A.N. Finally I'm able to update. I'm terribly sorry this took me so long I had serious writers block, but thanks to my Beta, Eden, I was able to work it out.
I got a few reviews about taking out all the lyrics, so that's what I did. I hope everyone likes it.
Disclaimer: I do not own twilight, duh.
Enjoy
"Just gonna stand there and watch me
burn
Well that's alright because I like the way
It hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
Well that's alright because I love the way
You lie
I love the way you lie"
-Love the way you lie by Eminem Featuring Rihanna
Lies
December 16 1902
There will never be words to describe this feeling.
No way for this pain to be reached.
No way to escape this level of hell that I've reached.
So far down, past the flames and lost souls.
Past the gates and down under.
This intensity can never be fake, as the truth marks your soul.
I can scream and shake my head in disbelief, but the truth still remains.
It's tattooed on my skin.
A permanent sin.
My mind becomes endless, a blazing tornado ready to tear down anything and everything in its path. I can't think straight. It's hard to even think at all. All I feel is this
scorching pain in my throat, screaming to be doused.
Blood
Blood
Blood
Always an echo inside my head, pounding against my skull. I've become something I can't comprehend. Blood? What the fuck is that all about? Why would I want to drink blood?
But in all truth the question isn't why I want it, No….
It's how.
The question seems bizarre and un-real to me, yet that's what I've become. Unreal. I'm a fairytale now, the one thing people have to see to believe. So in all honesty the question
doesn't seem so wrong and the answer has never been more clearer.
Kill.
One word that will end this pain I feel. For how long, I don't know. Yet I find no reason to care. I need to end this burn in my throat. This un-relenting heat. This blade that's been
thrust deep within me. Tearing my flesh and making me bleed. I did nothing to deserve this! My life has been played with too many times, now it's my turn. It's my turn to cause pain.
My turn to watch someone scream.
My turn to be free.
I've spent so many years in pain. So many years watching those around me laugh and smile when all I did was cry. All I did was cry! Everyday was the same, over and over again. I was
never loved. I was never held. No one comforted me when I got hurt. No one cared when I bled. No one! Humans are so fake, pretenders all of them! They won't care about you unless
they get something in return.
For years I was over looked. Pushed aside while all the other kids got new homes. While they got new families. While they got love. I had nothing. Not even hate towards my own father
or my dead mother. I didn't feel anything! I was broken and so alone and no one even spared me a single glance! I was the one broken doll nobody wanted to fix.
Now I'm not so broken anymore.
For the first time in a long time, I feel alive. All these scars I have are nothing. All this pain I feel will be my energy. The fuel to my fire. This hell I have been thrown into will be my home.
The blade that's pierced my heart will be my weapon. I will be free of my past life. Free from my demons, by becoming something no one will see.
I am Mary Alice Brandon and you will fear me.
(Four days previous)
This blood that stains my lips is like fine wine.
A taste so rich and overpowering.
I crave more of it. I wish to drown in it.
To breathe it.
Such a pathetic world I walk in. Awake forever among these worthless creatures that I can't even reveal myself to. These ants I could smash between my fingers. They're greedy and
selfish it makes me sick just thinking about them.
It makes me sick to live off them.
To endure their taste in my mouth forever, as it cascades down my throat, filling me up until I'm hungry again.
This so called 'life' is humiliating. Banished in the shadows, always left in the dark, never to walk freely among the earth that 'God' created.
I am God.
Immortal.
Powerful.
Invincible.
No human could even try to harm me.
It's impossible.
They can't comprehend the power I hold with one finger. Tanks? I'll smash them. Bombs? I'll crush them. Soldiers? I'll drain them, one by one till blood stains the grass.
Permanently.
These wars they're fighting are a waste of time. Making enemies of each other is the biggest mistake mankind has made. They haven't even seen destruction. They haven't even felt real pain.
Or tasted the ultimate defeat. No words will describe the screams they will hear.
The real war has yet to begin.
I will be their war. I will destroy this so called master race. The face of the world will change as everyone with a heartbeat knows it. Mothers and Fathers will all perish. Children will be drained
and trained under my control. Everyone will seize to smile unless I say so.
I will be King.
It's just a matter of time before the world comes tumbling down like dominoes. Soon vampires will be superior and humans will be slaves. They will be left in the darkness.
They will be the un-real.
While we will be the reality.
Day by day I will be searching for lost humans to turn. Then I will let the venom do the talking. Let the hate consume them, unleashing hell upon this world.
I am the puppeteer, they are the puppets. Screw with their heads, make them kill.
Kill.
Kill.
Kill.
Over and over again till that's all they come to understand. Till the evil races through their veins. Till all moral thoughts and consciousness seize to exist. Till all they ever want is blood.
Blood will be my weapon. The first domino in the line. A chain reaction will take place and BAM!
Apocalypse here we come.
I will be the one who makes the human race beg and grovel at my feet. I will be their ruler. A tyrant of the world. From sea to sea my voice will be the only one they hear.
The only thing they will always fear.
I WILL BE GOD!
It all starts today, once that girl wakes up and feels the venom burn. She will be my ultimate puppet. Alice will be my key, to this world's corruption. I will make sure of it.
'Cause I am one vampire who already holds great power. I am one vampire no other vampire will want to fuck with. I am already counting the days until this world goes ka-boom.
I am Vanessa Volturi.
Let the games begin.
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