WARNING! If you don't like yaoi (boy x boy) then please don't read this.
Kuroko no Basuke as well as the cover image used for this story both belong to their respective owners.
This is a roleplay story done by KurokoTetsuya101 and The Lucky Bell.
Chapter 4 - Did we mess up?
It didn't take long for them to arrive at Akashi's apartment complex, Kuroko looking up at the giant building. It was a modern structure with a guard that was in the entrance... really prestige. He watched as Akashi drove to the side of the skyscraper, taking out some kind of a card before leaning it against some kind of a device.
The ramp that blocked the car from further advancing was lifted, letting Akashi drive into what seemed like the building's underground parking. However, even though it was under the building in the lower floors, it was still nicely lit up by the many lights that were inside. Just like the outside, even the parking was above standard.
Akashi finally pulled onto his parking spot, which was huge. The number on the floor was 4, Akashi pulling up and parking over it. However, that spot was not only for one car but stretched long enough to fit at least 3 cars. Now that Kuroko saw it, he noticed a motorbike parked on this spot as well.
"We're here." Akashi said before he turned off the car's engine.
"...This place is... really big." And it's not even the apartment! Was Akashi always this rich? This is so surreal... Kuroko remembered going to a few fancy restaurants with Akashi but he didn't think he ever want to anything else that was expensive. Was the observatory expensive? No, he didn't think it was.
"Hey, is that your bike too?" Kuroko asked curiously as he opened the car door. If it was Akashi's, he didn't know he could ride a bike! That's really cool. He's always wanted to ride one.
"Yes, it is." Akashi got out of the car as well, going towards the bike to show it to the bluenette, "It's the 2009 Yamaha R1. Its build for speed and high evasiveness on the curves." The bike was a navy blue color with black handles and a leather seat. It was a modern sports bike and by the looks of it Kuroko could tell that it really fast, just by looking at it! "Do you like it?"
"I'm not even into bikes or even cars but this is really cool." Kuroko walked up to it to get a close look. "Do you... um... can we ride this together one day? I really wanna ride it one day... Not that I'd drive of course."
Another one of Kuroko's attributes that Akashi loves is his curiosity to try everything. Although make no mistake, if he's not interested in a certain thing, he will not even go close to it, "Of course, I'd be glad to take you for a spin." Akashi placed his hand on the bike's seat, "I usually drive it in the countryside since the city is crowded. I hope that's fine." They should be able to make it back quickly enough despite going to the countryside.
"Oh that's fine. Besides... If we go at night, there won't be anyone on the road. We wouldn't have to be worried if we go too fast." Kuroko smiled, feeling excited about taking the bike for a ride. "But that should be for another day. I really want to see the art now."
A smile appeared on Akashi's face, letting go of the bike, "Then let's go upstairs. A world of surprises awaits you." Akashi teased, taking Kuroko's hand before heading to a door that leads to the elevators. There were a total of four elevators, one coming to get them when Akashi pushed he button.
When the elevator arrived, the two got inside, Akashi taking out another smaller key before inserting it into a keyhole. He turned it before pressing a button that was on the top, leading to the last floor, "Door closing." The voice in the elevator said before the door really closed.
"Since my apartment covers the entire floor, I have a key which prevents others from going onto my floor." Akashi explained, knowing that Kuroko must be confused.
"Oh. I didn't know apartments like that existed..." Kuroko supposed that's something you can get when you have a lot of money because obviously Akashi does. Since when though? Since he joined his father's company? His father's company must be a good company...
"So you have a whole floor to yourself? And you really live alone?" It must be lonely... Living in a flat all alone.
The redhead nodded, his smile turning into a saddened one, "Yes I do." How he purchased the apartment was a whole different story. After all, Akashi had planned to live in it with a certain someone... that is until they both went their separate ways. He had outdone himself, wanting it to be as spacious and comfortable as possible but destiny had other plans up it's sleeves.
"I know that this is something you may not like but... I hope that despite that, you will take a liking to my house." He knew that Kuroko doesn't like expensive things and the show of money but still... this is a house that Akashi had build with hopes of a bright future.
"I'm sure it's just fine." Kuroko assured with a smile. "I mean, I guess living in a bigger home would be better than a small apartment?" Not that he lived in a small apartment. It was just an example.
"I suppose you're right." At least Kuroko was optimistic about seeing it. Thankfully he wasn't scared off by the apartment complex itself and the parking lot. Akashi feared that it would be too much since he used to hide his wealth in high school, he got used to hiding it in front of Kuroko. Now that the said bluenette was visiting, would Akashi stop hiding everything?
"Floor 85." The elevator voice announced before the door finally opened, revealing a hall with a single door that was in it. Since there was only one apartment, the floor only had one door. It may seem strange but to Akashi who got used to it, it was normal.
"This is it. Are you ready?" The two approached the wooden door as Akashi searched for a key, inserting it when he did.
"Am I ready?" Kuroko questioned with confusion. What could Akashi possibly mean by that? "I told you," he started as Akashi opened the door to the apartment. "It's not like I'm scared of big apartm-" He stopped abruptly when he heard something in the apartment. It sounded like heavy footsteps... A lot of footsteps? And they were coming to the door!
Kuroko was too surprised to stop the big, black and white furry mountain from jumping on him, knocking him down to the ground. "W-What- Aka-" He panicked until he felt something lick his cheek. Did this thing just lick him? When he looked up, he noticed it wasn't some giant furry mountain. It was a dog! A beautiful husky with blue eyes to be exact. It seemed all too familiar... "Akashi-kun...? You didn't.. tell me you had a dog…"
The redhead smiled widely, looking down at Kuroko and the dog that was on top of him, "What's that Tetsuya? You don't remember?" Akashi asked, knowing that was the case. Although when the black and white husky heard it, his ears pointed up in alert. The dog barked, happily licking Kuroko without any pauses. His tail wiggled with speed, showing that he was more than excited. He whined as well as if he had missed the bluenette under him...
