Chapter 4 is up. And Arukal continues down the path of the deranged.
Disclaimer: I do not own MGS, MGS2, MGS3 or MGS4.
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I'm never going to get used to this. Not if I live to be a hundred years old and this war finally ends. Never.
You'd never get used to it either, if every time you let down your guard enough to fall asleep you were rewarded with one of two memories that you already replay through your brain twenty times a day.
It is always one of the two. Seeing Rhiz go down as that bullet entered her skull, or being trapped, held back by others as the man responsible for the hellhole my life has become laughs in my face. Always one or the other. Always.
"Shadow Moses awaits."
Otacons voice serves as a reminder of where I am. The super-sized plane. Right. And we are clearly flying to Shadow Moses to save the goddamn world from T-Rex or whatever the hell is there. Congratulations Super Man. Crap. My shoulder no longer hurts but I feel like someone smacked my head with a hammer.
Fuck Vamp. Fuck Liquid. Fuck Naomi. Fuck this whole freakin' war. Fuck Gekko with their oversized machine guns.
Actually no. Just fuck Gekko and Vamp. Bless Naomi for showing us where Vamp is by running back to him.
This whole idea was insane. I should have seen that from the start. I am INSANE. A insane teenage with a busted shoulder. And I'm going after a vampire who can heal himself in a millisecond with nanomachines. That goes beyond insane. It goes beyond being stupid, insane, a bitch, everything. This is a fight I can't win. I'm finished.
And sounding way too much like Otacon. I've had the odds stacked against me for four years in Brazil. I really won the lottery just by being born human, there are who knows how many trillions of creatures out there the weakest kid I know could crush in seconds. I knew when I escaped that this was going to be hard. Yes I've got a busted shoulder but I've fought and won with a sprained wrist once and a broken leg and three cracked ribs twice. If I die against Vamp, then at least I have a chance at hurting him enough that Raiden or Snake can take him down.
I wonder if this is how suicide bombers feel, like no matter what they do they're going to die so they might as well get it over with. Nothing lasts forever. In the end, everything is just another memory.
Even when I still was at least slightly sane, I could never picture myself dying old. Never. Not one single time was I able to imagine myself being older than thirty when I got to meet Satan. It doesn't matter anyway.
"W-when is s-she going t-to wake up?" Sunnys hand touches my shoulder gently. Even so, it sends a spike of pain down my arm. Instinctively, I jerk away. Fuck. My eyes open when Otacon chuckles.
"I guess the answer is now."
"Shut up." I know I'm not being very nice but I really could care less.
"Watch it girl." I wonder what would happen if I punched Snake, I'm tempted to find out.
My eyes examine the ceiling as I use my good arm to sit up and swing my legs over the edge of the bench, resting my back against the wall.
"Did no one ever teach you any manners?" Maybe I'll punch Otacon instead, he's closer and is still grinning slightly.
"Being locked away from civilization for four years does erase them slightly." A bad comeback but who cares?
"Four years? That sounds interesting. I'd wish you'd to tell us." Oh I am so going to punch Otacon, he sounds like a dork the way he's talking.
"Keep wishing, I'm not telling."
"We've kept you safe in case you haven't noticed. And you're staying here when we get to Alaska so there's no worry there." He turns red as he realizes his blunder of telling me what was going on. Idiot.
"Then you really are never going to find out Otacon. Because I am going to kill Vamp and neither you, Snake, Raiden or any windbag from Washington is going to stop me." That's right; let them wonder just what I was awake for.
Snake lunges to his feet. "How do you know that?"
"Not telling."
"Why? We share your goal of killing Vamp and whoever is on Shadow Moses, why not help us?"
"Because Vamp has done me a great personal wrong and I'm not going to settle for letting someone else kill him."
"Snake." Raiden returns from the dead.
"You can't be siding with her Raiden! If she gets captured, God knows what she could tell them." Okay, I'm just going to hit both Snake and Otacon.
"My name is not girl. It is Arukal."
"Arukal what?"
"Contrary to popular belief, I'm not stupid enough to tell you that."
"Well you're being very stupid if you want to go fight when you can barely stand."
"This is coming from the guy who wanted Raiden to do the exact same thing."
"That's different." Liar.
"How?"
"Raiden has had, um, special training for this kind of thing." Oh, and I haven't?
"Special training? As in, he was a child soldier?"
Snake glares at me.
"Where the hell did you find that out?" Does he really think I'll tell him?
"You might as well just shut up because I'm not going to answer any of these questions."
"Why not?" Snake is getting very close to knocking Raiden of the #3 spot on the Biggest Fucktard On The Planet list.
"Because you want to stop me from killing Vamp."
"Why do you want to kill Vamp?"
"You asked me that already."
"Snake." Raiden props himself up on his elbows to look at Snake.
"What?!" Yay! I've invented a new game and it's called "Piss Off Snake!"
