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This is kind of a slow chapter. Not a lot of dialog, but hope you enjoy it! Chapter five should up shortly.


What I wanted

Chapter 4

A week hadn't even passed when Rogue was called upon to help Storm with her new duties. It was a hot Saturday morning, and almost no soul in the mansion was up yet. It was 7:00am, and Marie was already dressed and ready to go.

She had dark denim jeans, black boots, and a black tank top on. Normally she would have never worn something that exposed her skin so much, but she knew all too well things had changed. Since Storm had told her to dress 'professional' she had thrown in a matching jacket to go with her outfit. Even though she was hot with the jacket on she told herself that she would always be able to take it off later, when they weren't talking to the parents.

In the school garage you could hear the loud footsteps of the two females. Storm walked up to a blue Mazda in a black business suit. She opened the door slipping inside the driver's seat. Opposite of her the younger girl sat down in the passenger's seat.

"So where we going?" Rogue asked the older woman.

A sound roared from the engine as Storm turned the key. "You remember that Jimmy kid?"

How could Rogue forget? Jimmy. It was almost as if he was apart of her since he was the source of the cure.

"Yeah," she replied simply, not voicing her thoughts.

"Well his parents are having second thoughts about sending him to 'mutant school' as they put it," Storm said as she drove the sports car out of the garage.

Her eyes glanced at her for a moment before they returned to the window. Who could blame his parents? They had a kid who had caused the breaking point for this mutant against human war. What would they think about sending their son to a school where he learns to master his powers?

"I don't blame them…" Rogue blurted out. She instantly regretted it, but the words were already said. It came to her surprise when Storm didn't respond, but kept on driving.

Looking at the African native, had brought memories of her first day at Xavier's. She remembered sitting in the far back where Jubilee and Kitty were. Marie scoffed inwardly at the irony.

She played the memory in her mind. She was sitting in the back with Bobby next to her, and…John in front of her. It almost slipped her mind that he was in the class with her. To come to think of it, technically John was the first one who attempted to make her feel welcome.


Flashback

John's hands reached behind his chair with a lighter in one hand. Clicking his lighter open he used his mutation making a fireball in his hand.

His face turned over his shoulder slightly seeing that he had the girl's attention behind him. A cocky smirk formed on his lips as he saw her watch with him with curiosity.

Rogue looked at the boy's hands mesmerized by the fire. Her eyes reflected the light and the warmth touched her face. She had never seen anything like it. It appeared dangerous, intense, but so beautiful at the same time. When he turned around again to look at her, Rogue caught sight of his profile and part of his face. The boy smiled and turned back around, happy and satisfied that he still had her attention.

He was cute.

And for a moment she was hypnotized. She wasn't sure if it was because the boy was so cute, or because of the magic of the fire in his hands that he controlled. Or maybe it was the thought no - fact that he controlled something so dangerous, something that was untouchable, like she was.

She was oblivious to the stares of Jubilee and Kitty, who sat next to her. They two girls looked at each other, then to John, then back to Rogue. It was almost as if they stared at her jealously.

Her lips twitched threatening to smile, which she tried to suppress as she saw John smile the last time he turned around. She felt special, and stupid for feeling special.

Even though John's little fire show had an audience, he was only doing it for one person.

In the corner of her eye movement sparked her out of her revere. She glanced at the boy next to her whose arm extended over the desk. His hand pointed in the direction that previously had her attention. White like mist and snow materialized from Bobby's hand and crept its way towards the un-expecting John.

The ice surrounded the fireball engulfing it. The orange and red color of the fire faded into an ice blue transparency. The ice continued to encircle the fire until it was a ball of ice.

John sat up in his seat when he found that he no longer had a fireball in his hand, but a huge chunk of ice. The ice ball quickly fell from John's hands falling down to the floor. The ice shattered making a loud shattering noise.

The sudden noise startled both Rogue and John causing them to twitch in their seats.