"Surely you must remember Tetsuya. After all, it was you who named him." Akashi folded his arms as the dog whined again, licking Kuroko before pausing for a second to look at him. His blue eyes meeting Kuroko's own.
But... he's only ever named one dog...
"Nigou..." He was still alive after ten years? He knew some big dogs could live past 14 years, but only if you really took care of them. Akashi must've taken real good care of him! He still seemed like a small, energetic puppy!
Kuroko sat up, happily petting the dog and scratching behind his ears. Nigou still liked being scratched there! "I can't believe it... You really kept him? Even after-" He was going to say after he left, but he didn't want to bring it up now.
The other nodded with a smile, "Of course I did. Where else would he go?" The dog was something he and Kuroko cared for. Even though they have broken up, Akashi still maintained the illusion that they didn't by taking care of Nigou in hopes of Kuroko coming back one day... "I remember that you once said that the three of us together looked like a family... I couldn't get rid of a family member." This was back when the two cared for the small pup and Akashi suggested getting rid of him in his own discreet way, but Kuroko was against it, saying that they were a family.
The dog barked in agreement, brushing himself against Kuroko while licking his face as well. It could be seen clearly by his actions that he had missed Kuroko very much.
Even Nigou missed him... yet he forgot all about him. It made Kuroko feel guilty. He called these two family, yet he abandoned them. How could they ever forgive him? "I'm glad you remember me, Nigou." He hugged the dog for a moment. He had to say, he was glad Nigou was still alive at least.
"So where are the paintings?" Kuroko looked up at Akashi as he continued to pet Nigou.
"Inside." The two didn't even enter the apartment since Nigou threw himself at Kuroko, "Come in."
Kuroko nodded and let Nigou get off so he could stand up. They all walked inside together and although Kuroko wasn't one for fancy or big things, he kind of liked the apartment already. It wasn't too extravagant and felt a bit homey... Like something a family would have. "It looks nice so far."
"Thank you. I'm glad you approve." Those words, even though they were positive, still pained Akashi. Ah... The future that awaited them if they had stayed together... "Before I show you the paintings, would you like something to drink?"
"Sure... I'm fine with water." Kuroko said, not wanting to feel like he was intruding by just lounging around and asking for things that could cause Akashi hassle.
Could getting water count as being a hassle? "But I'm fine though! You don't have to give me anything if you don't want to…"
Akashi looked at Kuroko in surprise before chuckling, "It's no trouble Tetsuya, don't worry. Let's go to the kitchen." Akashi took off his shoes and coat before making his way further into the house. Kuroko did the same but just as he was about to follow, he felt Nigou bite his sleeve, telling him to come as well.
With a smile, Kuroko petted Nigou on the head before following the two to the kitchen. It really did seem like a lot for one person but if more people lived there... "Are you sure it's okay? I'm not that thirsty…"
There he goes again, "It's fine Tetsuya. It's not like you're asking me for anything big like baking you a cake." It's just simple water and yet the bluenette found even that troublesome.
The two walked over to the living room, Kuroko looking around in wonder. The living room was joined with the kitchen and was very spacious! It had a huge plasma TV screen to the left and big couches as well. Now that he was further inside, Kuroko could see that it was really modern... Although what amazed him the most was the view. Actually, the apartment resembled the restaurant he and Kagami had been to with the whole view of Tokyo from the top.
"You've always had this view?" Kuroko asked softly, approaching the window to look outside. A big window to see the city below... Yes, Kuroko was certain he'd love a view like this. If only his house could provide that. Even if the Windows in the house were big, they wouldn't have a good view anyway.
"I'm kind of jealous..." He admittedly with a smile as he stared outside. "I know I'm not a fan of big things, but I've always wanted a window and view like this…"
Akashi perked up, looking at Kuroko from the kitchen with a sense of loss. Kuroko likes the view... at least Akashi knows that if things would have been different, Kuroko would approve of their new home... or would he? "I know this may be a strange question but if you were to live here... would you like it?"
If he were to live here? Did Akashi mean anything by that or... no, maybe it was just a hypothetical question? He decided to just go for it and answer it. "I guess I'd like it... it's certainly big enough for us, even if Nigou lived here. And it's just so amazing... I mean it's really high up but I can make that an exception."
"I see." So Kuroko really does like it. Akashi was glad... He turned, taking out a clean cup from the drawer before pouring some water into it. He still couldn't shake off the feeling he had but hopefully it wouldn't get in the way of him showing Kuroko his paintings.
Kuroko was looking outside the window, waiting. However while he did, he suddenly felt Nigou tug on his sleeve once again. He looked down at the dog who began walking away, barking for Kuroko to follow.
Kuroko tilted his head curiously, wondering what Nigou was wanting to show him. Was it something important? Or maybe he wanted to show him the house? That would be funny. A dog giving a tour of a house. So he followed Nigou. "What is it Nigou?"
The dog barked again, going to one of the corridors of the apartment as Kuroko followed. Finally Nigou stopped at a door, using his paws to open it. He tugged on Kuroko's sleeve once again, licking his hand before entering the room. Kuroko followed, noticing that it was a really modern bedroom.
The room had a king sized bed along with a closet and a bathroom that was attached to it. Nigou barked to grab Kuroko's attention, and once he did, the dog walked up to what seemed like a dog bed before laying down. He looked up at Kuroko, proud to show him his bed.
Kuroko laughed softly when he saw Nigou on his bed. He looked really proud to show him. He moved close and kneeled down, softly petting Nigou on his head. "So this is your bed huh? And I guess this is Akashi-kun's?" Such a big bed for one person... Wouldn't it feel lonely? Sleeping on such a huge bed by yourself? "I hope you can keep Akashi-kun warm at night... He lets you on the bed, right?" But by the lack of dog fur on the blankets, either Akashi cleaned his blankets every day or he didn't let Nigou on the bed most of the time.
