saying that the doctor wanted to run some tests He knew something had to be wrong for her to call for him in the middle of the night when he first saw the look in her eyes, he wanted to put his arms around her, and tell her everything was gonna be alright but the guard was still there "Doc, how long are you gonna need him"
"I'd like to keep him overnight, and you know you're fine leaving him here with me"
"you sure"
"yeah, thanks Lewis"
after a small nod the guard left and they were alone
He turned to see her beautiful face,
her eyes were fixed on a spot on the floor
He tilted her chin with his fingers
"Sara what's going on"
She started fidgeting with her hands
"I just.. I need.. you"
She leaned her forehead to his chest
keeping a short distance between their bodies
He whispered into her ear
"Did something happen"
"No but"
"Why are you here?
Shouldn't you be at home by now"
She moved to stand by the window, hugging herself
"I didn't see the point, there's nothing there, just memories"
"So you're just gonna stay here all night"
He put his hands on her shoulders
She closed her eyes at his soft touch
"I feel safe here"
"In a maximum security prison"
He quipped
She turned herself around so they were face to face
"You're here"
She sat down on one of the beds in the infirmary
A few tears slid down her milky white cheeks
He sat down next to her, she looked at him through her blurry eyes
He pulled her tiny framy close to his
"Come here"
He just held her there for a few minutes
Before slowely moving their bodies to a lying down position
She opened her eyes and looked up at him vulnerably
He realized that after what's she'd just been through
This was scaring her
"I'd never hurt you"
She nodded
"I know"
"Nothing's gonna happen, you should rest
maybe this was a bad idea, I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable"
He'd already started to sit up when she took his hand and pulled him back to her
"Please, don't go, I don't want you to go"
"I'm here, i'm not going anywhere. but I don't need to be HERE,
I could be a few feet away"
He pointed to the chair by the bed
"I'd still be close, it might be less scary"
She held his arm tightly, her teary eyes looking up at him
"No, I need you close to me, I need you to hold me.. please"
Her bottom lip quivered
Her voice was small and frail begging him not to leave her
He wrapped his arms around her body gently
and felt her melt into him
He whispered into her ear
"Just close your eyes,
No one's gonna hurt you
I'm not going anywhere"
After only a few minutes she drifted off to sleep
But he stayed awake relishing the feeling of having her in his arms
After a few hours of sleep
Tears were streaming down her cheeks
Her fists clenched, She started pounding on his chest
He held her tiny frame close to his, he spoke into her ear
"Sara, wake up"
Her rubbed her back soothingly
"It's just a nightmare, I'm right here"
Her hazel orbs opened, She was looking at him with her vulnerable eyes
"Michael"
"I'm here, baby"
Her chin trembled as she was still crying
He softly stroke her cheek
"Are you okay"
"No, I just don't know what to do anymore,
everything hurts so much and I just want it all to go away"
Morphine was starting to look more and more appealing
"I hate this, i can't even stop crying long enough to form a fucking sentence
And I can't stop thinking about him, I feel his hands on me and there's only one thing that can make it go away"
She got up and faced the medicine cabinet
He wrapped his hands around her waist
"Sara"
"Please just let me go"
His grip tightened
Tears were still streaming down her face
"No, You're not doing this Sara"
He turned her around in his arms and lifted her onto the bed
"I love you, I need you to fight"
She gave him a small nod
"I there anything I can do"
Her arms wrapped around his torso
"Please don't leave me"
"Never"
She woke up to feel her face buried in the warm crook of his neck
Their arms were around eachother and their legs were entangled
She looked up to see his beautiful eyes gazing at her lovingly
"Hi"
her voice was soft
"Hey"
his was hoarse
He tucked a strand of hair behind her ear, kissing her gently on the cheek
She gave him a smile
"As much as I don't want to, I have to get up"
He gave her a small smile and she sat up, swinging her long legs over the side of the bed
She turned her head to him
"Michael"
"Yeah"
"Thanks for last night"
He shrugged
"It was nothing"
"It's more than what anybody's done for me in a really long time,
If you hadn't've been here, I don't know what I would've done"
She lowered her head
"well actually I do, I would've shot up"
He sat up behind her, putting his head on her shoulder
"Hey"
She rested her head against his and closed her eyes
She turned her body around to face him
She inched her face closer to his and pressed her lips to his softly
He let her take control, she opened her mouth to him slightly
And took his face in her hands holding him close to her
her tongue found it's way into his mouth
Gently brushing against his own, her movemens became more frantic as a tear slipped down her cheek
He took her face in his hands and gently inched her away from him
to look into her eyes, but she had her back to him
She tied her hair back in a messy bun
and moved toward the door
He took her hand in his
"I have to go"
She tried to yank her arm free but he wouldn't let go
instead he was tugging her toward him
She faced him with tears in her eyes
"I'm sorry, okay"
He stroked her cheek softly with the pad of his thumb
"Why are you sorry"
"I couldn't give you"
He framed her face with his hands, looking deeply into her hazel eyes
"That's not what I want, That's not what we're about"
She looked down and than back up into his eyes
"Than why are you here"
"Because I love you and I will do anything to see you smile again,
I just want you to feel safe"
"with you I do feel safe"
She planted a soft kiss on his cheek
and looked at him with fear of rejection in her eyes
"That's all I can give you right now. okay"
He pressed his lips to her forehead
"I love you"
