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Bold- Italian Italics-- Inner thoughts

Warning: Bella is going to be a crazy B**** in this chapter. She's definately sucidal. So in turn if you don't like, don't read :)

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Chapter 4

After what happened at walmart today with Emmett all I wanted to do was see I

Wait what? Jasper? Why the hell would I want to see him? WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME? The last thing I needed was another guy in my life, and Sam hasn't been gone that long only three months, two days, and nine hours. But hey who's counting. No no no no no no NO! I don't need this! Oh Sam! I need to see you Sam why did you leave me!?!

I started to sob uncontrollably with no way to stop.

"O il mio dio oh il mio dio oh il mio dio! Il Sam la manco così molto mi occuperò di quest'ora. "

There is something wrong with me. I need to deal with myself now. I need to go to the cliff where Sam jumped.

I jumped in my car, and drove to the cliff. Its sunset and no one is around. Jasper can't save me this time. I swear I'm going to jump.

Jasper's P.O.V

Emmett told me what happened today with Bella. I knew she was scared but I didn't think she would blow up at Emmett.

Wow, there is something wrong with that woman. She needs a good thing to happen to her, to save her; maybe just maybe that new thing could be me. I don't know why, but I fell very protective of her. I need her to live.

"JASPER! EMMETT! SHE GOING TO JUMP! WE HAVE TO GET TO HER NOW!"

"Alice what do you mean she's going to jump?"

"Jasper I just had a vision of Bella getting ready to jump, and then everything went blank. We need to get to that mountain and we need to get to that mountain now."

"Alice is you sure?"

"NO JASPER I"M LYING!"

"Alice sarcasm isn't needed. Really."

"JASPER DUDE SHUT THE HELL UP WE NEED TO GO! NOW!!!!"

Emmett's words drove it all home; I couldn't think I just reacted.

"Bella. No!"

I ran as fast as I could the sun is almost set, I could hear the water, and it was rushing. There was going to be a storm.

Bella please still be on that cliffside. Don't jump please don't jump. You'll die and be taken from me. Il mio Bel Bella è per favore lì e per l'amore di tutto che è santo non è in quell'acqua.

I ran faster and faster. I heard a splash in the distance, and stopped at the cliffs edge. Watching the water ripple.

"BELLA! NO! IL MIO BEL BELLA! NO!"

"She jumped. Oh god no! what have I done?"

I looked at the water, searching for her to come up, and didn't see anything. So I stood up got close to the edge and looked at Emmett.

"I'm going to bring her back home Emmett. Move all of her stuff into our upper wing, that place is where we will keep her until she gets better. I'll bring her home."

He just nodded and then I jumped over the edge.

Bella's P.O.V.

I feel numb. Water surrounds me, and I feel at ease. Everything is quite. And I see Sam. Oh my Sam. I missed you. I hear his voice call to me.

"Bella you're not supposed to be dead, you're supposed to be living the life I never had. I want you to live my Bella. Swim to the surface, and find another to love. Be with Emmett and his new family. You need to live my Bella."

"But Sam your gone I could never love again like I did with you. Never."

"You must Bella. You have to live you have such greater purpose. You will learn to love again Bella. You must swim to the surface. Go Bella."

Sam's face was getting hazy and hard to see. I felt something cold and hard wrap around my body. I tried to pull away, but nothing worked. I screamed for Sam. But he was gone all over again he was gone.

I couldn't love someone else never ever could I love someone else, and Sam doesn't want me to be with him. So I'm the reason he jumped. To get away from me. Oh Sam.

The cold object was pulling me further up, and up. Taking me to the surface. Where I didn't want to go. But there was no way to fight it.

I broke the surface and the last thing I heard was, "Il mio Bel Bella, ti amo." Then I let the blackness take me over.