Chapter Four
The next thing I remembered was waking up in my bed. I was laid on my front, and when I tried to move, I could tell why. Sudden pain shot up my spine and took away by breath for a few seconds. I just gasped, clutching at my chest.
I heard someone rush to the side of my bed. I turned around slowly, so I didn't hurt myself again.
"Squall…?" I asked. "What happened?"
"Try not to move," Squall replied. I noted the concern in his voice, which was a rare addition to his usual monotone sound. "Your back got hurt,"
I then remembered everything that happened—the fight with that 13th Order member…The silverette. "Where's Cloud?" I asked.
"He's in the living room with Roxas," Squall replied. "Cloud refused to leave your side, but we got him to relax for a moment. How're you feeling?"
Cloud's stressed because of me…again…I grabbed my blanket and wrapped it around myself, turning away from my brother, ignoring the sharp pain in my chest as I moved. "I want to be alone,"
I heard Squall sigh and leave the room. When I was sure he'd gone, I got up and reached to the door (it was slightly to the left of the headboard on my bed, so I could reach it) and locked it. I tried to stand up, but ended up falling. I picked myself up again and walked slowly over to my bed. The pain in my spine dulled a little as I sat down. I looked at myself in the mirror that sat on the desk (Roxas can be like a girl sometimes…he takes forever doing his hair). There was a bruise forming on my cheek (I wonder where that came from…) and I looked as if I was about to keel over and die. I glanced at the clock quickly… 6.30 PM already? Had I been sleeping all day?
I just make people worry about me…Cloud hasn't been fully relaxed since I started having my nightmares, and Roxas always has to stick around with me, and Squall has to deal with a stressed out Cloud. I just make things worse for people…
My mind slowly drifted and I found myself thinking of the silverette. He was so beautiful…Wait, what am I thinking? He's a 13th Order member, the organization that killed my parents! It's the 13th Order's fault I'm like this!! It's their fault I'm broken!!
I didn't even realize I'd punched the wall until a pain ran up my arm.
"Sora, open the door!" Cloud's voice drifted through the locked door. I walked over to my bed and sat down, not saying anything to my brother. "Sora, open up!"
I reached over and unlocked the door, just as Squall decided to ram the door open with his shoulder. He landed on the floor, somewhat resembling a star fish. He stood up hurriedly and Roxas and Cloud walked in. Squall settled himself down at my desk and Roxas went to sit on his bed. Cloud sat on my bed a few feet away from me.
"How're you feeling?" Cloud asked.
"I'm fine," I replied. "Weren't you supposed to be with your friends today?" I remembered suddenly—he'd made an arrangement to hang out with some of his friends today.
"I cancelled," Cloud explained. "I can hang out with them some other time,"
Another part of my brother's life I managed to ruin… "I'm sorry," I said.
"It's not your fault,"
"Yes it is," I protested. "I…I'm such a burden to you. All of you…I make you worry and I hate doing that to you. I just ruining your lives,"
"Sora--,"
"Why don't you just leave me?! I know I'm broken, I…I hate making you worry about me!"
"Sora, your mental state is slowly deteriorating and I need to stay and make sure you don't go homicidal and kill us all!" Cloud yelled.
A silence fell about the room, and Cloud's expression change told me he'd just processed what he'd said to me. "If you're that worried I'm a ticking time bomb why not just abandon me?!" I yelled back. Swelling emotions caused me to just stand up and run out. I ran out of the apartment building and into the cold outside air. The sun was setting slowly, but I didn't care if I was out all night. I didn't know what I was doing, but it was the only thing I could think of right now.
"Sora,"
I spun around and saw the girl from yesterday.
"Sora, what are you doing?" She asked me.
"What does it look like?" I replied. "I couldn't stand to stay there any longer. I need to find the 13th Order,"
"Are you going to kill them?" Her voice sounded so dead.
I hadn't thought about that. Am I going to kill them? I want to get them back for killing my parents and making me this way…but could I bring myself to kill someone? They deserved it—they kill people without a second thought. Although…some of the people they'd killed really helped out our political problem…not our economic problem, though… "I…,"
"Are you going to kill him?" She asked.
Immediately, an image of the silverette flashed through my mind. "Who are you?!" I demanded.
"They're planning something," she said.
"Answer my question!"
"They're looking for you,"
"Who are?"
"They are,"
"SORA!!"
I whipped around and saw Demyx and Zexion running toward me. I turned around to the girl, but she'd disappeared.
"Sora, are you okay?" Demyx asked. "Cloud said you'd run out and he called us, Kairi and Axel immediately and we all came out looking for you,"
"I'm fine," I snapped.
I looked up when I saw something move behind Demyx and Zexion. My heart leapt when I saw it was the 13th Order…they were going to the apartment. Demyx and Zexion followed my gaze and saw them too.
"That's…,"
I suddenly started running toward them. I heard Demyx and Zexion shout in surprise and start running after me.
I don't care about anything except one thing right now;
Revenge.
