A/N: So here is chapter four of FOMA. I don't own Ouran. Thanks to everyone who has helped throughout this story!

Satoshi lay outside in the grass. He was looking up at the cherry trees they had in the garden. It was so peaceful there , just looking up into the sky and not worrying about anything for the time being. As he looked up a blossom fell off the tree and landed on his face. He picked up the flower and looked at it studying it for a moment. It was beautiful and the petals were soft to the touch. He looked up at the tree again and sighed. They were an uncommonly beautiful flower. He was the one that had fallen off the tree, he was the flower that was in his hand. It made him feel some sort of happiness and some sort of sadness at the same time. He was happy because he knew that he was trying to get back up there, he was trying to get back to himself. It made him sad to think that it was possible that even after he went through all of this, even after he had gone through all the therapy and did his best and tried to think differently and stop cutting; after all that, he would still be missing his best friend. He wouldn't have Chika beside him any longer, his best friend wouldn't be there for him, to support him, to talk to him.. Satoshi let a tear run down his face as he looked at the flower in his hand. He blew on the flower and watched as it sailed away free as anything just going with the current of the wind, maybe it was time that he started letting go too.

"Are you ready to go?" a voice came from behind Satoshi. He looked up seeing that the voice belonged to his older brother.

"As ready as ever," Satoshi said picking up his school things and following his brother to the car. He was never ready for another school day. It was another day of pain and another day of torture. He would deal with it though.

Mori noticed that his little brother was feeling a little down in the dumps and he could completely understand that. He understood that Satoshi didn't want to go to school because he would have to be around Chika and Hana and that made him feel uncomfortable. He reached out a hand and placed it on Satoshi's shoulder.

"What Taka?" Satoshi said turning around to face his brother. He was surprised to see his brother wearing an expression of concern.

"You don't have to go to school today. You know that right? If you feel bad or nervous or you think it might trigger something you don't have to go. I can work it out with the chairman…" he was cut off by Satoshi.

"I know Taka, but I have to do this. I can't stay home forever. It wouldn't make sense. I have to keep up with things and I have to try to get my grades up so I can actually pass this term," Satoshi said as he continued to walk towards the car, "And you better hurry up or we are going to be late."

Both of them got in the car and were soon heading off toward Ouran Academy. Satoshi was nervous as they pulled up to the gates and he was unsure if his legs would be able to hold him up as he went into his classroom. He was nervous to say the least, but he tried not to show it. He should have known better though. He couldn't hide anything from his brother.

"I'm going to talk to my teachers. I'll have my cell phone on vibrate all day. Tell your teachers something. Give them a reason for you to have yours on. If you need me for anything just text me, OK?" Mori said. He was worried for his little brother and wanted to be there for him.

"Thanks, Taka, let's get this shit over with," he said as he parted ways with his brother and walked toward the middle school building. He was not looking forward to the day or sitting in class, but he knew he had to get through it. He walked into the room and sat down in his usual seat. Then Chika came in, with the beautiful Hana on his arm. Satoshi winced. He didn't want to be here right now. He didn't want to see what was going to happen but he knew he had to sit through class if he was going to get his grades up.

"You are so funny Yasuchika," Hana said smacking her boyfriend on the arm. He was being funny in a really serious sort of way.

"How is my martial arts tournament funny?" Chika asked looking at Hana. He loved her, but she could be really dense sometimes. He looked over to see his best friend looking over notes before class began. "Hey there Satoshi. How…." He was cut off by Hana.

"Well it was more cute than anything silly. I think it's awesome how you are so into all that stuff. It almost makes me want to learn some," Hana said wanting her boyfriend to focus on her.

"Almost is your key word there," Chika said. He sat down as the bell rang and took out his notebook and pencil. Soon Satoshi threw something on his desk. It was a pink piece of paper. Chika opened it to find it was a note from Hana. He jotted something down and handed it back to Satoshi who threw it on Hana's desk.

Satoshi was sitting quietly in math when he felt someone tap his arm. He looked over to see Hana holding out a pink piece of notebook paper. He took it very unwillingly and threw it on Chika's desk. A few moments later he was being tapped again and Chika was handing him back the note. To his relief Hana didn't write anything back and Satoshi was able to concentrate on the rest of the lesson. He hated sitting between those two. He was always passing their notes and every time he passed a note he felt like it was a slight twist of the knife in the wound. Thankfully the day went by with minimal note passing. Then came lunch. Satoshi had gotten used to it by now. He would stay in the classroom and eat his lunch alone while Chika and Hana went down to get some food and chat together about whatever was in those stupid notes. He sat at his desk and watched them walk away as Hana giggled and Chika rolled his eyes.

The rest of the day passed by smoothly and then before Satoshi knew what was happening the bell was ringing for them to go home. His brother had Host Club today so that meant that Satoshi would be going home alone. He was about halfway to the car when he heard someone behind him. He turned around and saw that the person behind him was Chika.

"Hey there Satoshi," Chika said walking up next to his friend.

"Hey," Satoshi responded trying to sound casual. He really didn't want to see Chika right now, but knew he had little choice in the matter so he would play along.

"So Hana is coming over tonight. It was so awesome last time. We kissed! She is a really good kisser I won't deny it," Chika said looking over at his buddy.

"Cool," Satoshi said hoping to get to his car soon. He didn't want to do anything he was going to regret.

"Well here is my car, I'll see you tomorrow, Satoshi," Chika called and Satoshi nodded as he jumped into his own car. The car sped home but not fast enough. Satoshi was on the verge of tears. Tears of anger. He hated Chika for what he did. And Chika hadn't been helping the situation by constantly giving updates of his new relationship. Satoshi wished that Hana had never come to Ouran and that his former best friend had never taken an interest in the girl. He wished he hadn't thought he actually had a chance with someone like Hana. The car pulled up to the estate and Satoshi jumped out and ran inside. He was running and running not really knowing where to go. He found himself in the kitchen again and there he saw it, a knife laying on the counter. He slowly walked over to it and picked it up.

A/N: So what will happen?