AN: Thanks for the awesome reviews XD I know u guys are BEGGING to have Jacob and Nessie finally together... but you just have to wait :) (don't you just LOVE it when I tease you?) okay, so here's the next letter. Oh, and I'm wondering, do you think that i should sometimes just get away from letter form sometimes or write journal entries that Jacob wrote to see inside his own head? If you do, i'll make the next one for Jacob (I like writing Jacob POV stuff) anways, here u are :)

September 20
Dear mom,
I finally decided to go to school today. I just thoght that maybe that new boy and I could, maybe not be friends but, get along.

You know, I've kind of been looking for a new fuck. I mean, Embry's great and all but sometimes I feel like we've done everything possible while having sex, even doggy style. I needed a new guy, I'm not saying that the new kid is that guy but he could be.

He didn't look at me twice. He walked in, his eyes widened in shock I was finally back and he took his seat beside me.

"Hi," I said. He looked at me, a little shocked i'm talking to him. "Im sorry I didn't introduce myself before... I'm Renesmee Cullen."

I held out my hand for him, he just stared.

"I'm Trevor." he said, his voice having a little English to it. We were silent after that when I looked away. He kept staring at me. I was usually used to it, but this was kind of wierd. Then he started laughing.

"What?" I asked.

"Um... Nothing it's just..." he smiled again. "I was kind of wondering if it's true you're the school slut." I nodded.

"as much as I hate the name, yes." he nodded, but didn't say anything else. I ignored the frown I saw he tried to hide.

"so," I said. "Now I'm wondering, where did you come from? Is it true you're from California?" he shook his head.

"No," he said. "I'm from Florida." I actually liked having a normal conversation with Trevor.

Captain of the foot ball team, Darian, asked me for a minute in the janitor's closet. I agreed with a smile and it was amazing. Still, he needed some new moves.

Trevor is actually a very different guy. Nice, sweet, you know? Another thing is this: he's a strict Catholic, he's Pastor Webber's nefew. But he's someone I think that will change me. I told Jacob that, but he just made a face.

I can't get Jacob's wierd expressions out of my head. The way he looks at me, it's so different from the way others look at me. He seems so proective now, it's scaring me.

I just don't understand it. Why is it that everytime I bring up another guy, he gets either a sad expression or he starts yelling at me. Shouldn't I be dad's job to? Not my best friend.

Ah, Dad... Dad is still so distant. The piano is either never played or is played with the saddist songs ever. When I was little, I wanted him to play a lullaby, he said no. When I begged, he yelled at me. I don't know what that's about, I asked Jacob and he told me that he made one for you... Boy, what I would give to listen to that song.

Daddy seemed to have lost his touch in happiest. I don't know what to do, I want him to be happy again and i can't, what should I do? Well, maybe I should be a better daughter. Give up sleeping with guys, Kill myself, I'll do anything to see Daddy happy. I just want him to smile for once.

Maybe I'll ask Alice, I'm sure I have her number somewhere. If anyone knows happy, it would be Alice. Jacob's no help so maybe i'll visit her, better yet. Trevor wants me feel like I should be a better person.

I don't know, Nessie

AN: review review and tell me what u think about the first AN?