The husky whined, leaning his head against Kuroko's hand. He looked up at Kuroko with worried eyes and Kuroko noticed this. Nigou whined once again before suddenly standing up. He walked past Kuroko slowly, going towards a bedside table. He turned to Kuroko before barking, pushing something that was on the table. When Kuroko looked closer, he noticed that it was a picture frame but it was placed in a way so that it would be faced down, hiding the picture that was within.
Hoping this wouldn't be considered snooping, Kuroko slowly picked up the picture frame. Two faces immediately stood out to Kuroko, because one of them was Akashi, and the other was his own. He recalled the picture of the two of them in the past with their soaked shirts but smiling faces. It was a picture they took after going to the water park. They had so much fun and got absolutely soaked...
Kuroko didn't realize it at first, but he was smiling at the memory. Then he was frowning. They had such wonderful memories... why did it all have to go wrong?
Now that he was thinking about it, why did Akashi still have the picture all these years later? Yeah he said he's thought about Kuroko every day since, but why did he still have the picture out? And why was it face down on the bed side?
"Woff!"
Kuroko was woken up from his thoughts by Nigou who barked beside him. The husky brushed his body against Kuroko as if seeking comfort. He sat down, looking up at Kuroko before standing up again, this time heading over to the closet door. He pushed his snout against the door, as if telling Kuroko to open it. However, before Kuroko could take a step forward, he heard a voice, "Tetsuya?"
Kuroko hastily put the picture back down and moved away from the bed. He hoped he didn't accidentally break the picture, but that wasn't his concern right now. He rushed to the door and opened it completely. Did Akashi see? "S-Sorry, Nigou was showing me his bed…"
His bed? Akashi looked into the room and at Nigou who barked happily, his tail wiggling. The husky was now in his bed which made Kuroko wonder if the dog tried to cover for him as well. After seeing Nigou, Akashi looked back at Kuroko, "That's fine. I'm not mad at you Tetsuya." He assured, "Here's some water." He gave Kuroko the glass, "I also have some cookies if you'd like. I know it's not much but it's all I had."
"Cookies? What kind?" He asked curiously. "Oh, thanks for the water by the way. It's really appreciated." He smiled before taking a sip of the water. "So we should go back to the living room, right?"
"No need. The paintings are in the room next to us." He explained, moving aside so Kuroko could pass him, "That is unless you want to try the vanilla cookies."
"They're vanilla?" Of course he'd want to try them! "I'd like to try one first before we see the paintings... if you don't mind."
"Not at all." Akashi knew Kuroko would want to try them first. If it's vanilla, he'll try anything, "If you'd like, I can bring the paintings to the living room so you can see them while you eat."
"If that's the easier way to do it... I don't mind as long as it's not a hassle." Kuroko nodded and walked by Akashi to leave his room. He was really glad he wasn't caught looking at he photo or was accused of snooping.
"Not at all." But Kuroko really seemed stiff, "Nothing you ask is a hassle. Why are you so nervous?"
How can he not be nervous? He was alone with an ex! In his room! "I-I... don't want to ruin anything in the apartment..." He softly lied.
However the redhead sighed, knowing that Kuroko wasn't telling the truth again. Perhaps it was too early for them to open up like this? Going to one's house is something close friends do after all. Although, the two of them were more than close...
They walked down the corridor and back into the living room, "The cookies are on the counter."
"Thank you again, Akashi-kun. You're very kind." Kuroko said, glad that Akashi let it drop. "Will you have some too?"
"No, thank you. I had a big breakfast so I'm more than full." He explained, thinking about bringing the paintings here, "I'll be right back Tetsuya, I'll just go get the paintings." He said before leaving the living room. However, as Akashi left, Kuroko heard what he thought was a squeaking toy. It had startled him but when he turned to the direction it was coming from, Kuroko saw Nigou carrying something in his mouth.
The husky walked over to Kuroko before placing a plush toy on his lap. The boy looked old and was that of a small husky puppy. Now that Kuroko looked at it, it looked familiar…
"Ah, this was your little friend huh? I remember giving you this..." He didn't want Nigou to be lonely so he got this toy... He was glad to see Nigou take good care of it.
The husky barked happily, licking the toy before doing the same to Kuroko's hand. He was really glad that Kuroko came to visit, the bluenette could see it clearly in his actions and most of all eyes. Nigou's eyes were still the same as his, even though he grew up now. However, unlike in Kuroko's own, you could clearly see that Nigou has aged much more than Kuroko.
The dog laid down beside Kuroko with a yawn, both of them hearing someone coming back to the living room. Akashi emerged, carrying two canvases in his hand, "I've brought two for you to look at, then I can bring more."
"Oh no, it's okay. You don't have to bring out more if it's too much trouble. I can get up next time if you want." Kuroko insisted as he gently pet Nigou next to him. He knew he was the guest, but he felt guilty for making Akashi run around his own apartment like this.
"You still worry about that? It's fine Tetsuya, really." But even though he said that, Kuroko would still feel that he's causing trouble, which he's not. Akashi walked closer, sitting down beside the bluenette, "Before I show you the paintings, I want to tell you that the period I drew them in was dark. Even now, I'm not certain if I should show you." How would they convey his feelings to Kuroko?
"It's alright... I won't judge or anything, I promise." Kuroko assured Akashi. He even placed a hand over Akashi's. "I.. I know I put you through a rough time and I'm sorry. You don't have to show me the paintings if you don't want to…"
Akashi looked up at their hands, a sense of warmth enveloping him. His eyes wondered to Kuroko's own, searching for answers within them. It was then that he knew that he had to show those paintings. He moved his other hand, placing it over Kuroko's one, "No, I'd like to show you at least these two." It will take time but for now, he could show at least these two, "I want you to see them."
