Sorry about the wait for this, I decided to do something a bit different than I wanted to here but I think it works at this point. But, I will warn you that B/R won't be getting their relationship right just yet, they are just trying to save their relationship in anyway they can. But, they will get a happy ending I just wanted to explain how they get to that point.


"Okay." Robin had been silent for five minutes, thinking about what Barney just told her and trying to make sense of it.

It's true, this thing between them is just so messed up. They are both emotionally drained because of each other. Everything, that Barney has said this night had been true for both of them and now it's all sinking in and it makes Robin feel a bit sick hearing these things from Barney because they are true and they are hurtful, and they are something she doesn't want to hear him say or to think about. But, now it feels like they are going in circles and she feels sick from the pain of being in love. Being in love with a man who had stole her heart so long ago she doesn't even remember or know when he stole it, but he did and the truth hurts. She's dying in her pain, dying in this never ending game with him, this never ending battle of being in love with Barney Stinson and being in such a pain, not just in the recent years after the divorce, but for a long time before that, for years. But, he's right and she knows that they can't do this anymore if they want to try to move on or try to work on their relationship again.

For one thing, she knows that they can never get the friendship they once had no matter how much she wants to have it back. Their friendship is pretty much dead and she knows it now and it has been since falling in love with him. They're a mess. Plain and simple. A plain mess and neither knows what to do or where to go with their relationship and trying to savage whatever it is they have left of it in some way. So, they sit on the bed in silence trying to figure out what they're doing and what's going to happen next. She does know that she doesn't want to completely lose him, and she feels like she already has. She hates this feeling, she wants this feeling that he's going to be there for her back again like it was but she knows that she probably has lost the love of her life no matter how much she wants to hold onto it, it's already gone and maybe she should just leave because if she stays here any longer she will explode again but she doesn't want to completely curse him out because the anger did subside for her when they decided to have rough sex so any yelling isn't good for this moment.

Until, he says something that changes the mood that is.

"I'm done, Robin if you want to still try again being together then we can try to rebuild and save whatever this relationship has left or we can both go our separate ways again. But, what I know is..." he pauses and starts to get up from the bed but just instead sits with his feet on the floor looking away from her.

He's in pain, she knows that the relationship in whatever way they leave it is pretty much done. She doesn't want it to be done, she can't, won't lose him she doesn't know how to go on if she just leaves and let's him go. So, she's quiet until she says.

"I can't do this either, Barney I just..." she hates to admit to being needy, it was always her weakness when it comes to Barney but this is going to be a good thing or a bad thing to get out there and let him know where her feelings are right now in this moment.

"I'm, afraid. Of losing you, it's why I've been so distant. It's why I was distant emotionally during our marriage. I felt like I was already losing you so I left, emotionally that's why I put all my attention on my work." She confesses for the first time that she thought she was already losing him due to both her work and trying to be this good wife that she should have been to him. She was so caught up in thinking she was going to lose him that she started to ignore him, put her attention onto her work and then putting distance between her and Barney and the reason their marriage failed was because of her. It was all her fault that their marriage failed and not Barney's.

When, Barney told her that it was her fault that their marriage failed and she left the marriage emotionally he was right. She hates knowing that someone is more right about something than she is and this is true, it hurts but it's true and she's trying to now make up for what she did to get their marriage to crumble before she knew it it was too late to savage the marriage and now she was doing the same thing with their relationship by trying to be friends in some way and it's not healthy on her part to put all her problems onto him and make it his fault when it wasn't.

For the first time since the night before, they are looking at each other. Seriously, looking at each other with this look on their faces, the look that says to him that she still cares and that's why she started to become so distant in their marriage. She thought she was going to lose him so she left the marriage emotionally to stop the pain of him leaving her but in the end he did and it was all her fault.

He gets up from the bed in silence and goes around the bed to where Robin is now sitting, just like he was on the bed. For the first time, he realized that he failed her by letting her leave him, emotionally in the marriage and that's why their marriage crumbled before they could try to save it.

"Robin. I'm sorry, I didn't mean to make this all about you. It's not all about you, it's my fault too. We were both in the marriage, together and we both left the marriage emotionally this had nothing to do with you. I just, felt out of place. You had become this big shot with your job and I just left my job and had nothing going for me. I was jealous of your success that I took out my frustrations of being unemployed out on you and I'm sorry, I shouldn't have done that. I should have talked to you, like a normal husband would do but I did what I always do, I kept everything to myself and for that I'm sorry for ever making you think that our marriage failing was your fault." He tells her, he's now crouching in front of her, his hands resting on her legs as her tears fall fast down her face.

"No, you tried to get a job and you weren't getting anywhere and I didn't realize how much my success was making you feel small and not worth my time. But, you were. You were more important to me than my job, Barney if you just talked to me and told me how you felt I would have helped you find a job or start to pay more attention to what you were going through. If I knew what you were going through I would have been there for you to help you figure out what you wanted to do with your life. After all, we were married, we were a team we could have talked it out, together." She tries to wipe her tears away but they keep coming faster down her cheeks so he tries to help her wipe them away by getting a tissue from the nightstand to give to her. She takes it and starts to blot her wet cheeks.

"I guess I should have told you but you weren't there emotionally for you to understand you were too involved in your work to care about what I wanted or needed." She wants to make it up to him but doesn't think it's the right time to do that so she says.

"I want to try, this," she points between them still with tears in her eyes. He's also crying too at this point but not as much as she is. "Let's try to work on this, on us, again." She didn't think she would have said that only last night, heck she didn't even think she would run into him at Maclaren's either but hey that's fate sometimes, you never end up where you're going at first but it's nice to enjoy the ride.

"I don't know, Robin this thing between us is still awkward. I mean last night was a pretty good example of us still being awkward. We were just really angry with each other, we can't just jump back into a relationship without thinking it through and talking it through. We are both so messed up, our marriage went from good, to okay, to divorce in only three short years. I can't put myself through that hell again. Losing you, it was the worst thing to ever happen to me and when I thought I lost you the first time we broke up it killed me then, but the divorce, that killed me even more. I can't do that again." He gets up from where he was and starts to pace the area, Robin's still sitting on the bed and looking up at him. Her tears had stopped a little at this point so her emotions are more controlled than they were so she could talk to him with a more clear vision and mind now than before.

"I know, I can't either but we can at least try to figure something out. I mean, I do still love you but we can take things slow, we don't even have to be together romantically to be together. I just..." she looks down sadly at her bare feet, she hates being this open and honest with people but with Barney it just comes so natural and it feels honest to her. They did promise to be honest with each other and that's what she's going to do.

"I miss you." She finally says, looking up at him. He's smiling lightly at her but with hope in his eyes, his smile and look on his face tells her everything she needs to know.

"I've missed you too, so much. I've been miserable. It's so good to finally say that out loud, I've held that in since I saw you last night." He tells her smiling a bit more wider, happy that maybe this is the beginning of something for their relationship, where it is right now it could be a good thing to try to find some way to work things out and be together even if they aren't together romantically.

"Okay, we can try this. But, we don't have to rush things. Let's just take things slow and see where it goes." That's what they want but it won't be easy for them and things won't just get back to normal either but for this moment it seems like things will be okay with them.

That, until things become a little complicated and even more uneven but they are trying and that's what counts. They want to try to get their relationship to work no matter how they do it they want to make it work.