I Do Not Own CSI


"Brown"

"Hey Warrick" Catherine said on the other end of the phone

"Hey Catherine what's up"

"I've been thinking about what happened at the lab this morning and I think we should go check on Gil and Sara. I mean it was her brother that died and were her friends, we should be there helping"

"You think that's smart Cath? I mean those two are intensely private people. Yes I want to help but do you think they want us around"

"I think we should at least check on them and see if there alright"

"Where do you want to meet?"

"I'll pick you up. I already called Greg and Nick and I'm going to pick them up"

"Ok I'll be ready when you get here"

"I'm actually here outside with the guys so get a move on"

Warrick looked out the blinds to find Catherine's SUV parked in his driveway, putting his shoes on and grabbing his jacket he made his way out the door

"Ok where to first?"

"We were going to go to Sara's apartment first and then to Gil's"

"Let's roll then"

Ten minutes later the four made there way into Sara's apartment building, climbing three flights of stairs. Greg was the first one to knock on her door, there was no answer. Knocking again an elderly gentleman opened the door

"Yes, can I help you?"

"Is Sara here" Nick asked a little confused

"Who"

"Sara Sidle, she lives here"

"No she doesn't I have lived here for the past eight months"

"This doesn't make any sense" Cath said confused as well

"What was the name?" the man asked

"Sara Sidle" Nick said as the man stepped inside the apartment to grab something. Holding out a picture to the four he asked

"Is this her?" he said handing over the picture

Looking at the old picture they nodded. It was a picture of Gil and Sara a long time ago. The Golden Gate Bridge in the background

"I found this when I moved in, don't know why I kept it but if you know her maybe you can give it back"

"We can do that sir" Nick said holding the picture

"Gil was a lot younger in this picture"

"So was Sara" Greg said

"Is that all you needed" the elderly man asked

"Sorry to disturb you sir we didn't realize Sara had moved" Warrick replied as the man shut his door

"Well what now? I have no clue where Sara lives, hell I didn't even know she moved. And she tells me more then you three" Greg exclaimed

"Let's go to Gil's. He would know where she lives, plus he looked pretty torn up to so checking on him couldn't hurt as well"

"Lead the way Catherine"

Meanwhile at the townhouse

After a two hour nap Matthew was awake and playing with Gil's beard, it tickled his hands. Gil feeling the sensations of little hands touch his face opened his eyes to see Matthew looking back at him, wide eyed like he had just been caught doing something wrong. After Gil smiled Matthew relaxed and smiled

"Hi Matthew"

"Hi" he replied shyly

"Are you hungry? Do you want food?"

"Cookies" he said smiling

"I guess a cookie couldn't hurt"

"Cookies" he said a little louder this time which made Sara stir and open her eyes.

"Whose getting cookies" she said yawning, she needed more sleep

"Me" Matthew said smiling

"Come on buddy, let's go downstairs and let Sara sleep ok" Gil said pulling him out of bed and setting him on the floor, only to smell something bad coming from his diaper

"Guess a diaper change is in order to" he mumbled, kissing Sara on the forehead

"Sleep" was all he said as he watched her close her eyes again

"Follow me Matthew" Gil whispered to him

The two slowly made there way into the kitchen with Matthew holding onto Gil's hand, looking at all the things in the house

"Bug" he said pointing to the butterflies on the wall

"Butterflies" Gil told him while picking him up so he could see the mounted butterflies

"Burfys" he asked, trying to copy Gil

"That's right buddy, come on let's go find you a cookie"

Opening the top cupboard and reaching behind a couple things Gil pulled out his secret stash of chocolate cookies. Grabbing one for Matthew and one for himself he put the box back

"Don't tell Sara where we got those ok" The only response he got was the boy happily gnawing on the cookie. Getting a whiff of a stinky diaper again Gil decided it was best to change him now while he had a cookie to occupy him. Lucky for Gil Matthew cooperated while he changed his diaper, too engrossed with his cookie to care about anything else. Gil had just finished changing Matthew when he heard the doorbell.

Turning on Dora the explorer on the cartoon network Gil went and answered the door to find Catherine, Nick, Warrick and Greg there.

"Hey Grissom" Warrick said while the others just smiled in a hello

"Hey guy's. What are you doing here?"

"We went to go check on Sara but we found out she moved, then we figured we would check on you because you looked pretty upset this morning to." Greg said from the door, Grissom had not moved to let them in

"Are you going to let us in Gil" Cath asked

"Yeah I guess, come on in guys" he said walking back in to check on Matthew

"What are we watching buddy" He said taking a seat on the couch waiting for the team to come in and twenty questions to start

"Ora" he said watching the little girl cartoon on the TV

"Who's this Grissom" Nick said coming into the room and seeing the little boy

"What's your name bud?"

"Maffew" he said turning to answer Grissom then going back to watch cartoons.

"Cute kid Gil, what's he doing here?"

"Guys this is Matthew Sidle, Sara's nephew. Get used to him being around because he's staying"

"What?" said Nick

"Daniel, Sara's brother was killed a few days ago in Iraq. He left guardianship of Matthew to Sara and I" Gil said getting up and going down the stairs to the kitchen for more coffee, letting what he just told the team sink in.

Sniffles could be heard coming from the hallway and Sara appeared in the kitchen with red eyes dressed in Gil's old Yale sweater and sweat pants.

Sara on the verge of sobs again quickly came up to Gil, needing his warmth and comfort, holding him tight

"Shhh Honey, its ok I'm here" he said stroking her hair

Getting mad at the situation Sara pulled back

"No it's Not Ok Gil. My brother is dead and he's not coming back. Other then you he has been the only person in my life not to hurt me!" she said raising her voice, not realizing that the gang watched from above

"He was the one who protected me from our parents who thought hitting there kids were alright. He was the one who got us through group homes and foster homes. He helped me study my ass off to get into Harvard on a scholarship, he even followed there, and I was 16 and scared out of my mind, so he quit his job to come with me so he could make me feel safe." By this point Sara was pacing, trying to relieve her anger, frustration and grief while Gil just watched knowing he needed to let her get mad. The gang was watching intently

"He was the person I called after I met you and he insisted that he meet the infamous Gil Grissom after that call. That's why when we got that picture taken by the bridge he was with us. Daniel was the one who told me to go to Vegas after you asked me to stay and to put up with all the bullshit you put me through. Luckily I did because t paid off.

I am pissed off God Dammit, He died at the hands of someone else and I never even got to say goodbye, we never got to tell him goodbye. He left us his son, that little boy is never going to know his dad, know his strength and kindness or his heart.

I just miss him" Sara finished her tirade by slumping down the island to sit on the floor, crying. Gil was immediately on the floor with her, pulling her into his lap while she cried.

"Let it out Sara" he whispered into her ear

Just now realizing that Matthew was no where to be seen she panicked

"Where's Matthew?" She asked standing up, searching for him

"He's" Gil never got to finish his sentence because Matthew called for her

"Ara" he giggled from above. Looking up she noticed the gang with Matthew looking over the railing


Ok so I am going to leave to leave you hanging but don't worry I will post again.

I know its kind of sad right now but the next chapter is a little lighter but then we go back to being sad for a couple more, after that things will start to look up, I promise. Sara needs to grieve her loss.

Please keep reading and reviewing

Katie