"Okay. I'll take a look at them. Even if things were... bad when you did them, I'm sure they're still great works of art." Kuroko smiled softly. "So don't worry about it, okay? I won't see you any different."
Won't see him any different... Akashi hoped that was the case. He nodded, moving his hands away so that he could show Kuroko the first painting. This was one of the first drawings he did after Kuroko left. Of course he didn't draw them right away since he wasn't emotionally stable but after a few months of doing nothing, Akashi finally moved. The first thing he did after laying in bed for days was paint and this painting express his feelings at the time.
Kuroko studied the painting, although there wasn't much to look at. Most of the panting was a dark black, especially around the edges. However as it goes towards the center, it gets a little brighter until you see a white figure in the distance. It took Kuroko a moment to figure out why Akashi drew this. The figure in the distance, in sight yet out of reach, probably represents Kuroko... "How did you paint this one? It doesn't look like it was done with a paintbrush…"
That was a very sharp observation, and it was true. The white figure that stood among the darkness wasn't painted by a brush at all... Akashi had used a brush when he began but due to his shaking hands and the emotions he was going through, he had thrown the brushes away and began painting in a different way, "I painted it with my hands."
"Your hands..." Kuroko looked down at their hands. He softly brushed the top of Akashi's hand with his thumb as if he was reassuring him. "The painting does seem a little sad and longing... but it's still really nice. I like it."
He likes it? How could he like such a painting? It doesn't show anything apart from despair and helplessness. Were Kuroko's words honest? or were they just trying to comfort him? Akashi didn't know what to think but when he glanced at the white figure in his work, he could see all the lines he had drawn with his fingers. Those hands... they craved the person that was in the distance... wanting to follow him who was the only light in his life. If the figure is gone, then so is all the light...
"Thank you." Was all Akashi could say, their hands which held one another providing some comfort. Now he would show his second painting which was in sorts a continuation of the first one. Akashi moved the canvas, revealing the second painting.
The second painting was an even bigger surprise, but for different reasons. Kuroko just stared at the canvas... It was all just plain black... No light at all. It was as if the figure in the first picture disappeared. "I dont... understand…"
Akashi stared at the black image as well, as if being sucked into it. The darkness he experienced was all captured within that one image... He quickly moved, turning the canvas around so that Kuroko couldn't see it anymore, "Perhaps this was a bad idea. I'm sorry Tetsuya... I don't... I don't know how to explain this painting."
"N-No, it's okay! I'm not much of an art person s-so maybe I don't understand." Kuroko tried to assure Akashi, not wanting him to feel insecure. "You can put them away if you want, but I really do like them!"
"How can you say that?" Akashi quickly asked, looking into Kuroko's eyes, "How can you like such paintings? They show nothing but humiliation and weakness within them. They're worthless, just like I was..." His voice lost strength at the end of his sentence, not wanting to remember the past. His eyes focused back onto Kuroko's own, "You're saying it to comfort me, I know it."
"No, I really like them. I really do. At least the first one..." Kuroko placed both his hands over Akashi's hands now. "Akashi-kun, I'm sorry I caused you such sadness... but I don't think it shows humiliation or anything. It shows your feelings and it shows you're an actual person. A real person... With feelings and everything. I-I know it doesn't make much sense but... please don't feel embarrassed by these paintings... I'm very happy you showed me."
Very happy... "Then what is it that you like about them?" He curiously asked, still under the impression that Kuroko was just pitying him. How could he not after seeing those paintings?
"I like them because they show your true emotions. They aren't just... splashes of paint on a canvas made to look pretty for someone's hallway or living room. This is, or was, how you felt... I really like that. I liked that back then too, when you captured emotions so easily in your paintings..." Kuroko tried his best to explain. Like he said, he wasn't familiar with art so maybe he was just messing this up.
How he felt... His emotions... Kuroko wasn't lying at all, he was telling the truth. That was exactly what Akashi did, drawing based on his emotions. He always did and yet Kuroko noticed it, that aspect of Akashi. Painting isn't a form of entertainment but is drawn based on the feelings of the artist, giving them a canvas to display their emotions on. Akashi was glad that Kuroko noticed... He really did care, if not now, then back then he did.
"I see." Akashi tightened his hold on Kuroko's hand, not knowing what to say. It was as if Kuroko saw right through his paintings, although did he see their dark side as well? He didn't know but decided not to ask, at least not now. Akashi moved, surprising Kuroko when he gently embraced him tightly.
Kuroko stiffened for a moment, but only because he was surprised. He didn't expect Akashi to do something like this. Like it was mentioned before, Akashi didn't lean on him much in the past... He gently returned the embrace, rubbing Akashi's back to comfort him. He didn't know what to say, so he just stayed quiet.
Kuroko's touch and warmth, Akashi could feel them both. They eased him, knowing that Kuroko was right here in his embrace. Right by his side, not going anywhere... They maintained the embrace for a couple of minutes before Akashi finally spoke, "After the graduation, where did you go?" He suddenly asked, his voice gentle, "Where were you?"
"Well... I kind of... went abroad for further studies." Kuroko said softly, still hugging Akashi. "I finally traveled out of the country like I wanted... Although it was pretty hard since I went to Europe. I learned the basic English of course but then there's French, German, all these other languages... I moved to London almost instantly. Anyway, it was.. to study for my current job." He didn't want to mention the fact that their big break up had a lot to do with his job choice.
Akashi's eyes widened a bit, although Kuroko couldn't see because they were in an embrace. The revelation gave Akashi some clarity and understanding of what had happened. Out of the country... that was truly comic, "No wonder I couldn't find you." He had searched everywhere but Kuroko was nowhere to be seen, as if he had evaporated from the face of the earth. Now Akashi knows why that was the case.
"Then why didn't you tell me? That you would go or that you wanted to be a psychiatrist." He asked, not letting go of the bluenette.
"I.. I made the decision after... graduation..." He didn't want to say 'after we split'. "You know I had trouble finding out what I wanted to do. I finally made a decision I guess." Kuroko shrugged.
