Chapter 4
The next morning Sam woke up to an empty bed, wondering if last night was a dream. Until she looked over and saw Jack's shirt lying on the chair in the corner of the room, and the ache in between her legs, which reminded her off the wonderful things that they did last night. She could smell the unique smell of Jack O'Neill on the pillow he slept on. Getting off the bed she wrapped her robe around her body before stepping out into the hallway.
"Jack" she called out as she walked in to the kitchen. "Jack, what are you doing?" She asked him as he turned and smiled at her.
"Hey, what are you doing up? I was going to bring you breakfast in bed" he said walking over to her, and leant down dropping a kiss on her mouth. He deepened the kiss and wrapped his arms around her waist, pulling her towards him so that she was pressed against him.
"I missed you Jack" Sam told him, and he knew that she wasn't talking about that morning.
"I missed you too Sam." He told her honestly, elated at finally being able to tell her what he had been forced to hide for the past 3 years.
He noticed that she couldn't look at him and in that moment he knew that she still felt guilty, when she had no reason too. He had put that episode behind him, the day that he returned from Abydos and especially the day she walked into that briefing room.
"Sam, look at me" he said, but she shook her head still looking down. Jack placed his hand under her chin and lifted her head up so she would look at him. "You know how much I hate talking, but I am telling you I don't blame you for leaving, god knows I wasn't easy to live with at the time and I had already left you, emotionally at least"
"But you needed me and I wasn't there for you"
"Sam, you were grieving" he said gently, releasing her from his arms.
"So were you, you lost your son Jack"
"Sam, between losing Charlie and our baby, I couldn't deal with it so I pushed you away. I left you emotionally the day Charlie died and then the miscarriage. I was too wrapped up in my own to grief to be there for you, I would have left my sorry ass too. You need to remember that I said goodbye first Sam. I was not suppose to come back from Abydos, you know that."
"Jack, I never stopped loving you!" She needed him to know. "I just couldn't watch you going down that path, and there was nothing I could do to stop you." She said with a sob, causing Jack to pull her back into his arms.
"Sshh Samantha... I never wanted you to leave but I understood why. I wanted to come and find you after I returned, but I had already hurt you enough." he told her, as Sam wiped away the lone tear that always escaped when he thought about Charlie.
"I am so sorry Jack"
"I know Sam, I knew that the day you walked into that briefing room and challenged me to an arm wrestle," Jack said causing her to smile at the memory "I pushed you away after Charlie, I felt like I didn't deserve you, and after Abydos you had already gone. I wanted great things for you, and you have me so proud Mrs O'Neill"
"We aren't married anymore Jack, I have no right..."
"Sam... stop. You have always been my wife, and unless you actually received a decree absolute, than I believe we are still married"
"Excuse me" Sam asked him pulling away from him.
"Sam I signed the papers and in all honest I had forgotten about them"
"So we are still married and you didn't think to tell me when I reported to the SGC" Sam spat at him.
"Sam, I tried after the Abydos mission but you didn't want to talk to me about anything other than work" Jack tried telling her but she wouldn't listen.
"I don't believe this" Sam muttered sitting down at the dining room table and buried her head in her hands. Jack stood behind her, and placed a gentle kiss on her head.
"Sam, the papers are on your bedside cabinet, it's up to you if you want to file them. Just remember I never stopped loving you Samantha." He said before walking out and getting dressed before leaving the apartment. Sam got up and walked into her bedroom, and saw the papers laying where he said they would be. She picked them up and stared at them.
SUPERIOR COURT OF THE STATE OF COLORADO
FAMILY COURT
Domestic Relations Branch
Samantha O'Neill
V
Jonathan O'Neill
Sam burst into tears, as she flicked through them to find that Jack had signed them all, not taking notice of the date until she reached the last page, which had a post it attached to it.
Make sure this is what you want Samantha, I will not stand in your way, I love you, Always Jack xx
She found herself smiling at the note. She thought when she left him that she could put Jack O'Neill firmly behind her, only to discover that she couldn't! She had never stopped loving him, and she knew that she never would stop, no one ever came close to Jack O'Neill in her heart. There was no way that she was going to lose him for a third time! She knew that she needed to prove to him, that she was here to stay.
I don't think you need me much anymore these are great :D