"She could help on Shadow Moses." Thank you, Raiden.
"Or she could get caught and tell them everything she knows." Does Snake not have ears?
"Yeah right, I'm going to give information to the man who destroyed my life."
"What did Vamp do to you?" That is the third time he's asked me.
"I'm not telling."
"Then you're not leaving this plane until you do."
"You and what army?"
That is when Otacon starts to crack up. He honestly looks like he's going into convulsions; he's laughing so hard. What the fuck is wrong with him?
"Otacon." Oh, Snake has to be the big bad wolf now.
"Otacon, calm down." Slowly, Otacon forces himself to stop laughing. I'm starting to wonder who it is that's really messed up around here.
"Snake, she is right, we can't stop her. Might as well think about it while we sleep."
Snake just glares at him.
"What? You think she's dumb enough to jump out while we're flying? Without a parachute? Get real." Otacon turns and walks up the stairs. After a moment, Snake follows.
Okay, that was weird.
"You going to explain why you turned up?" Why does Raiden think I'll tell him and not snake?
"Nope. I'm just coming to whack Gekko and Vamp."
"You wish." That slimy little son of a-
"I must have smacked my head on something. You were a child soldier too, you KNOW I can help." Oh shit.
"What?!" Crap, crap, crap, crap, CRAP.
"Nothing, forget I said that."
"Where did you find out I was a child soldier?"
"I said forget it."
"You were one too?" Fuck him.
"So what if I was?"
"The only place you could have found out I was a child soldier while being one yourself doesn't use girls for anything other than pleasure and getting information."
"Being a complete psychopath does change peoples view of me."
"Vamp wouldn't happen to have anything to do with you being a psychopath would he?" How does he guess exactly the right questions to keep me talking? What is he, telepathic?
"Maybe a little."
"A little? What did he do, kill your parents, brother, and best friend, leaving only you and your little sister alive?" What the fuck! What the fuck is going on here?! No one could have known that. No one I tell you! NO ONE! Yet Raiden does. Oh, he had better have a
good explanation for this. A reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaally good one.
"You are telling me where you found that out or I will make life for Rose extremely unpleasant." Mwahahaha. I am so evil.
"How did you know about her?"
"How did you know about my parents?"
"I guessed. I saw the newspaper article about the search for the girl who stabbed Vamp a few years ago. The picture stuck for some reason. She looked a lot like you, just without the black streaks in the hair. Now, where did you find out about Rose?" He remembers a picture from a newspaper article from four years ago? Yeah right, liar.
"Before I escaped, I took a little time to find out where Vamp was. When the White Devil got mentioned, I got curious. They've practically made you God down there." A lie for a lie.
"So, why did you come here?" He really is Fucktard #3 if he thinks I'll tell him now.
"To kill Vamp."
"Which you are not going to do." Here we go again.
"You and what army are keeping me here?"
"Sunny and Otacon are."
"You honestly think Sunny's going to let you go?" HA! Get around that Raiden!
"She has too. I can help."
"So can I."
"How many times do I have to say that you're not going before it gets through your thick skull?"
"Oh I've got a thick skull?" Son of a bitch.
"You'd have to in order to survive getting shot like that."
"Says the guys who stabs himself in the stomach and sticks his nose into the business of grudge-holding teenagers who just want some revenge on the people who ruined their life!"
"I don't think I've ever heard two people who sounded so much like a old married couple without being one." Otacon is leaning against the doorway, a smirk on his face.
"Knock, knock by the way." I wonder if there's a baseball bat somewhere for me to hit him with. I hope there is.
"Will you shut up?" I thought Raiden was on Otacons side.
"What? Besides, with that hair you do look kinda-"
"Say one word more and die."
"Okay, sheesh. But didn't you have the nickname White Devil once?"
"Otacon…." Maybe Raiden will smack him and save me the trouble.
"Ask Arukal!" Fuck you Otacon.
"Snake has all those wrinkles smart-ass. He looks ancient." Otacon glares at me.
"But Snake has the FOXDIE…" Wimpy excuses man = Otacon.
"So? How old is he, 40?"
"Arukal, that's not very nice." He's talking to me like I'm five. What the hell is wrong with him?
"Neither is you referring to us as a old married couple."
"It's true that you're acting like one."
"It's also true that if you don't go away, after I kill Vamp you will be my first target."
"Whatever." Otacon yawns and walks off. But he does call back over his shoulder.
"That's supposing you don't get killed yourself."
I don't say anything, just glare at him. He grins and turns back around. "'Night."
As he disappears from view I stare at the ceiling. No matter how much I don't want to admit it, he's right.
Who's to say I'm going to finish this war alive?
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My, my Otacon is evil. But of course that's because I made him that way. *Cue the evil laugh*. But people, I do realize my shitty job of this; I don't need you to tell me. The next chapter will be up in about a week.