"John," Storm said immediately turning around from the chalkboard. Her eyes instantly narrowed at John.

John. So that's what the boy's name was Rogue thought. John…she liked that name. It amused her that the teacher already knew that it was John who was causing the trouble.

"S..Sorry," John managed to say. His hands returned in front of him playing with his pencil nervously until Storm returned to writing on the chalk board.

The boy next to her shifted in his seat and smiled at her. "I'm Bobby…" The boy said looking up at the girl. When she didn't say anything he continued to speak.

"What's your name?"

Marie glanced at the boy uneasily. He had really pretty blue eyes. When she found her voice she managed to finally speak. "Rogue…"

The boy smiled, but it wasn't like John's smile. His smile was kind, sweet, and caring. His hand reached over to her desk. With his palm faced down a soft light illuminated a small part of the desk. He removed his hand still smiling leaving an ice-rose.

"Welcome to mutant high."

John's eyes fell down to the books in front of him.

End of Flashback


Rogue looked out the window. She had almost forgotten about that. Almost forgotten about how cute she thought John was. Well John was still currently cute Rogue thought, but Bobby was the one who became her boyfriend.

Wait why was she even thinking of this?

John is gone, and Bobby was no longer her boyfriend. She no longer had either of them in her life. Her head fell slightly as she looked down at her bare hands in her lap.

She hadn't thought about him in a while. This was the first time in a long time that she had thought about him since they day he left. Actually it was the first time she had thought about him since he left. It was like she hadn't come to terms with him leaving, that she didn't believe he was gone, or that he would come back.

But it's been too long, and John still wasn't here. John was really gone, and it had taken her this long to finally accept it. But they were all friends right, her, Bobby and John? So why did he leave?


Flasback

Rogue couldn't help but smile. She looked up from staring at her gloved hands in her lap. John was being the arrogant guy that he was.

"Because I can?" John said casually as he flipped his lighter open and closed.

"Can I have a light?" the boy said who was standing next to his brother.

John flipped his lighter open starting the flame. He looked at the flame for a few seconds as if he was actually thinking of helping the two guys out. With one quick motion he shut his lighter and turned his head.

"Sorry can't help you pal," he said finally breaking out into laughter.

This made Rogue laugh along with her already smiling. He was always like this: cocky. Almost too much for his own good. She failed trying to keep from laughing.

She hated to admit it, but she liked that aspect of John. It's what made him – him. His casual destructive behavior got him in to trouble a lot of times, but as always he never cared. He was uncontrollable only doing what he wanted, just like fire.

"John knock it off," she finally said tilting her head.

She looked at him narrowing her eyes slightly trying to suppress a smile. John glanced at the girl tilting his head also mirroring her. He was about to speak when Bobby spoke up.

"Why don't you stop showing off?" her boyfriend said who was sitting next to her. He looked at John who was across from them.

John paused looking at Bobby across from him.

"Oh for her?" John said smiling uncontrollably. His mouth seemed like it wasn't going to shut off any time soon.

"I can't help it if your girlfriend's getting excited."

Rogue couldn't help but smile. As always he was making his smart comments to Bobby's ego, especially ones that involved her. She didn't respond to John's comment, but kept on looking at him smiling.

"I don't think she's getting excited," her boyfriend responded with his hands in his pockets.

"Don't get shook up we're just trying to have a good time here alright?" John replied looking at Bobby still smiling cockily.

"I think you're the only one having a good time," Bobby said slightly annoyed.

End of Flashback


"Rogue?"

Rogue blinked as she snapped out of it. She turned to see Storm staring at her with worried and confused eyes.

"We're here. You alright?" she asked.

"Oh… yeah just…thinking.." Rogue said as Storm turned the engine off. Storm nodded and stepped out of the car.

On the other side Rogue did the same stepping out of the car. She looked at the house that Jimmy lived in and sighed. She would have to think about her memories later.