Here's the update…Sorry guys if the other update was too short.
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Chapter 4
Akane ran to her room without noticing her sister Nabiki leaning on the wall. She was too distraught and her eyes were too blurry to see but she managed to reach her room. She slowly closed the door and leaned at the back of it as she entered her room. She tried to calm herself but with no avail. Her knees and hands were still shaking, her lower lip was still trembling, tears continued to wet her face, she still breathed heavily and her heart was still pounding. Her tears flooded more to her cheeks. It was already there even before she entered her room. She didn't care. Ranma could no longer see her face by that time. She thought that she was able to show a poker face to her fiancé before she left the living room.
"Am I that uncute not to be desired? Yeah! I am not as sexy and not as pretty or as talented as his other fiancés, but… am I not that attractive and no one wanted to kiss me?" her insecurity stoke as Akane murmured in her pillow as she laid flat in her stomach and pressed her face unto the pillow. She cried her heart out. She felt that her eyes no longer stopped from shedding tears. "He tried to kiss me, didn't he? Or was I just imagining things or just fantasize? Tsk! I might end up dehydrated if I keep crying all night, hehehehe!" a fake smile ran across her beautiful but sad face. "But I can't help it! I don't want to go to school with fluffy and red eyes," she continued. She tried to control the tears but she ended up shaking and hiccupping. "Come on! Stop it, please! Please!" she sobbed more because of hurt and anger to his fiancé.
Nabiki stopped a little in front of Akane's room after talking to Ranma. She stared at the wooden duck hanging in her sister's door. It was surprising that the same door didn't slam the whole frame when Akane entered. Her little sister was known for destroying everything she passed when she and Ranma got into fight. The only hint that the youngest Tendo was there was the little sobs she heard. If her cries could be heard from her current position which was outside the room, how loud could that be from the inside? "Tsk! She's gonna disturb me again. That idiot Ranma!" she grumbled under her breath.
Nabiki went to her room and sat on her chair looking at the papers scattered at the top of her table. She massaged the bridge of her nose then to her temples. She lost her focus because of this bickering couple and now she had to recall her computation. "Hmp! I should've marked the finished stuff. Now I even forgot to get what I was about to get in the kitchen! Damn it! And I have to repeat the budget for repairs," she mumbled while scratching her scalp. "Poor Akane for having the most idiot fiancé in the whole world. And worse she likes that bastard!" She gathered the papers and sorted it, planning to go to sleep and redo it tomorrow night. "Good luck for me if I can get a sleep after these occurrences," she sighed.
In the meantime, Ranma was still sitting and almost did not move from his position since Nabiki left. It felt that everything was new to him: he almost kissed Akane. Yeah, he admitted that he was disappointed that it did not happen but he was more disappointed to himself for saying such cruel words to his fiancée. He did tease her, the typical him, but she showed a different reaction. He didn't receive a kick, a punch or harsh words from her, instead, she just asked him a very simple question. And the worse, he did not react as fast he moved when he fought. "I think I hurt her feelings… no… I did hurt her. It was written all over her face. Tsk! I'm stupid!" he stated to himself. His heart pounded more in his chest as if it was about to jump from his body. The thought of hurting Akane was beyond his imagination. He hated to see her cry or hurt, but the mere fact that he was the reason why she cried and hurt, that's unforgivable. "That Shampoo…," he hissed but stopped realizing that he was at fault. Shampoo just asked a question and he denied it with an insult. He really wanted to kiss Akane and it should've happened if Shampoo didn't crash there. "But Shampoo might attack her if I said yes. But I can protect her from Shampoo, or I could've denied it without insulting her and…. damn it! Stupid! Stupid!" Ranma spat to himself while trying to pull all of his hair. He harshly sighed and bowed his head. "I screwed up…"
After thinking of his dilemma without any resolution, he stood up and started to clean the living room. He picked up the wrapper of band-aids and used cottons and smiled to himself while thinking how gentle her hands were while attending his wounds. He couldn't believe that it were the same small hands which pounded him almost every day. He cleared the area and removed the rocks that came from the wall where Shampoo blasted.
Ranma climbed to the roof after cleaning the area. He needed to think and he doubted that he could get a sleep after what he did. He laid himself in his usual spot, at the top of Akane's room. He lay in his back, both hands at the back of his head for support. He closed his eyes and sensed her aura if she was really in her room because he did not hear any slam when she ran upstairs. He could feel her, her sad aura. He could even hear small sobs from her room, making him clenched his fist and jaw. He didn't want to hear anyone's cry, most especially her, his lovely fiancé. He smirked. She was indeed lovely. Then why the hell he called her uncute and questioned if someone would've wanted to kiss her? He did desire her and even tried to kiss her. He dreamed of it every day and it was about to come true, he was almost there, almost tasted her lips. He remembered how much electric chills he got while leaning closer to her face. It gave him shivers when he felt her nervous breath under his nose. Her eyes were already closed then as he tried to keep his eyes open to see her face, her kissing face. Although half-lidded, he was able to see how her cheeks burned and how her brows twitched while anticipating his kiss. He removed his other hand from the back of his head and touched his lips. Then boom! He didn't feel her lips. He just saw her curious and startled face, but she still has that cute blush in her face, plus the smoky air and that Amazon. He sighed heavily again. He silently got up from the roof and walked to where Akane's window was located. He moved like a cat and did not create even a slightest sound. He wanted to see her, desperately. He wanted to make sure that she was there slumber.
Ranma peeked at Akane's window and saw her prone position. The room was dark but the dim light from the moon was enough to see her face. She was slightly positioned diagonally in her bed, seemed that she hadn't moved since she got there. Her eyes were shut closed and her face was still wet, of course from her tears and sweat. She sniffed once in a while. Her brows formed a scowl and partially parted lips, maybe to breathe properly. She was clenching the bed sheet and she looked very vulnerable. She shifted, in fetal position, her face was still facing the window and he could still see her wet face. She then put both of her palms to cover her face then sobbed. He could clearly see how her shoulders shake from crying. The scene made his heart stopped. He didn't like this, not at all. Everything in him stopped, even his breathing, just seeing her like that. Something blocked his throat and he had to swallow hard to breathe then a small gasp escaped from his parted lips. He pulled himself up back to the roof and breathed heavily. He slumped himself in the cold tiles of the roof as he felt that his knees weakened. He couldn't bear watching her in that state. He tried to calm himself as he panted more. His right fist clenched his Chinese shirt in front of his chest as he felt he still couldn't breathe and seemed like his heart was squeezed. He then rested his forehead to his left palm, holding his head as he felt like it was so heavy and about to fall. He couldn't understand the feeling, especially when his vision became blurry felt something wet rolled his cheek.
'Damn it! Am I crying? What the hell-' he thought. After a short pause, Ranma smiled. He couldn't explain why but all he knew was he had to correct things out. He had to see her beam in him again with her bright smile and he'll do anything to do that. The problem is he had no plan yet. 'Seems that I have to be awake for a little longer to come up with a plan to make it up to Akane," he finished.
To be continued…
Whew! Another chapter! And the other chapter is still in progress and I'm working my butt off to finish it as soon as possible. Thanks for reading!
