At eleven in the morning I finally made it to my room at The Empire and was ready to drop for a nap and then some lunch not necessarily in that order. I never have been showered with gifts, by any guy,until to today. Nate had sent not just my luggage, but the same box chocolates he got me after the masquerade and had to give Blair, two dozen of my favorite black magic roses, one dozen orange roses, thirteen black and coral roses, twenty-one purple roses and a letter.
My Dearest Jenny,
As I was leaving your atelier and spoted Blair; I remember that I have never given you chocolates, or flowers, or much of anything and I have never wooed you. Jenny you deserve to be wooed, you have just always fallen into my arms without me having to work for it. I have never given you a reason to only let you, so I will give you a reason too.
Each of these flowers has a meaning (blame Blair she made sure that Chuck and I knew the language of the flowers, when we were twelve and I have never forgot it). The burgundy roses mean a very deep passion and an unconscious beauty, which I have felt for you since that night, I told you "because," I have always had a stronger passion for you than anyone I have met before or since. Jenny you are the most beautiful woman I have ever seen, you have been taking my breath away since the moment I met you and still do every time I see you. The number twenty four is a reminder that I think of you all the time and I also remember that they are your favorite, are "Black Magic".
The orange roses are called "Heart of Gold Roses," and you have a heart of gold, you always wanted what was best for me, even if you went about it the wrong way. Their meaning is fascination, passion, enthusiasm, attraction and desire; the number twelve is ask you to be mine. You are the only women, have ever felt these feeling for or honestly wanted to be with in this way. Blair was what my parents wanted, Serena was a dream, a fantasy, a replacement for you. All the others, were me trying to fool myself that I didn't want you, or that you were not the girl I loved any more. I know now I was the fool for you and I will get down both knees, beg you to be mine, put a ring on every finger so the world will know, how much of a fool I was for letting you go all those years ago.
The cora' and black roses, meaning of the coral are of my deepest desire for you and black roses meaning of death and rebirth, and yes that might not be the best thing to remind you of with our history, but hang in here with me. The day of my nineteenth birthday, when you took me out and killed me in the assassins game, with a kiss and Jenny it took every fiber of my will power and self control to not kiss you back. Jenny that night you tasted of sweetness, wildness and you were seeping with desire for me and so damn, fucking ,addictive. It took all of my being to let you walk out of that storage room, without me ravaging you and making you mine in every way possible. Thirteen means the from a secret admirer and a forever friendship, I will no longer admire you from afar or in secret and know this you will forever be one if not the closest friend I have ever had and whatever you chose.
The twenty one purple roses, the darker purple are "Blue for you" ,"Midnight Blue" and mean enchantment, you have enchanted me from our first kiss, that night I knew you were not Serena by the way you kissed and the way you tasted, Jenny; you have always tasted of sweetness I knew you had eaten the mexican milk chocolate, espresso bonbons -which Serena hates, and of a free spirit, which still tasted like you have destroyed me for all other women. I knew it was you the night of the Saint and Sinner party as well had you not walked away I would have taken you right there. The lighter purple roses are "Silver Shadow," and their meaning love at first sight, and I have loved you from that first day I saw you, I didn't know it at the time, but you took my breath away and those emotions, those strong emotions was love at first sight.
Jenny you are the one, and I am yours, I am with you always, no matter what you chose to do.
Always Your Nate,
P.S.
Are you wooed yet?
Was I ever wooed, everything he said he had me in tears of joy.
"Yes, I am wooed Nate, thank you for the roses and chocolates," I texted him.
"You are welcome, can I pick you up later tonight for the family dinner," Nate texted back.
"I would love that," I answered.
"Alright pick you up at six," Nate answered quickly.
"Six it is," I texted and quickly fell on my bed and took a nap, I currently blaming the jelly beans and jet flipping of switch I was out until about two in the afternoon.
When I woke up, grab a cranberry lime kale juice and an energy bit, I had to get out and run. If you would have told when I left Constince eight years ago, that the next year I would lettering in cross country running at Hudson High School. I would not have believed you, but I started because go figure Nate like it, but as twisted stage of events Alex younger Sister Rachel Bancroft was the coach at the high school and lived down the road form us and started training me in the summer and made the team the next year. I have never given up the sport, because I could lose myself as the wind comes in my face and freedom. It was through this I started to find the old Jenny from the block. I knew if didn't push myself this today I would fine as would be my three little jelly beans, so before left I put my key and cell phone in my own pocket of my leggings and a little to small soft blue sports bra since my boobs are getting bigger, and I took off this big rock on my bed stand. I had to run, just to think. Nate was everything I dreamed of in high school and honestly the one biggest reason I could not move on, there are three hundred and sixty seven letters from almost five years, we have been having an emotional affair and a physical one too every few years. I was soon in Central Park doing a few stretches and off running. I ran through my six mile loop around the park, and stopped to drink from my water bottle, when I saw that body that gave me wet dreams in high school, who is now an chief editor and CEO; who also put a ring on my finger this morning and like myself he was caught up in his own world, then he saw me.
