looks at the floor. "So, was the water warm?"

"No, it was freezing."

"Then why did you stay in so long?"

"It helps me think."

"What were you thinking about?"

I sit next to her. "Well," I run my fingers through my hair and sigh. "Lots of things."

"Like what?"

I open my mouth to answer, but I find that my lips reach hers before I can say anything. I lay my hands on her waist. I feel her hands on my neck. Too far, Mellark. But it feels so good! I pull back. It takes every fiber in my being. "I'm sorry." I stand up.

"You're right. I don't want to rush things anyway."

"Yeah, but I wish I wasn't." I pause. "Wait, are you saying-"

"Well, why not?" She gets up. I stand closer to her. I put my arms around her waist. "That's why not."

I lean in and kiss her again. I have no control over myself. All I want is Katniss. But why? What is it about her that I need?

Our last kiss was warm, but a bit forced. This one, on the other hand, is full and wanted. But it ends too quickly. "Peeta."

"I'm sorry! I can't help it."

"It's fine, but you didn't answer my question." What did she say again? Her eyes are beautiful. Are they gray? Her lips are moving. It makes me want them more. Wait! What was the question?

"Uh, what was the question again?"

"What were you thinking about? Obviously it was me since you, yeah." I shake my head. "Just tell me. I'll tell you what I was thinking about." So she was thinking about me. Stop. Just answer her.

"Well," I can't find the words to say.

"Peeta, no matter how bad it may be, I can take it."

I take deep breath and begin. "Well, at first it was the whole did I screw up your life." She nods. "And then I started remembering last night."

"At least you can."

"So you still don't remember any of it?"

"I remember taking your shirt off, but nothing else."

"Take your shirt off."

"I don't think that's a good idea."

"I'll just have to do it for you." She took off my shirt and started kissing my chest.

"That happened."

"Then what?" She put her hand on my arm.

"You, uh-" I could feel myself getting harder. Please be able to hide it! "You took off my pants."

"I did?"

"Yeah."

"I'm afraid to hear the rest."

"I won't tell you then."

"Please don't." She lays back on my bed. "Just one thing."

"What?"

"Did I, uh, did I sound like I-"

"Like you were having fun?" She nods. I can't help but laugh. "I don't know if I should answer that."

"Just for future reference."

"Well, you said my name. A lot. You made noise. A lot."

"So that would be a yes." I nod my head.

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Katniss and I have been seeing each other for the past few weeks. After this week, we're going to need to start studying for finals. After that, we can be with each other for however long we want. It's great being in the fourth year of college. You just know that you're so close.

I knock on Katniss's door. She opens it and grins. I'm almost scared of what she has to say. She pulls me in and kisses me hard. She isn't afraid to let our mouths open and touch tongues anymore. "Guess what?" She finally breaks the kiss.

"What?"

"Come here." She grabs my hand and leads me to her bathroom. She has me stare into the sink. What are those things? "You know what that means?"

"Not a clue."

"I'm not pregnant!"

"Not?"

"That's right!"

I take her into my arms and carry her into her room. I swing her around and kiss her cheek. Where did that come from? "That's great!"

Just then Johanna walks in. I'm still holding Katniss. "Katniss, if you want alone time with Peeta, just text me and tell me not to interrupt."

"We weren't doing anything." Katniss protests.

"Sure you weren't. Oh, how did the pregnancy tests go?"

"I'm not pregnant, thankfully."

"Good. Now you can be alone. I just needed to grab my wallet. Cops busted me for not having a license last time. They had to look me up and that was no fun." She grabs a wallet off her bed and closes the door. "I keep the condoms in my nightstand. Don't use too many." She calls through the door.

"Katniss, do you intend on using them."

"Well I don't want to get pregnant, do I?"

My eyes light up.

I'm sorry, I'm going to only write like 1000 words per chapter now. It's too hard for me to write that much in one chapter, I don't know how some people can get 5000 words in one, then write like 10 chapters.

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