But even so, Kuroko must have considered the option while they were still together. Did he not trust him enough to tell him at least that he considered it? "Then... why couldn't I have been a part of that future?" It was probably too early to ask but Akashi wanted to try none the less.
"...I'm sorry. Maybe I should have said something..." Kuroko mumbled, tightening his hold around Akashi. "I know it's a lot to ask, but can you ever forgive me?"
Akashi closed his eyes, different thoughts running through his mind. If he had to be honest with himself, then he had to say that he really doesn't know the answer to that question. A part of him wants to forgive Kuroko but the other part doesn't. He wants him to know the pain he has been through and yet he doesn't want to show it at the same time. His thoughts were very contradicting.
He moved away, breaking the embrace, although he was still close to the other. Their eyes met, looking at each other in search of answers that they were seeking. It wasn't only Akashi who was searching for answers but Kuroko as well. With this plea for forgiveness, Akashi finally understood.
Those teal blue eyes haven't moved on just like Akashi didn't. They were the same in the end, both of them seeking the truth, which can only be given by the other... Akashi raised his hand to gently move Kuroko's bangs away from his face, their eye contact never breaking. Then without even realizing it, Akashi leaned closer as if in a trance.
The action was so natural. Akashi leaning in, Kuroko excitedly waiting for the anticipated kiss. Everything else was forgotten, especially the fact that this wasn't the past. Meaning they really shouldn't be doing this... But once their lips touched, the two didn't think of the consequences. Even Kuroko didn't think of it. He was the same as Akashi. He wanted this too.
It just felt so right. It felt normal, natural... loving. Like what a real kiss between a real couple should be.
The kiss was full of love and want with the desire to make up for the lost time. This sweet taste Akashi had tasted so long ago was still the same... no, it was much, much sweeter than it was before. Their lips danced, deepening the kiss as minutes passed. Akashi leaned in closer, placing his hand on Kuroko's cheek.
The bluenette leaned into the touch, enjoying the warmth on his cheek. However he had a better idea for warmth and to crave their need to touch. Kuroko gently placed his hands on Akashi's cheeks and moved closer to the redhead. Actually, he was moving onto Akashi, getting comfortable in his lap.
The redhead welcomed the gesture as they both tried deepening the kiss as much as they could. Akashi moved his hands to embrace the bluenette, all of the reason gone from both of their minds. There were consequences but the two didn't care at all, at least as of yet. All they could think about was one another, tasting each other after so many years.
The kiss had lasted for quite a bit, both of them pausing for air before resuming the deed. They weren't conscious of time at all but once they were both out of breath completely, they broke apart with their gazes locked as if mist was covering their eyes.
They stared at each other as they panted, trying to catch their breaths. After a moment, realization flashed across their eyes. Kuroko paused, his eyes widening a little. "..I-I.. um.. S-Sorry, it's... I didn't mean to..." He was on Akashi's lap! When did he move?
Akashi blinked, realizing what they had done as well, "N-No, it's my fault. I'm sorry Tetsuya... I didn't mean to..." It was instant attraction, one both he and Kuroko couldn't control.
Kuroko finally urged himself to get off Akashi even though most of him was telling him to stay on. Why did he react like that? He was already with someone! Oh god, was this considered cheating? He was cheating on his boyfriend. "I'm really sorry…"
"No Tetsuya, it's me who's at fault." Akashi quickly stood up after Kuroko, not wanting the bluenette to take the blame. After all, Kuroko had let him back into his life, "It was me who leaned towards you and I apologize for that. I don't know what had gone over me. I'm truly sorry."
"I.. should have pulled away at least." Kuroko said to himself. As much as he didn't want to, he really should have pulled away... "I didn't even realize…"
If Kuroko could have pulled away at all that is... Akashi's eyes were on the bluenette that had his back faced towards him. He couldn't allow this new bond they've formed to break, "I think we both need some fresh air. Should we go to the park now?" And as Akashi asked, they heard a bark from Nigou who agreed.
Kuroko looked back at Akashi then at Nigou. Fresh air... Yeah, that should help him think... "Okay... Let's head outside then…"
Akashi nodded, "Let me get Nigou's leash." He went to do just that while Kuroko waited, Nigou approaching him before barking again. The husky's tail was wiggling, looking up at Kuroko happily.
Kuroko stared down at Nigou, the event that just happened still going through his head. "Is this okay?" He quietly asked Nigou as if he could respond. "Did we mess up?"
And as if the husky knew what Kuroko was asking, he barked, moving to lick Kuroko's hand while his tail wiggled. If Nigou knew what he meant, then he seemed pretty happy about what had happened.
"I found it." Akashi emerged another room, "If you're ready let's go."
"I'm ready.." He responded, petting Nigou once more before standing up. "Will we just walk in the park?" Kuroko doubted they'd have a lunch date now. Wait, it's not supposed to be a date in the first place!
Akashi raised a brow in confusion, "I thought you wanted some Vanilla milkshake?" But then again after what happened... "It's up to you Tetsuya, I don't mind at all."
Kuroko stayed silent for a moment, debating over his decisions. It would be best to forget this ever happened... "We can... still go out for lunch…"
Even after what they did? Akashi nodded, "Alright. There's a cafe in the park so we could have lunch there. Although they have just sandwiches." He explained, putting the collar on Nigou before going to put on his shoes, Kuroko doing the same.
"That's alright." It's not like he ate much to begin with. Besides, he wasn't sure if he could concentrate n a meal after what happened. "I just want to get outside right now…"
"Of course." Akashi quickly grabbed his keys, all of them going out before waiting for the elevator. Once it arrived, they made their way down and finally onto the reception where the guard had greeted them. Although when the sliding door opened, Kuroko felt the fresh air blow against him, calming him down.
