A/N: As you can tell from the title, this chapter is going to solely based through Jess' eyes. I don't know if this was a good way to go, but it is going to retrace the past few days, showing what Jess is thinking from his return to Stars Hollow up to where I left off in the 3rd chapter. I hope you enjoy!

Disclaimer: I know I didn't mention this in my first three chapters, but I don't own Gilmore Girls or any of the characters (or some of the events that I mentioned), only the plot.

Through Jess' Eyes

"Here I am. Stars Hollow." Jess thought to himself, as he made his way to the diner. He wondered what it was that made small towns stay the same. Nothing looked different. Every flower seemed to not even have a petal out of place

It was mid-morning now, so he knew that he would have a good chance to see who he came back to see - Rory. There was something about that name that comforted him. Rory. Rory. He could say that name every minute of every day and not grow tired of it. How he wanted to see her. He didn't care what anyone else thought. He came to fix things. Fix things with Rory. He didn't know how, but he had to try. He wanted her back.

Jess entered the diner, finding it about half full. He stepped up to the counter, spotting Caesar. "Hey, Caesar! Where's Luke at?" After seeing that Caesar didn't even bother to look up, he turned around and saw them. It was Luke with Rory. A sudden wave of happiness shot through his body.

He couldn't quite understand what she was saying to his uncle, but that didn't matter; soon they were both staring at him, silently in awe.

"What?" he said, in, not a question kind of way, but more as a greeting.

He kept his eyes on Rory the whole time, hoping that she would be the first to say something. But that was not the case…

"What the hell are you doing here, Jess?!" Ah! The exact reaction he knew his uncle would give. Jess held back with all his might his want to burst out laughing.

"I thought it would be fun to come back, is all."

"That's all? You can't just come back here. Why didn't you just stay with Jimmy?" Jess watched his uncle move himself away front the door, towards where he was. His eyes went straight back to Rory. He couldn't tell what she was thinking. He actually thought it was cute. She stood there, arms crossed and staring down at the floor, as if there was something amazing going on there that no one else could see.

"So, Rory, you just going to stand there, in everyone's way?" He didn't want it to come out that way. He wanted it to sound as if he was just asking a simple question; he didn't want it to sound like he was trying to make fun of her on purpose. Before he could say anything else, he heard her mumble "Sorry" to the incoming customers and make her way out of the diner.

"Jess, I need some answers."

He couldn't deal with his uncle now. He had to go to Rory…to talk. To see her - just see her.

It didn't take him long to find his way to the front door of her house. It was perfect. Just the way he remembered it. He stepped up to the door and was about to knock when he heard a familiar voice inside directing something to the person she thought was at the door.

"Mom, did you forget your key again? I told you to keep it in your purse or at least somewhere where you'll know where it is so you can get into the house…" she trailed off, not even finishing. He was kind of saddened. He wanted her to keep on talking, so that he could remember what her voice sounded like.

"What are you doing here, Jess?"

"Well, you kind of took off so suddenly from the diner that I didn't really get to say hi." This isn't what he really wanted to say. He wanted to tell her that he wanted her to take him back, that he missed being with her, that he would do anything to have her forgive him.

"Um, well, I had some studying to do, so, I thought that I would come here and do it, so…"

"Right. Isn't it summer now? You know, symbolizing not having to do homework?" Stupid! 'You finally get to talk to her and you say something as ridiculous and condescending as that?' he thought.

"Oh, uh, yeah, school, is over, but there is still summer reading and stuff like that. I just didn't want to get behind."

He wanted to slap himself. He knew that Rory was nervous and didn't need him making fun of her, but he did it anyway. He had to go. He didn't want to continue to make her feel this awkward.

"Well, it was nice seeing you again, Rory."

"Yeah, you, too."

He had deeply hoped that she would stop him and ask him to stay or ask if she could walk with him - anything to show that she wanted him there even a little bit.

"Why did you come back, Jess?"

"I'm not sure yet," he said, while walking away, leaving Rory standing in the doorway. But he knew. He knew why he had come back. For Rory.

He reached the diner a few minutes later. "You want any help Uncle Luke?" Luke looked at him, hardly. "Fine." he said, flatly.

Throughout the next few hours, it was 'pancakes and coffee, please' or 'bacon and eggs'! at least it was enough to kind of keep his mind of Rory.

