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Chapter 4 She Knows
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It wasn't long before Edward's mother came in the room, finding Jasper and Edward both awake. She smiled. "I hope you are feeling better Edward." His mother smiled and nodded towards Jasper and walked out of the room. Falling back into his bed Edward let out a sigh. "Why are you even here?" Jasper turned to look at Edward and shook his head.
"James is still out there and you were in no shape to be left alone." Jasper got up and looked out the window as he could see James' car still parked outside the house. "You know you will have to face him at some point Edward." Edward sighed again and sat up. "I can't face him. He tried to kidnap me. He is crazy. I don't know what else he will do." Edward stood up and headed out the door. "Are you coming or are you going to stand there looking at James all day?" Edward laughed and walked down to the kitchen.
Watching as his mother paced back and forth as if she was waiting for him. Edward could see James sitting down at the table. He looked up at his mother and knew she was now in on his secrete. Edward looked at James and almost jumped over the table to attack him. "How could you!" Edward had shoved James' chair back so hard it make him topple to the floor. Edward turned and ran out the door.
Alice was standing a few feet away from the car when Edward ran out. She could tell he was crying but didn't understand why. Watching as Jasper ran out the door Alice turned back to look at Edward. It wasn't long before she went over to Jasper. "Now what did you do?" Alice was holding up her fist as if she was ready to hit Jasper.
"Nothing Alice, I did nothing at all."
"Jasper Edward is crying over there." Alice pointed into the direction that she last saw Edward in and gasped. "He was right here. Where did he go now?" Alice looked around and then back at Jasper.
"He has to be in the woods Jasper. You know they are not safe."
Jasper ran back inside Edward's house. He looked at James sitting in the chair, walking over to him he whispered in his ear. "You just marked a death sentence for Edward. He is in the woods. They are not safe what are you going to do now?" Jasper smacked the back of James' head and walked back out of the house.
"Alice we need to search for him, and hope we can find him before nightfall."
Alice nodded her head and went back into their house, picking up two backpacks. Filling them with food and flashlights. She picked up the two way radio and ran back outside. "Here you will need this." She tossed one of the backpacks to Jasper and they headed out into the woods to find Edward.
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Edward was sitting a lone watching the animals dancing around the pond. He had walked so far out that he didn't know which way was home. He was lost and didn't care. All he wanted was to be away from them all. He was sure Jasper would know everything now. Edward broke down and cried holding his hands to his face. The world was closing in all around him, what once was safe was no longer, Edward doubted everything James told him.
Looking up from his hands he heard the soft footsteps of another person. Edward let out a soft growl and turned around to find Alice standing there. "So it seems I have been found." Edward glared up at her as he spoke. Wishing she would leave him alone. Edward turned back around.
"Edward, its not safe here. Please come back with me." Alice pleaded with him until the sounds of wolves were heard. Edward looked up once again. "Maybe your right." He stood up and started walking back with Alice. He kept quiet until Alice reached out and touched his arm. "Edward what's going on you can tell me anything you know that." He just stood there shaking his head. "I can't tell you." He couldn't help but to wonder if Jasper knew what was going on. Alice didn't seem to know anything so maybe Jasper didn't know either.
Edward let out a sigh and stopped. "Alice I am.. I am .. I'm sorry you had to come out here and look for me." In that moment in time Edward couldn't find it in him to tell her the truth. Edward and Alice made it back just as Jasper was getting out of his car. Before They could make it any farther Jasper ran after the two of them. Hugging Edward and then Alice. "I am so happy you two are back. Its getting late we should get inside." Edward looked at them both and knew that his secret was still safe from them at least for now.
Night fell once again and Edward found his self fast asleep with James sitting in his car out front. He found it hard to talk to his mother the whole night and even harder to be in the same room as his father. He knew his mother would tell him and it would be hell. Edward cried that night but not because he was scared of his father knowing the truth, it was because he would have to tell Jasper.
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Edward woke up early that morning, jumping into the shower and letting the hot water wash away the memories of the night before. The knock at the door startled him. "Edward, can we talk?" The voice tumbled around in his head until he finally spoke. "James, just go away, go home. I don't love you anymore." Edward quickly finished his shower, and ran out of the bathroom and back into his room, locking the door behind him.
Sitting there he heard another knock at his door. Edward was pissed now that James wouldn't take the hint and leave him the hell alone. Rushing to the door Edward opened it still standing there naked Edward quickly shut the door back. "Alice I am so sorry, I thought it was James again." Giggling from outside the door filled Edward's room. Edward grabbed a pair of jeans and slid them on opening the door. "Did you need something Alice?" Edward looked away so that he would start laughing.
"Edward you forgot this yesterday in the car. Jasper asked if it was mine, but I knew it wasn't." Alice pulled out the small makeup bag and handed it to Edward. Without thinking Edward pulled Alice into his room. "Alice please don't tell anyone." looking down at the floor Edward heard the soft voice speak. "Edward I wont tell anyone if you don't want me to, but you should tell me what's going on."
Walking over to the bed Edward looked out the window and sighed. "He is never going to give up is he?" Shaking it from his mind he began to tell Alice about him and James. Sometimes finding it hard to use the words he so carefully hid from others.
"I'm gay Alice, James told my mom yesterday, that's why I ran as fast as I could into the woods." Alice shook her head and smiled.
"You need to tell Jasper."
"I can't do that. I wont take the risk of losing someone else."
"Fine, I will tell him. He has the right to know."
"Alice please don't tell him. I will tell him when I am ready."
With that Alice nodded and left the room. Edward finished getting ready for school and rushed out the door. Never stepping foot in the kitchen where his mother waited for him.
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Sitting in the back seat of Jaspers car Alice started singing along with the music.
"I'm not quite sure how to breathe without you here.
I'm not quite sure if I'm ready to say goodbye to all we were.
Be with me, stay with me, just for now.
Let the time decide when I won't need you"
"JASPER WATCH OUT!" Alice screamed from the back as Edward placed his hands up at his face. Everything happened so quickly they didn't know what was going on. Moans from the front seat were heard as Alice felt her way around the back seat.
"Is everyone okay?" Alice whispered
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