Right, for Sophfee, Frankie, Blue, Ellie, Maryam, Berniie, PoisonedStatic, and who ever else is reading this. might not upload much over the next two weeks, but still, i love you xoxo Chemmy.
I just sat frozen. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Its the only word that ran through my head. That he's...SORRY. Fuck that.
"Sorry? Gerard, you called me A. FUCKING. FAG!" i set my coffee on the table, just i threw it across the room or a Gerard.
"Frankie, please let me explain"
"WHY SHOULD I? you can't just get away with it with a simple sorry" I interupted.
"Frank. I was...i am not homophobic, i never have been. I just wanted to wait for someone i loved. I truly loved. i didnt realise that someone was you. I fucking love you, Frankie. So i am so sorry for what i called you and i know sorry will never cover it. But i am sorry." A single tear ran down his cheek. "I am so very sorry, Frank"
"You. Pretended. To be. Homophobic?" I frowned. "How dare you. You could have said you were straight, or were not interested. Or something" i looked at Gerard, he looked broken, hurt. But i was too pissed off, he made me think he hated me, from aged five. It was pretty fucking obvious that i wasnt happy. I did love Gerard, i really. But what his words did to me. They hurt. They made me make the first cut, at seventeen years old, i couldnt get over it.
"Have you got any idea what your 'fake homophobia' did to me, Gerard?" I asked vicously. Gerard fliched and shook his head. I rolled up my sleeve and showed him my scarred right arm. "This is what it did to me, Gerard. Those words fucking hurt me. So much more than you will ever imagine." I began to cry. "I love you, i have always loved you. If the person that you loved did that to you, how would that make you feel?"
"I see your point" Geard said looking at my arm. He pulled me onto his lap gently. "I'd do anything for you Frankie, anything" He kissed the top of my head and hugged me close to him.
"Just never do that to me again" I murmured weakly into his chest. I just couldnt hate Gerard, no matter what, i just couldnt.
Look i know its short, and i will make the next chapter prolly funnier and longer, thats if i can get the imagination from somewhere. xD enjoy and review.
