Thanks as always
Chapter 4
Over the next few days, the boys buried Bobby at Sioux Falls cemetery. Deep down they wished, like Dean's revival, Bobby might be saved and he would need his body if that happened. Nothing was said all day before and after the burial, they had no priest or anyone else in attendance, they both quietly said their goodbyes and stayed until the caretakers finished covering his casket with dirt.
They laid low in the cabin knowing that they did not have the strength to begin seeking out the Leviathans and starting a war they were not mentally prepared for. The few first nights were the toughest, Sam would wake in cold sweats from visions of horror and hellfire. Lucifer always appeared to him at least once a day but he was learning to keep him away more effectively. Dean was always at hand but Sam did not want to over burden his brother needlessly so he wouldn't tell his brother every hallucination that occurred. Sometimes Dean wouldn't sleep at all, always watching over Sam making sure his brother didn't check out. They stayed in this exhausting routine for days. They both were tired and worn out from the constant fear of uncertainty.
"Hey Sammy I'm going for a food run alright" called Dean. He decided that he could not watch Sam 24 hours a day, some short separation might be good.
"Yea sure Dean" replied Sam as he hung up his laundry
As soon as the door shut, "Hey Sammy, miss me" Lucifer stated as he leaned on the door behind Sam
"You're not real" said Sam tensing up not looking behind him
"Oh sure Sam, but I can still have fun, you didn't think I was gone now did you?" said Lucifer plopping down on the bed in front of Sam
Sam tried to ignore Lucifer as best he could, 'hurry Dean' Sam said to himself as he turned to hang up his shirts in the closet
Dean exited the Impala and looked at his car, it had been a long while without his baby and he was glad to have at least something familiar back in his life. He opened the trunk to grab the groceries when he suddenly heard shouting inside the cabin and rushed up the steps.
Lucifer laughed at Sam "Oh Sammy what? Have I upset you?" he asked as he stood at the front door
"Shut up already! Why won't you get out of my head!" screamed Sam
"Because Sammy I'm here to stay" taunted Lucifer as he started laughing
Sam held his head in panic, "No! No No!" he yelled he thought he had things under control... apparently he was far away from control as he could get. He scrambled into their duffel bag and pulled out his gun and fired a shot at Lucifer
But instead of hearing nothing he heard a crash... it was Dean. He had collided with the door frame, as he was clutching his arm
"Dean!" said Sam as he started walking towards his brother in a panic, he stopped cold in his tracks when Dean shot him a look of pain, anger, and intensity.
"What the hell Sam? Why are you shooting in the cabin?"
"Dean... I'm sorry"
Dean straightened himself out and looked at his wound, the bullet had passed straight through his shoulder, he would only need to sow it up and cauterize it. He covered it again to stop the bleeding.
"Sam whatever your seeing there's no need to grab a gun! You could have killed me! Again! Dammit Sam" Dean said sternly applying more pressure to his wound as he stepped inside the cabin. Sam traced his brothers movements as Dean grabbed a shirt and took his jacket off creating a temporary bandage for his wound. "I thought you were okay Sam, I thought it would be alright to leave you alone for an hour but I guess Satan is still in the building!" Dean refused to look at his brother he was so furious
Sam felt like a child. "I'm sorry..." he felt tears as he watched his brother, he knew Dean was angry, he knew Dean had lost all trust in him again. He was a danger to himself and his brother. He could be the death of Dean... everyone around him died...
"Run Sammy, you know what to do" whispered Lucifer's voice in Sam's ear
In one swift movement Sam was out the door and running towards the woods, hearing Deans fading voice screaming his name.
"Dammit Sam!" yelled Dean as he finished tying up his wound and bolted out the door after his brother
Sam ran until his lungs ached and he breathed fire, until his legs burned and he could barely feel his feet. He ran until he collapsed and tears finally fell from his eyes. Was Lucifer right? Did everyone he love die? Jess, mom, dad, Bobby, Ellen, Joe, the list was endless it seemed. The only person left was Dean... how long before he was the death of him too. Dean had already died countless times before and he was powerless to stop them... he knew that. Gabriel had made him realize when it came to his brother, he was always powerless to save him.
"Oh Sammy, feeling sorry for yourself again aren't you?" said Lucifer as he leaned against a nearby tree.
Sam glared at him, "Shut up! Just leave me alone"
"Oh no Sammy, I never will" he taunted leaning down towards Sam
Sam lifted his head to say something but Lucifer was gone. He was alone, always alone and then he realized he still had the gun in his hand. He looked at it, felt the weight of it in his hands. He had almost killed Dean, how could he live with himself if he ever caused something horrible to happen to his brother. He pulled back the safety and the chamber loading the next bullet and pointed it at his heart.
