Uncountable

I sighed, night was setting in, the sun said goodbye with a few last warm sunrays and then disappeared behind the horizon. The dark night ate the light away and just the twinkling stars and a line of the moon were there. Uncountable stars appeared and blinked towards me. Uncountable. Uncountable often he had hugged me, kissed me, been nice to me. But now those were just memories, uncountable memories.

,,Yin... are you o.k.?", I heard someone saying behind me, it was my brother. I nodded slightly. ,,Are you sure?", he asked, a little worried ,,Yes...", I mumbled.

He didn`t seem to believe me, of course I must`ve made a face like three days raining weather. So I smiled at him. ,,o.k....", I finally heard him saying.

It was silence, silence between us. I didn`t like it so quit if Yang was in the room and so I tried to start a conversation with him ,,So... how was it int the maal?"

I noticed my brother listening up, he must`ve been in thoughts, too. ,,Oh, it was good, but you didn`t come...."

I looked at the ground ,,...yea, I saw you and your friends and didn`t want to humiliate you,so.. I stayed away..."

,,But you could`ve come! Really it wouldn`t have been too bad....", Yang said, but it seemed to me he hadn`t much interest in this conversation, of yourse he hadn`t, we had never just a nice talk, why now? Just because I screwed my relationship with him up, doesn`t that mean I have to get on my brothers nerves or bore him to death...

,,It`s o.k., I had time to think... I guess I needed that...", I looked now at him, he really looked uncomfortable to talk with me like that and so I let the conversation go and kept thinking about him until Master Yo told us to go to sleep. I soon heard Yang snoring in his bed, but I couldn`t close an eye. So I went outside. It was a dark night, the moon was not even close to being full, there was just like a tiny line on the sky.

Then my ears heard something... not just the rushing of the wind or my steps on the grass, but like something fast running around. I was afraid.... something was there, but what?

Was it- no it couldn`t be...or could it? Could it really be him? Or is my imagination just driving completely insane? I looked around, hoping to see him, but he wasn`t there... I was alone. If I hadn`t been completely sure it was real it could`ve been another one of my nightmares.

I sat down on the grass, maybe I would calm down and be able to think right again and not feel likw he`d be there.... but I couldn`t relax, not a single minute, not a single second. That must be love, when it hurts the most deep in your heart when you are apart....

I never felt love like this, I just felt it as happy emotion you have when you are with somebody you trust... now love was unfair, it made my heart aching.... my mind dying....

I sighed and then talked to myself ,,How I wish you were here by my side, it hurts so much to be apart with you, I need you, I need you always and now I really overreacted and you are some place else... was our love so easy to destroy, was it so weak? No, it was strong, but I stomped on it, I should`ve listened to you... I should`ve heard what you wanted to tell me... I was unfair to you, I should`ve thought about what I was going to say..."

Tears rolled down my cheeks, why had it to be so confusing? So aching?

I just found out about the hurting side, the dark side of love, it wasn`t just pureness, it could be heartbreaking and I never thought it`d feel so bad...

,,Please, come back, I need you!!!", I screamed, even if I knew he couldn`t hear me... ,,I love you and I don`t care if you are evil or good, I don`t care if you steal or buy, I don`t care!!! I just care about you, yourself, that you don`t get hurt is the only thing I really care about!!!" Then I sobbed hard sobs that came from the deepest of my heart.

I couldn`t stop the tears rolling down my cheeks and so I let them I cried hard there on the grass, waiting for something to happen and something DID happen, but I wasn`t very happy about it... Yang and Master Yo stood behind me, both staring at me, both worried I looked towards them, but couldn`t say a word.

Yang was the first one to speak: ,,Yin you are waking up the whole town, come inside, it`s cold here."

I mumbled ,,no.....", but they couldn`t hear me.

,,Come on, Sis, it`s warm inside, don`t you feel cold?", Yang asked, trying to get me to get inside, but I just wanted to stay outside.

,,No..."

Now Master Yo said something: ,, I know you are really frustrated, Yin, but please come inside and get some rest, you need!"

,,Leave me alone...", I said sadly.

,,But Yin you-"

,,LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!", I screamed and more tears came out of my eyes.

,,Yin, you REALLY shoukd-"

,,LEAVE ME ALONE I SAID!!!!", I screamed. I didn`t want or need any words from Yang or Master Yo now.

,,Fine!", Yang said and stomped back inside

,,I`ll leave the door unlocked...", Master Yo said and went back in, too.

They just wanted my best, I knew that, but they couldn`t understnad me, they never felt like I felt, at least Yang didn`t. I felt just empty and alone...

I stood up and looked to the heaven, it seemed so diffrent now, the moon, the stars, they had such a diffrent meaning to me...

,,I LOVE YOU, I WANT THAT YOU COME BACK!!!! I NEED YOU!!! I CAN`T LIVE WITHOUT YOU!!!", I screamed again.

,,Really?", I heard a voice behind me.

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DUN DUN DUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUN, sry that the chapters are short, but hey I wanna finish this one...R&R^^

Oh and by the way... would it be o.k. to make 10 fanfics, too? I got new ideas, 9 of them would be YinxYuck, the ideas are not THAT good, but still, just asking, don`t want to annoy you....