"Jenny, what are you doing," Nate asked more surprised.
"Running," I answered with a smirk, as took a sip of water.
"I can see that, but why?" Nate asked.
"To think," I answered.
"Why," Nate asked with a laugh.
"Well this guy from high school, who gave me more wet dreams than I know what to with, knocked me up and then proposed this morning, I had to think." I answered him with a smile.
"That would be a good reason to need to think," Nate answered, with a slight blush came to his ears, "I know you have told me you started cross country your senior year, but to see you doing it is a bit of shock."
"I did start the summer after I left New York, I just wanted to get out of the house and then I met my core group of friends, who all happen to be on the team and dragged me into and my step Aunt Rachel Bancroft, who trained me and I made the team senior year. I have never given it up, shocked a little?" I answered.
"Yeah a bit, happily so," Nate answered. "Wow a Queen of Constance, letter in cross country I know you have told me but wow!"
"We went to state, that year and I rank fourth in the state that year in the 5,000 meter," I told him proudly.
"Wow, that amazing I knew that, but wow!" Nate as motioned for me to walk with him. "Forgive me for being a caveman, here but it safe for the jelly beans for you to be doing cardio?"
"According to google it should be?" I told him sweetly as I walked next to him.
"Google is not a reliable source Jenny, please for our jelly beans safety and possibly my sanity, I can't see lose them Jen or you," Nate asked.
"I am not use being in a relationship, but I just thought about thinking and I do care about the Jelly beans, Nate and you know that," I answered, as he took my hand and saw that the ring was gone.
"Have you made your decision already," He asked in a whisper, I saw fear and hurt in his eyes.
"No, Nate I have not, there are two main reason I did not want wear it now. One it a little big and I did not want to lose it and two I did not want have my picture taken with it on my finger, because everyone knows that ring and I want to keep this between us," I answered as we kept walking.
"That makes since," Nate said as we walked. "If this going to work, I will have be completely honest with you?"
"What is it, Nate?" I asked as I took him in, he was not wearing a shirt, looked amazing and smelled like a Nate.
"I was honestly terrified that you made your choice and it was not me," Nate said as we came up to food cart and Nate got a bottle of water.
"I would not do that to you Nate," I tell him as he finish is water quickly.
"I know Jenny," Nate agrees as we come to another path.
"I will tell you and right now I am leading on an answer that will make us both very happy," I told him and gave his hand a tight squeeze and I looked down I could not tell, which fingers were mine and which were Nates. "Race to the end," I tell him and run off down the path with Nate quickly coming on behind me.
"Cheater!" Nate yells at me and comes after me, we made to a grove of trees and Nate caught me up in his arms, and we were breathing hard. I loved his eyes at moments like these so alive, bright and dark blue. Soon his lips were on mine and we were kissing. I wanted him again, I have never wanted anyone like this before, I tend to be a one and done kind of girl, but when comes to Nate I have never been able to give him up.
"I want you again," I breathed.
"We are in public," Nate said, as he leaned his forehead on my.
"I don't care,"I tell him, as I brush my hand on his erection that was forming. "Want this now."
"Jenny why is that I can never tell you no," Nate answers as he pulls me deeper into the trees.
"I promise not to take to much advantage of that," I tell him, until make to a point we are hidden from sight, and then I was turned around and my hands were held above my head as his other hand pulled my leggings down, to my knees. I was wetter than I have ever been as I felt his hard erection pushing into my ass. "Are you going to take me from behind?"
"You want me now, than you will have me this way," Nate breathed, in our friends with benefits relationship, have seen many sides of my lover, but this was new and I loved it.
"I will take you anyway," I breathed as he spread my legs, and quickly penetrated me. It didn't take long, for us to both orgasm. I was one of the most satisfied women to ever life.
"Jenny, you are going to be the end of me," Nate smiled as he put himself in order.
"Is that a bad thing?" I asked as pulled my now very wet leggings, up.
"No, the idea of any other woman is not even something I can think about now or have for the last four years it just been you," Nate answered. "You are the only one, who has ever really mattered."
"Nate," was all I could say, because no one has ever said anything like that before to me.
"Jenny it's just you and has always been just you everyone else was sad man even sadder failed replacement," Nate said as he kissed my forehead gently. "Let's get you back to the empire, before Eric thinks I kidnapped you again."
"Okay," I answered at a lost for words, because no one had ever said anything so sweet. That was not the boy I knew in high school, who could tell you what was wrong grammatically with your sentence, but not how make flow better.
