Chapter 4

DPOV

I double checked the area around Tasha'a yard. Nothing. So I went inside and and found Tasha. "I didn't see anything outside. Looks safe." I told her. "Great! Now you can take the night off!" she said "Tasha I—" I began but she interrupted. "I am not taking no for an answer Dimka! You're taking the night off." I nodded, and went to get a drink.

I never used to drink much. I didn't like losing control and even when I was a teenager I didn't drink. But ever since I had to leave Roza, ever since I had to say all those horrible things to her, those lies, I drank to take away the pain. And since I had the night off and nothing to distract me I planned on drinking, a lot.

I had one than two and I kept drinking until I lost count. I was falling over drunk now.

Tasha walked into the room and I pour myself yet another.

"Dimka? What are you doing you've never liked to drink. Why now?" she said surprised. "So I don't have to feel the pain" I slurred. I reached for the bottle again but Tasha stopped me, "No way. You're done tonight. Come on let's get you to bed."

That was the last thing I remember before waking up the next morning. With Tasha in bed next to me, half naked.

"Holy Shit! What happened?" I said too loudly. Oww that hurt my hangover. And woke Tasha up.

"Dimka? You don't remember what happened?" she said looking hurt.

"No. I don't remember anything."

"Oh I'm sorry" she said "I-I didn't mean to take advantage of you when you were drunk." She said remorsefully

"Tasha, did we, umm did we have sex?" I asked awkwardly. She nodded.

Oh Roza what have I done