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"I need to tell her…"
Seconds felt like hours on Blair's mind, and Chuck's last words were still sounding on her head.
She ran after him.
- Chuck wait!
She yelled.
- You can't do this… You don't know how to…
She was trying holding back the tears to be able to speak but it was too hard. With all her strength she tried pulling him back to the room, and when he realized how much in pain she was, he stopped.
- Please Chuck, you don't know how to handle this. She is just a girl, she won't understand what you're saying and you'll just confuse her.
- I can't be away from her any other minute.
There was happiness and also hate and sadness in his voice.
- You're not the only one wanting to tell her the truth, but, as horrible as it can sound, you just became a father, I've been her mother for 5 years and I know what is best for her…
- So, the best for her is to still be thinking she doesn't have a father? That her father left her and her mother alone? Still cry over not having someone to call "daddy"?
Blair knew he was right. She needed to know as soon as possible but it wasn't that easy.
- No! But you have to understand that saying "Hey, Chuck's your real dad" wont make anything better than it is now. And I think we both need to have a conversation first.
- Then how long I am supposed to be waiting?
He was furious.
- Charles this isn't easy for any of us. You're not the only one suffering here.
- But you've had her all the time! I haven't!
Blair stopped yelling and her voice went softer.
- I lost the love of my life because of them. I've seen my baby making cards for her grandparents on father's day because she doesn't have a father to make him one. I've answered her questions like why she just has a mommy and mostly all of the kids on her school have mommy and daddy. We both suffer as much as you Charles.
He couldn't help himself but hugged her. Hugged her and kissed her like he hadn't done in years. They cried together on the hall, together on a hug, trying to throw all that pain out of their hearts.
- We better go inside the room… we need to talk.
He said.
On his mind everything was going clearer. They weren't married but he was the father of Blair's daughter; that and the love they both shared made him feel as her husband, so he needed to be the man and take charge of the situation; besides he had all the rights to take decisions over Audrey's life. But one thing was true… even though he had been there for Audrey since she was born, he had shared with her so much all this 5 years, and he had acted like a father to her; he didn't know a thing about being a real father. And the things he learned through this years, he forgot due to the fact that now he was a real father and the nerves appeared.
…
- Miss Blair!
Dorota yelled.
The guys turned back to find Audrey running away from Dorota to Chuck's open arms. Dorota apologized for not having her away from them like they asked, but they barely listened to her voice. Chuck was absolutely in shock, realizing it was the first time he had her on his arms already knowing she was his daughter. It was the first time he was hugging not other man's girl but his own daughter. He didn't say a thing and just stayed there without moving. While Blair… she couldn't stop the tears staring at them. That was everything she had always wanted to see since she knew she was pregnant, even though she thought it was Louis'. Baby and father sharing this pure love. And she was seeing it and feeling it with Audrey and Chuck.
Everything made sense. The love Chuck and Audrey felt for each other since she was born was amazing, unbelievable, unbreakable, and unique. She had this crazy idea that maybe the love she had always felt for Chuck somehow could have been felt by Audrey too all the time she was inside Blair and all this 5 years watching him always close. Or maybe it was just how especial was Chuck with Audrey, and how he always showed his love for her what made Audrey loved him too. Now all the theories were thrown away; the only explanation for this great love was that on Audrey's veins was Chuck's blood… Her heart was beating as the result of the biggest love ever… Chuck and Blair, Blair and Chuck. That was why the most important people in Audrey's life were they both, that was why the three of them were always so perfect together. Now they were Chuck, Blair and their daughter. Yes, Chuck and Blair's daughter.
Dorota felt something wasn't ok. She looked Blair and asked for her permission to take Audrey to her room and watch television for a while. Blair nodded and Chuck barely moved when Dorota took Audrey from his arms.
- Bye mommy, bye Chuck.
- Chuck…
He said, highlighting how his daughter still called him by his name.
- I'm…
Blair tried to find something to tell him.
- Don't worry. I understand. Let's go inside.
He said.
…
- What happened?
Serena asked
- Did you talk with her?
Nate questioned
- S, Nate, we need to be alone for a while. She doesn't know yet so please, don't tell anyone. We need to talk, and set things clear between us. Then we will find together the right way to talk to her and let her know all the truth.
Blair was trying to be calmed. A big talk was heading and her mind needed to be as clear as possible.
- Yeah, of course. Just call if you guys need something. Ok?
Nate took Serena out of the room and told Chuck they'd be at the Empire the whole day. It wasn't their problems but seeing their best friends going through all of that was painful. Still they felt happiness too. It was going to be hard and new for all of them, but Audrey being Chuck's daughter meant a new story for Blair and Chuck. They'd finally have the opportunity to be together again, and give Audrey the family she needed.
- It's almost 1 in the afternoon. You must be starving.
Chuck said sitting next to Blair in her bed.
- I think our conversation is more important.
- No, you need to have some food. We can talk here while having lunch. I'll ask Dorota to bring us some.
He walked out of her bed to the door.
- Do you want me to go?
- I'll be fine.
He said, and left the room.
They both knew what they were meaning. She was as afraid as he was about meeting Audrey when going to find Dorota. None of them were sure about Chuck's reaction if he crossed Audrey.
He went downstairs first to check if Dorota was in the kitchen, hoping she was there and not at Audrey's room. But instead of Dorota he found a note.
"Miss Audrey want go inside Miss Blair's room. Going to the park for distraction. 4 plates on the oven. –Dorota."
She had left food for 4, but since Serena and Nate left before he only took his and Blair's.
The conversation was pretty long. Dorota took Audrey to the zoo to make more time for the couple to be able to talk without worries, and by the time they were going home back from the zoo Audrey was so exhausted that she fell asleep in the limo.
- Can I give her a kiss of goodnight?
He was ready to leave the penthouse
- You don't even need to ask.
Blair was smiling.
- I love you both.
He whispered on Audrey's ear and kissed her.
They walked together heading to the elevator but before they got to the stairs he realized she was crying.
- Blair…
- I'm ok, I'm just tired. Today was really long and… difficult.
She was sobbing.
- Come, I will leave you on your bed.
They went back to her room where he gently helped her to get comfortable on bed and covered with her fleece. He kissed softly on her lips and turned back to leave the room once again… when he felt her hand on his…
Her sweet voice.
- Can you…
He looked at her eyes and words weren't needed.
- Are you sure?
She softly pulled him from his hand and he took his shoes off with each foot. He joined her in bed and hugged her back until she said "I love you" and fell asleep in his arms.
He stayed awake, overwhelmed by thoughts of hate against the ones who had made of his life their entertainment. But then he remembered Audrey and all the hate disappeared. He remembered the conversation with Blair.
They made it clear he was on head of the family now, but Blair knew more about how to handle situations with Audrey, and kids, so they both needed to work together.
Little Audrey won't know the truth yet.
Yes, Chuck had always been close to them, but Blair never allowed herself to show Audrey all the feelings she had for Chuck, even though they were pretty obvious and the girl already knew about them. So that needed to change.
Other way it would be a really drastic change for the girl and they wanted her to feel as better as it was possible, therefore anything that would help was going to be tried. They were trying again, they would be together finally, after all these years.
And it would be easier for Audrey to recognize Chuck as his father if he showed his true feelings, his love, without keeping anything, from the girls. She would start seeing him with her mother, loving each other, and loving her, and that would help her to be ready to know that the one who loved her and her mother the most, the one who was going to be her mother's husband soon, was the one who also was his real father.
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