Despair

"Why would you ever want to face the Titans again, Jean? Why would you after Trost...?"

Annie couldn't comprehend it. If he joined the Survey Corps he would die. It was a fact. It didn't matter if it was trough a Titan or by her hand, he would die.

"Please don't. Just join the Military Police with me," she reached for Jean's hand and tightly squeezed it "Together."

Was it selfish of her to try to spare this one life while she hadn't made efforts to safe others? She was nothing more than a simple weapon. A tool for someone else's benefit. But.. she wanted to have something for herself just once in her life. If her life wasn't hers why couldn't she have his?

"I don't want you to die too."

Her mind wandered back to Marco's death. He was begging for her to stop, to help him. But she didn't. Reiner's gaze burned on her back and tears prickled out of her yes. If she didn't do this she could never go home. She would never see her father again...

Annie grabbed Marco's 3Ds maneuver gear and begann ripping it off him piece by piece, disassembling it without even having to think about the steps. She had helped Mina change out of hers often enough to do it effortlessly on someone else besides herself. Mina who was dead...

"Why Annie?! A-"

"-nnie, I'm sorry,"

"But I won't change my mind. Not even you can stop me from joining the Survey Corps."

Annie thought about killing him and herself right then as he pulled her into a tight hug. Why has it come to this? Jean's arms trembled while he held her and she couldn't do anything but feel helpless faced with what was to come.

"I'm sorry."