He took a deep breath of the fresh air. Yes, this is what he needed. He could already feel himself relax. "Yeah... I'm glad we chose to walk today... It's nice out."
"It is." Akashi agreed despite his thoughts of what had happened. He leaned in for a kiss which Kuroko had accepted without a second thought. He knew it, if he doubted Kuroko's words that he had moved on, then this is the ultimate proof that he didn't.
"The park is just five minutes from here by foot." They could have driven but since it was so close, there was no need to.
"I see... That's nice. It's so close by... You could probably walk Nigou every day since it's so close huh?" Kuroko wished he could do that... Nigou was so nice. And he was a big dog now! Not just a pup anymore. "I can't wait for the cafe too. I really want a milkshake right now." Or rather something to distract him from thinking about the kiss…
But contrary to Kuroko's thoughts, it wasn't so easy, "Actually, I don't go on walks with him as much as I used to. Ever since I began working for the Akashi company, my free time has gradually declined." At times he would even come home to remember that Nigou hadn't gone out at all.
"Oh... Do you have someone else to care for him?" Kuroko asked with a frown. Poor Nigou... He wasn't walked everyday? That wasn't healthy. Especially for an old dog.
Akashi nodded, "I do have someone that takes him out when I'm unable to. It was much harder when he was younger though because he wanted to play with the other dogs, but now, he prefers staying at home." Due to his age it was natural.
"I'm glad it's easier now then." Kuroko finally smiled. "I'm just really happy he's... You know, still here." Alive, basically.
Nigou did have a few close calls, eating things he shouldn't eat and jumping on larger dogs but Kuroko is right, he was still here and that's what counts, "Huskies usually live up between 12 or 15 years, longer than some other breeds." Although this meant that they only have up to 5 years with Nigou left…
"Well, if we take good care of him, maybe we can keep him for 20 years!" Kuroko claimed before realizing what he said. We? If we take care of him? We can keep him? When did it suddenly become we?
A smile appeared on Akashi's face, again, Kuroko was right, "Then we should do our best." He looked down at Kuroko while the said husky pulled on the leash, excited to get to the park. Now that Akashi thought about it... "I know this may be sudden but would you like to take Nigou home from time to time?"
"Huh? Could I?" He was sure Kagami wouldn't mind... It would probably be only for a few days at a time... Besides, it would give him a reason to see Akashi. "I'd really like that. Can I?"
"Of course." Akashi didn't hesitate to agree, "Like you said in high school, to Nigou we're like a family. I've had him all these years so it's only fair that he gets to be with you now."
"I doubt he'd want to stay with me as much as you but... thank you Akashi-kun." He smiled. "I'm sure... um.. I'm sure Kagami-kun won't mind..." He really didn't want to say that name.
"Does he like dogs?" Akashi asked curiously, the entrance of the park already in their sights.
"...Um..." Kuroko remembered the first time they went to the park near the beginning of their relationship. That was the last time they went to the park thanks to Kagami. Long story short, they had to leave as soon as Kagami managed to run away from the dogs chasing him. "It'll be fine—"
So he doesn't, "I see... Nigou is a lovable dog so I'm sure it will be fine. I didn't and still don't like dogs but since Nigou is an obedient one, I had no problems with him." Akashi said as they had entered the park, which was green with a great wide field for dogs to run around in. There was also a pathway for people to walk on with many trees beside it. Akashi leaned down to let Nigou off his leash, the dog barking before moving to sniff the things around them.
Kuroko smiled as he watched Nigou start to explore. "I remember when we first found him... I really didn't know you didn't like dogs. Well, I'm glad I didn't know, otherwise I probably wouldn't have asked you to help take care of him…"
So even a small thing like that could have changed the course of their future. Perhaps instead of Akashi, Nigou would have stayed with Kuroko instead, "I feel the same way. If you would have known, then I wouldn't have been able to keep Nigou all those years." In his time of depression, Nigou had helped as well... those eyes he has... they're the same as Kuroko's own... That is why they've named him 'Nigou' after all.
"Well, let's be happy we still have him." Kuroko turned to smile at Akashi. "Now, is he fine to run around on his own? In case we get distracted as we walk?"
"No need to worry. He's a smart dog." Akashi assured, both of them turning to look at Nigou who had seen another dog. Both Nigou and the other pup stood still, looking at one another before the smaller dog suddenly began barking, his owner pulling his leash to calm him down. However, unlike that dog, Nigou just watched before resuming his walk.
Kuroko laughed a little at the sight. "Small dogs always act big yet the big ones act small... It's so weird." That's why he loves dogs. "Anyway... I guess we can walk on freely?"
They do say that the same applies to humans though, but then again it's just a saying, "Yes. We should walk a bit more before we eat, or we could buy the food and bring it with us. Are you hungry?"
"Um, kind of... But what could we eat as we walk?" He didn't want to carry around anything big. He wanted to relax during the walk, not make sure food doesn't fall out of his hands.
A slight smirk appeared on Akashi's face, "Who's saying we have to walk? We could sit on the grass instead, away from the crowd." He knows that Kuroko prefers that much more than just sitting in a restaurant. As long as the scenery is nice, Kuroko is satisfied. At least the Kuroko Akashi knew…
"Like a picnic?" Kuroko couldn't believe he didn't think of that! "That sounds great. We should do that now." He insisted. "Where should we get the food?"
Akashi chuckled in amusement; "We'll get it from the restaurant, the one that serves only sandwiches." And it was the only restaurant that was in the park. Akashi pointed to a building that wasn't far away from them, "It's over there. Let's go get the refreshments before finding a spot to sit down."
"Okay. Let's get going." Kuroko said, excitedly pulling Akashi toward the restaurant. At least he was able to momentarily forget about what happened in the apartment.
The other followed, noticing Kuroko's cheered up mood. What happened in the apartment wouldn't be forgotten but at least now they could divert their attention away from it. Their new relationship wasn't ruined just yet, although Akashi couldn't lie that he wanted more... just like before.
