3rd: Change of winds
- Going somewhere?
Really dude? That is all you can muster? - Kylo thought, but seeing that Rey almost jumped out of her skin, this opening was registered as a complete success.
- I... I... - she began, but he stopped her.
- You – Ren inched closer to her – Wanted to escape. This was not a good idea now, was it?
He could have swam in the fear radiating off of her.
Rey had no weapon, and Ren could see how she calculated her chances.
- I will not go back into that cell. Do whatever you want – she sneered – I will fight as long as I can.
- I do not doubt that – leaned Kylo close to Rey's ear – and you should not doubt, that I do not give a damn about you.
You lying bastard – Kylo could hear the mocking voice again, but he dismissed it, even though he know that the voice was right.
- For the last time I checked, you were the prisoner, and I was the guard. Understood?
Force, she smells so good... - Kylo thought. This time, it was his own voice sounding in his head. The foreign one remained quiet, as if it was checking the progress of the situation.
Rey looked at him, in her eyes he could see a mix of fear, hatred and fire. Like she was challenging him not only just talk, but to prove his stern threats.
- Show me the map – he demanded silently, feeling her tense in the shadow of him, as Ren leaned on her, trapping the girl between the wall and his body.
- Go to hell – Rey whispered back to him.
Next thing Kylo realized that he was crushing his mouth on hers, but in this he felt no intimacy at all. Rey was battling him, using the kiss like a weapon of choice, which fueled his anger and desperate need for something. He pushed her to the wall of his chamber.
- I don't like sand. It's coarse and rough and irritating and it gets everywhere. Not like here. Here everything is soft and smooth – he said, one hand gently caressing her bare shoulder.
He didn't want to scare her, but he could not deny how attracted he felt towards the young woman. Her purple-yellow dress was light, and it suited her nature, being the light in this crazy world. The breeze of Naboo caught a few stray strands of her hair, and he could not vision a more beautiful sight.
He leaned in closer and waited for her. She closed her eyes, which he used for kissing her ever so gently. The kiss lasted only for a few seconds, but he felt like he is going to enter heaven.
But as fast it has come, so fast the moment was gone. She broke the kiss, looking forward to the ocean, trying very hard not to look at him.
- This was a mistake – she said with shaky voice – Please do not do this again.
He just stood there as he had ran into a wall with full force.
- Okay – he nodded slowly - I'm... I'm sorry...
Kylo broke the kiss as the new flashback ended. Rey looked at him wide eyed, air streaming in and out her lungs as if she had run a marathon just now. Kylo had the implication, that she also saw the scene from first person view, just like he did.
- Let me go – Rey whispered.
- No.
She did not squirm, nor did she try to free herself.
- Who are you? - Kylo asked searching any known line in the girl's features, but finding nothing – Why can't I hurt you or properly question you? What did you do to me?
Rey tried to avert her gaze from his. It was too intense, and aside from the fact, that she could not answer his question, the young woman was trying to ignore the emotions, which were stirred by the brief interaction.
- Let me go – she tried it again – The others may come for me... Also, you do not have anything in your hands, when you cannot enter my mind, am I right?
Kylo shook his head.
- They will not get to you in time. They will not get anywhere near this place...
Rey furrowed her brows, throwing a questioning look at him. Ren released his grip on her, risking that after she gets to know what he says, the girl will attack him.
- What do you mean? - Rey asked.
As Kylo positioned himself in front of the door, she could only escape if he tackles the man. Which would be a very reckless decision, but tempting, none the less.
- One of our spies have discovered the base of the Resistance. The Starkiller Base will be charged, and fired, to destroy it. It cannot be avoided, nor can you stop this. If you want to survive, join me. You can use and sense the Force just as I can. I could teach you... do you have any idea how powerful we could be?
Rey felt the need to slap this son of a kriff so badly... What did he think?!
- I will not use Darkness – she sneered – and as far as I have sensed it, you have your own doubts about it also.
Kylo's face changed into determination and contradiction, but Rey suspected, that it was addressed to himself more than to her.
- I do not doubt anything.
Rey just grimaced, contemplating her chance for escape again.
You cannot get away...
Ren's voice was so silky in her head, that first she did not even realize, that he in her head was a wrong thing, but it was too late. The man was already searching her thoughts, and he found what he needed.
She did not feel pain, like when he shifted through her head in the interrogation room, but as if she was leading the way to a welcomed being. Then she understood. Kylo used the powers from the Light side, but even so, it was late. He saw the map.
- Which solar system is this? - he asked.
- I don't know – Rey stood tall against him, defiance radiating off of her.
- You are lying.
- You look nice.
- What?!
- Sorry, I simply thought we yell kriffshit to each other...
Judging by Kylo's face, Rey thought that the last part went a bit too far, but if he loses his control, she will be able to run out, and save what she can save. Starting with BB8 and Finn.
- Who's that? - she heard Kylo ask.
Damn.