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Jess was tired after he was done working at the diner. He grabbed his jacket, after Luke said that he didn't have to help anymore, and left. He couldn't stay in that place any longer; he had to get out. He started walking, not knowing where his feet were going to lead him. It didn't matter though; he only thought of one person. Before he knew it, he was at his feet's destination. The bridge. He smiled. This is the one actual place in Stars Hollow that he felt at peace and he was glad that he was there. He walked down to the end of the bridge and sat down.

He was staring out at the water when he heard a rustling behind him. It was Rory. He stared at her for a couple seconds. He saw that she was looking down at the ground, much like earlier in the diner.

"Are you smiling at your shoes? Did they say something funny?" He wasn't afraid to let a little joke like that slip out, and he couldn't help but incorporate what he was thinking about before into his little joke.

He was glad to know that his decision to let that joke out was caught by Rory. "Well, you know, shoes have a lot to say. They've been everywhere you've been and haven't complained once about being the one that has to step in poop and mud." He smiled at her.

He was amazed with her. After all the bad that they've gone through, she was able to joke around with him, too. He missed that smile of hers, how it was small and more to herself than anyone else, but that it could make anyone who was around her, smile, too.

"So, what are you doing here, Gilmore? Shouldn't you be studying?" He waited for a witty response from her, but as he watched her face, he saw panic. He didn't understand, it was such a simple question.

"I thought that I would take a break and just walk around for a little while. I ended up here and wasn't sure if I should stay or keep on walking."

"Well, if you want to stay here, I could leave, Rory," he told her, secretly hoping deep down that she would tell him he could stay.

"I don't know…I don't care if you leave or stay, though. I was just thinking about some things and thought that I could come down here and sit and look out at the water and, well, think."

Jess used his right hand, patting the spot on the bridge next to him, hoping that Rory would sit. "What are you thinking about?"

"Just stuff you probably wouldn't want to know about, you know, stuff about school and…"

He heard her trail off her sentence, but he was still amazed by how she talked. How her lips would move, where she would look with her eyes… He guessed that she felt that he was watching her because she turned her head to face him. They stared at each other for what seemed like an eternity. He hadn't seen her this close in a long time, since before he left. Before he knew it, he was leaning in towards Rory, thinking that she had felt the same way he did.

"You know what, I should be getting home. My mom is expecting me and I should just go." She got up, and walked away from, as quickly as her feet would take her.

Jess just sat there. He didn't know what to think. He had scared her away. He wanted so much to rewind the last two minutes to take back what he tried to do with her, but he knew that he couldn't. He placed his face in both of his hands and just sat there, rocking back and forth.

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Jess sat there at the table on a chair, replaying last night. He was thinking about it over and over, asking himself why he had to do that. Just then, he heard someone downstairs say, "Lumberjack Luke." It could only be one person. He made his way down the stairs and noticed the mother and daughter bickering about something. He half-expected that Rory wouldn't even set foot in the diner after what happened. But that didn't matter. What mattered was that she was there. He thought that her showing up was some kind of sign; a sign that said that she didn't think he was now repulsive and a huge jerk. Now was his chance. He grabbed a pad and a pencil and walked toward the table they were sitting at.

"What'll it be, ladies?" He noticed that Lorelai was staring up at Jess, with a look that could easily kill him. That's when it hit him; she didn't know that he was back. Of course she didn't! There was no way that Luke or Rory would tell her that he came back to Stars Hollow after what he did to them. He was expecting the worst, but to his surprise, she turned away.

"Rory?" her mom asked, concerned.

"What?" she replied. "Oh. Um, I'll just have waffles and bacon." Jess noticed that she didn't even look up to acknowledge that he was there. He knew he was wrong. She couldn't even stand to look at him anymore.

"Great. I'll have the same." Lorelai told Jess, coldly. Jess stared down at Rory for a few moments before leaving with their order.

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They left. Rory sure did a great job at not even looking at him. He felt so hurt; like there was now a big, huge hole in his heart that burned with every breathe that he took. What is he going to do now? He just sat there, thinking that this was how it was going to be from now on. Nothing was going to change.

A/N: I know that I ended this chapter and chapter 3 in similar ways - I did it to show the kind of bond that Jess and Rory have, and the ironic thing is that they don't even know. Please review!