When they've arrived at the restaurant and went in, Kuroko was surprised to find many cakes and sandwiches in the glass on display. They looked really tasty too! "Hello sirs, what can I get you?" The man behind the counter asked.
Ah, there were too many to choose from... Kuroko looked at each sandwich, pouting when he couldn't seem to pick. He looked up at Akashi. He's been here before, right? "What do you suggest Akashi-kun?"
Akashi looked at the sandwiches, humming in thought, "The mayo and tuna sandwich is the most popular, although I do prefer the one with Spanish ham and cheese. It's a big stronger but you can taste the ingredients fully." As he spoke, he pointed to the said foods, "The chocolate croissant is also very good so we could take it as a dessert."
"They all sound good..." Kuroko sighed. "I wish we could get them all... We could try each one and see what we like and don't like…"
That was actually a good idea, "We'll get one of each please." Akashi told the man behind the counter who smiled widely, "Oh! Akashi-san! Of course! Right away!"
"H-Huh? What do you mean one of each?" Kuroko asked with surprise. "I-I was joking! You don't have to spend that money!"
But Akashi was that kind of a person who had that money to spend, "Was it? You sounded sincere to me." He teased, turning to the man again, "Add three Vanilla milkshakes to the order please." And as Akashi ordered, the man nodded while packing everything into a bag. The restaurant wasn't that big at all and they only had nine sandwiches on the menu, rather it should be called a cafe place instead since there were tables outside.
"C-Cause I didn't think you'd just buy everything!" He couldn't believe Akashi actually took his rambling seriously! "Is this really okay…?"
"Of course it is. Don't worry too much Tetsuya, that way, you'll get wrinkles much earlier~" He teased again, paying the man for their order, "Thank you Akashi-san. Ah! Nigou as well! I have a treat for you buddy!" The man leaned down to get something from his drawer and once he got back up, he gave Nigou a big bone to chew on.
"There you go. I hope you'll enjoy your food. You as well sir, come back anytime!" He smiled at Kuroko, gladly handing them over their order.
"U-Um, thank you." Kuroko figured it was too late to cancel the order now so he just accepted it. When they left the cafe, he took a deep sigh. "Don't always take me seriously! If I knew you'd do that, I wouldn't have said anything." He pouted. At least Nigou got a treat too... He looked so happy as he carried his bone.
"I apologize." Although with a smile on his face, it was hard to believe, "You seemed excited to try them all so I thought to myself, why not? The shop has good foods and I'm hungry as well. It won't go to waste so don't worry." He explained but thinking back to high school, it was like that back then as well. Akashi just couldn't say no to Kuroko, how could he after seeing his lover's eyes?
"Moving on, where would you like to sit?"
"...In the shade would be nice." Kuroko said. He still wasn't a big fan of the sun. He preferred the cold. That's probably why he was so pale…
A shade... "Then how about there?" Akashi pointed to a big tree that was in the middle of the field with many green leaves on it.
"Ah... that looks pretty..." Kuroko nodded, liking the spot instantly. "Let's rest there!"
Well somebody is excited~ The two walked over to the spot, placing their bag of food down. Now they were only missing a blanket under them... Akashi took off his sweater, "Here Tetsuya, sit on this."
"Huh? No, I couldn't possibly do that." He said quickly. "I'm fine with sitting on the grass, honestly." Kuroko told the redhead.
"I insist." But Akashi wasn't letting go.
Kuoko huffed before removing his own jacket. "Then you can sit on mine! It's only fair."
Akashi raised a brow, "I politely decline. However, I do want you to take my jumper."
"No. It's either both or nothing." Kuroko insisted with a determined pout. "I'm not giving in."
"Well so am I." Akashi said, both of them standing their ground. Knowing how stubborn both of them are from high school, this matter wasn't going to be solved anytime soon.
Nigou whined, placing his bone on the ground before looking up at Kuroko and Akashi. The dog whined again, grabbing their attention before sitting down, wanting them to do the same.
Kuroko looked over at Nigou and pouted a little. "Look Akashi-kun, he just wants us to eat! Let's both sit, okay? Please?"
The redhead sighed, feeling the same way. However! He wasn't going to let Kuroko sit on the grass! That's why he took Kuroko's coat and in exchange he gave him his jumper, "Now we can sit down."
"...Alright then." They should have just done that from the beginning- With a sigh, Kuroko put the jacket down and sat down once he made sure Akashi did the same. "Now we can start our picnic~"
Finally! "You seem really excited. Why is that?" Akashi asked as he began taking out the sandwiches and of course the milkshakes.
"Cause I never get to do this stuff..." Kuroko said. "I'm excited cause it's the first time I'm going on a picnic."
"First time?" Was it really? Kuroko never went out on a picnic? It's true that they didn't go when they were together but... "How about back in high school? When we went with others to the street ball court in a park."
"I don't remember eating out while we were out... even if we did, I mean it's my first picnic with a-" He almost said lover but luckily he stopped himself. He never went with Akashi when they were younger and he never went with Kagami…
With a…? Akashi wondered what Kuroko wanted to say but oh well, he had a hint, "Then I'm glad that I'm your first."
"Y-Yeah..." Now that he thought about it, Akashi took a lot of his firsts- No, he shouldn't think about all that! "L-Let's try out the food now! I'm excited to try them all."
The other smirked as he began taking the sandwiches out of the bags. He started opening them and as he did, he explained what each one was, "This is the tuna mayo sandwich I told you about. It's the most iconic sandwich of the shop." He raised it up to Kuroko's lips, "Would you like to try?"
"Um..." The blunette felt his cheeks heat up a bit when he realized Akashi would probably feed him if he let him. "Y-Yeah, but uh, I can feed myself…"
"Hmm? Does that mean I can't?" He asked with a saddened look, determined to have his way and feed the bluenette.