Ren did not like the fact, that FN-2187 has an important meaning in her mind, and as the thought formed in his head, a voice demanded FN-2187's immediate destruction. Feared part was, that Rey inched to liking the idea.
He slipped back into Rey's mind, finding that she still wanted to escape, and searched for her friends. No need. If his calculations were correct, as soon as they charge Starkiller Base, the Resistance will show up to stop them. Under the leadership of his mother.
You cannot make her stay. With or without threats. I could not make my Angel stay anywhere, even f it meant that her life will be on the line. I went with her to her home planet. I went with her to the most dangerous space-havens. In the end, she followed me, and she died. Do not let her go alone anywhere. Please. Go with her.
There was it again. The voice.
Even IF she would not kill him (or at least try to do so), what reason he could muster, to make Rey have him on board of a ship with her?
- Why do you care? - Rey demanded – What the hell are you doing in my head again?!
She seems to be well armed against the Dark side, but she cannot do anything about jedi techniques...
- I just...
If I am clever now, I can make her to do me anything - Kylo thought. He could swat two flies with one hand. Sway Rey to be with him, and get that strange whatever that thing is out of his system.
He got closer to the girl, who froze on spot, until Ren stopped before her, leaning his head on her shoulder. He could feel every inch of her moving around in the Force. He could smell her intoxicating scent, made out of fresh water and sunshine in the cold, making his resolve to trick her, nearly impossible.
The Supreme Leader gave him the order to kill Luke Skywalker. This could crush her only hope to get trained, and Rey will probably hate him. But he is a monster, that is just how things are, even if Rey was the only being in this moment, who could pull him to Force knows what direction.
Ever since he could use the Force in any way, he felt some sort of standstill. Like he is not complete in any way. First, he thought that he needs power. That was the reason he turned away from his uncle, joining Snoke. He thought, that the dark side will give him the needed power, or he will feel a sense of completeness, but the spot remained empty. No matter how powerful he became using the Dark, no matter how many people he killed.
He saw their faces at night. Pleading for him to have mercy on them. Promising, that they will do whatever Kylo just wanted. Some nights there was just dead silence, but no comfort, as he hoped. He felt utter betrayal. He felt cheated by the Light, as he was nowhere near Luke's powers, and he felt cheated by the Dark side, for not giving him fulfillment. Now he could not choose the Light nor the Dark, and for some reason, he felt, that if he kills Luke, his last chance will get away with Rey's presence to move anywhere from the swamp of despair and hatred.
- I feel like I am being torn apart – he told her, head still on the girl's shoulder, speaking in a soft, broken voice – I feel the Light pulling me, when I am speaking to you, touching you, or think about my mother. But I am very well aware, that I have such amount of darkness, that is irreversible – he looked at the woman's face pleading – Snoke, the Supreme Leader senses it also. I cannot go back to him like this, or I will be labelled a traitor to the First Order. He ordered me to kill you, but I did not have the strength and will to do it.
Rey studied his features with mixed feelings.
- How can I know, that you are speaking the truth? That you are willing to switch sides?
Kylo looked at her puzzled.
- I am not. All I say is, that I don't want you any near, when the Resistance and the Firs Order clash with each other.
The girl looked at him. Her questioning gaze was so heavy, that Ren almost broke under it, giving away the order, he got from Snoke.
It did not matter to him, what happens with the Starkiller. For him, this whole machine was a disgrace, much like General Hux. Until this point, he was only interested in killing all remained Force sensitives in the galaxy, or developing his abilities further, to get at least near to Darth Vader, or Luke. Looking at Rey's clean signature and contemplating features, made Ren despise himself more, waking a deep carving in him to get accepted by Rey in any way.
This was not only his thought. The presence in his head had the same urge towards connection they have between each other.
Rey sensed some kind of finality, when she opened her mouth.
- Give me your lightsaber – she said with a stern voice
- Excuse me?
- Give it to me, and we will do something to get out of here.
Kylo squinted his eyes.
- Please explain.
Rey sighed.
- Hutt knows why, but okay. Where I go, you go too. If you try anything funny, or force me to do anything, I will do my best to defeat you, and to take your life.
As Kylo took out his saber, and looked at it, he felt some sort of déjà vu.
Looking into Rey's eyes, while he gave the weapon to her, Ren knew, it would only take a push of a button, getting the saber pierce though the girl's heart, ending her life on the spot, but somehow he felt, that right after taking Rey's life, the only thing he has left to take his own too...
Author's note:
Hey you guys! Sorry for not posting anything for so long, but work has taken a toll on me this week. Also this chapter has been a b_tch to write, as I've tried to create a slow shifting in Kylo, but no matter, how much I've rewritten the whole thing (I've lost count after four times), I could not make it any more slower. The progress is some kind of faster, considering, that he is influenced by his own unstable belief in the Dark side, and own insecurities, and the fact, that he is not alone in his head. The same applies to Rey. Normally you would not let a serial killer slash sith slash WhateverNegativeYouCanList with you to be in the same room let alone ship in the middle of space, but she is also influenced, and somewhat naïve.
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