AN: Thank you for all the reviews everyone. And also for the people who remember that story. If you ever come across it please let me know. It has been driving me crazy.

So there is MAJOR backstory in this chapter. 2015 Polhop really wanted to get her character development out. HAHA


Penelope moved around her apartment as she tried to distract herself from the events of the day with cleaning. So many things were going through her mind. She was still dealing with the aftermaths of the undercover operation, then add on top everything that had happened with Derek.

The last three months were hard for her. There were so many times she would find herself looking at the mirror wondering why she wasn't good enough. What made her that repulsive that he would sneak out of his own house to get away from her.

Plopping down onto her couch, she winced in pain. Her sides were still heavily bruised. What she wouldn't give to just do the last few months over. Well, no that wasn't right, she would just want a do over that night at the bar. She wouldn't change her time with Logan for the world.

Their first couple of days undercover, she kept her distance from Logan. She was still dealing with the pain Derek had caused her and one look at Logan Gatlin and she knew he would be trouble. He was – from what she could gather for her searches – Denver's equivalent to Quantico's Derek Morgan.

So, she set out to do whatever it took to conclude the mission and with as little interaction with Logan as possible.

However, that all changed on their first weekend together. Penelope hadn't realized she had been crying into her tea until Logan brought over some tissues and started rubbing her back. It was such a kind gesture, it made her cry even harder.

That whole night instead of asking her what was the matter, he instead, made sure there were tissues always at hand and comforted her any way he could. She ended up falling asleep on his lap with him rubbing her back.

The next morning, she was completely mortified. She tried to explain, but Logan insisted on her just getting better. The rest of the weekend, he would run her a bath, cook her food, and even rub her feet. Never once demanding to know what her problem was.

Sunday night instead of going to their separate bedrooms, they ended up in Logan's room, where he proceeded to hold her the whole night. Finally, the next morning she told him everything, from the first time Derek had called her Baby Girl, falling in love with him, all the way up to him leaving his own house after sleeping with her.

Instead of judging her, Logan only nodded in understand and held her. She hadn't realized how much hurt Derek had truly caused when he left her until that moment. All of the years loving him, the temperature always rising, until the devastating fall once they had finally slept together.

Logan helped her sort out all her feelings. He never pushed for more, and when she wanted to talk about it, he was there. He was her rock. He was there when she thought she couldn't go on another day with all the hurt inside her.

Slowly with Logan's help she started to turn around. She would find entertaining things to occupy her time when she wasn't working on the case. Logan would bring home puzzles and games for them to do together.

One night, not long after her first meltdown, she asked Logan about the rumors she'd heard about him. How for all intents and purposes he was the Derek Morgan of Denver. That was the night she finally understood the person that was Logan Gatlin.

Right after collage. Logan was set to marry his long-term girlfriend, Holly. Apparently, their love was such a true love, a newspaper wanted to write an article about them. The article turned out to be hit, and in their hometown, they became somewhat local celebrities. Unfortunately, that caused some unwanted attention. Holly ended up with a stalker. Weird encounters went on for months, until one day Logan came home to find Holly, raped and murdered in their bed.

Thankfully, they found the guy who did it. He had rooms in his apartment full of pictures of Holly. He had taken the article that was written about them and crossed out Logan's name, and instead inserted his. He had super imposed his pictures over Logan's and was truly living as Logan and Holly's story was his and Holly's.

At first, Logan tried to cope by drinking and drugs. He did anything he could to drown out the pain. He'd sleep with anyone willing. Thankfully, one night he met a guy in the bar, that put him on the straight and narrow. He pushed Logan to take his hurt and make something of it. So, after getting clean, he applied to the FBI and ended up in the Denver field office.

After hearing Logan's story, Penelope couldn't help but feel foolish. Here she was upset because she had unrequited love, when Logan had truly lost everything.

"I'm such an idiot. Here you are, you've actually lived through hell, and I'm crying over some guy who doesn't feel the same way," she said wiping away the tears from her eyes.

"Penelope, I didn't tell you this story so you would think I had it worse than you. I told you this story to explain to you that I understand heartbreak," he spoke softly.

"But yours is real heartbreak."

"There is no such thing as real and fake heartbreak." He pulled her into his arms. "I understand heartbreak. What you're going through right now, even though it was completely different than mine, it's still heartbreak."

She watched him in awe.

Coughing, he turned away a little. "I was able to give up the drinking and drugs. The woman, however, they still help numb the pain."

Penelope nodded. "You sleeping around doesn't seem like it's that big of a deal anymore."

Logan cocked his head to the side. "Are the rumors you heard the reason why you kept your distance form me in the beginning?"

"Guilty."

"We all have our demons."

After that night, something changed between the two of them. They became inseparable. And slowly but surely, Penelope became her old self again. She took all the hurt that Derek had caused her and channeled it into becoming a better person a stronger person. And Logan was there every step of the way.

She had all but accepted the fact that Logan was going back to Denver, and seeing him today made her feel like her world was correct again. Her security blanket was back.

She was dreading dealing with Derek again, but seeing Logan made everything okay. She was able to stand up to Derek. His pathetic excuse of him panicking was almost as bad as him leaving in the first place.

She closed her eyes, trying to wash away the events of the day.

That kiss.

That kiss… When Derek had his lips against hers the world around her had disappeared.

No matter how many times she kissed Logan, it never felt like that.

Never.

All of a sudden there was a knock on the door.

Opening her eyes, she carefully moved to open it. All the moving around today, really bothered her bruises.

Opening the door, she couldn't help but smile.

"I think I am in need of some sugar."


AN: Man, 2015 PolHop was kinda mean to leave it here. Thank the world I have the next chapter done. I guess I wanted to really showcase Logan and his side of everything. Logan isn't a bad guy here. Instead he is somehow her savior when she needed it most.