"B-But..." How can Kuroko deny that expression? He glanced away, trying to look anywhere but at Akashi. "I don't know…"
"I see." Akashi lowered the sandwich, "Then I suppose we're not close friends as I thought we were…"
"We are friends!" Kuroko said quickly. "Did I make you sad? I'm sorry... You can feed me if you want…"
Akashi looked up, a smirk quickly appearing on his face. He raised the sandwich up again, "I'd love to. Best friends do these things don't they?" His goal is achieved~
"I guess..." It's not like he had a best friend in a while. Kuroko looked at the sandwich before slowly taking a bite, avoiding looking at Akashi. "It's pretty good…"
"I'm glad." Now with being allowed to feed the bluenette, Akashi's mood was lifted up. He began opening the rest, "I'll lay them down like this so you can choose which one to try. We got some sweets as well." He laid out a croissant filled with vanilla and one filled with chocolate. "And not to forget", He reached out to grab the last thing in the bag, the vanilla milkshakes.
"How could I ever forget?" Kuroko brightened up as he laid his eyes on the milkshakes. "And since you're feeding me... I get to feed you too! That's only fair."
What a marvelous idea~ "I have no objections. In fact, I'd like it if you do please." He encouraged before picking a sandwich, "Try this one. It's with tomatoes and cheese."
"I will, but first I have to feed you." Kuroko pouted. "So let me feed you the cheese and tomatoes!"
Akashi couldn't help but chuckle. Kuroko was really excited, almost like a child. It was amusing to see so he handed him the said sandwich before leaning in, "Hurry, I'm hungry."
"I'll go at the pace I want." He pouted but held out the sandwich to Akashi's lips. "Eat~"
With a wide smirk, the redhead leaned in, biting into the sandwich. After biting a piece off, the redhead moved away, "Delicious." He said before looking up at Kuroko, "However, I don't seem to recall it being so good. Did you do something to it Tetsuya~?"
"O-Of course... I added a secret ingredient~" Kuroko teased back with a small smile. "I can't tell you though."
"Hoo~" Interesting. Akashi leaned closer, "How cruel of you Tetsuya~ But then again, I suppose it's an ingredient that only you have."
"Yeah, exactly." Kuroko nodded. "Now if you're gonna feed me, do it~"
"Your wish is my command~" Akashi reached down to grab another sandwich, one that Kuroko didn't try yet, "This is the smoked salmon salad sandwich." He raised it up to Kuroko's lips.
Salmon? Wow, he didn't know that could go in a sandwich. Kuroko took a small bite. "Whoa... It tastes real good!"
Amusing, "Then would you say that I have a secret ingredient as well~?"
"Hmm, I guess so~" Kuroko laughed softly. "This is really fun even though it's just sandwich tasting."
Akashi smiled, feeling the same way. Everything was so different with only one person's difference... how did Kuroko manage to bring so much light into Akashi's world? He'll probably never understand, "It must be because you're here." He lowered the sandwich, "Thank you Tetsuya."
Looking at Akashi again, Kuroko tilted his head a bit. Because he was there? "Um... it was nothing. I'm happy to help?"
Akashi gave the other a look, "Did I say something strange?" He leaned his head against his wrist, "Hmmm... No, it must be Tetsuya after all~"
"You're so weird." Kuroko pouted but he didn't mean anything by it at all. "Come on, let's try a dessert now! I really want to try the vanilla one!"
Vanilla, of course. Akashi took the vanilla croissant before raising it up to his lips, "Your love of vanilla never ceases to amaze me."
"It's unbreakable." He remembered when Akashi tried getting him off of his milkshake addiction but utterly failed. Kuroko smiled as he took a bite of the croissant. He hummed in delight as he closed his eyes. It was so delicious!
"I'm not surprised. It's vanilla so you'll definitely like it." They shouldn't have expected nothing less. Akashi threw himself down, laying down on the ground while looking up at the blue sky, "I do wonder though... Is there anything else that you love as much as vanilla?" Maybe... him?
Love anything else? Kuroko slowly laid down beside Akashi, wondering about how to respond. "Well... I do love Nigou." He joked. "And cloud watching and taking walks in the park…"
"Woof!" The said husky barked before leaning in to lick the bluenette on the cheek, expressing his love as well. However, while the two cuddled, Akashi closed his eyes, his emotions conflicting within him. What was he thinking? Would Kuroko still love him after their break up? It was unlikely but still, he had hope.
"Then I'm glad we came here." Akashi spoke softly.
"Why's that?" Kuroko asked curiously, looking over at Akashi. "How come you're glad we came here?"
A smile appeared on Akashi's face again, tilting his head to look at Kuroko, "Because this way we got to do all the things you love to do. Then that means that you had a good day. That's why I'm glad." As long as Kuroko is happy, then Akashi is as well.
"...Yeah, you're right." That's why Kuroko said those things, because that's what they did today. He had been joking but... now he really did know he loved these things indeed. Only if Akashi was there beside him. "If you're happy... I'm happy."
So they were thinking the same... "Tetsuya." His eyes met Kuroko's own, "May I hold your hand?"
His hand? Kuroko looked at their hands then at Akashi's face. He slowly nodded. "Go ahead... I don't mind."
With permission, Akashi reached out to hold Kuroko's hand, the feel of the gentle warmth soothing his worries. He closed his eyes again, relaxing as the wind blew past them. It was a really beautiful day, "I'm glad you're with me…"
Kuroko couldn't speak at first. Akashi really missed him... Even thought Kuroko left, he still wanted him back... "I'm glad too." He whispered, his voice so quiet it was almost silent.
A cold gust of wind blew past them but neither Akashi or Kuroko minded. They didn't feel the cold at all because their minds were somewhere else completely. The warmth came again as the sun tried to penetrate it's rays of lights through the thick leaves that were covering the two.
It was peaceful... Akashi had closed his eyes while Kuroko did the same. Then the two had slowly drifted off to sleep.
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