Summary: So I know that this chapter is really late but I didn't forget about it. I have just been so busy with work and school as always but the good thing is that summer school is almost over, six days left, and as soon as it is over I will have ample amount of time to write more. Just because of this, I made chapter four really long and I even gave you the male on male action I promised.
Well on to the Disclaimer
Disclaimer: I do not own Scrubs because if I did, season six wouldn't have been as depressing as it was.
Now on to the Review Shout Out Corner.
Review Shout Out Corner:
I know it has been a while since I last did this but today I needed to show some love to my fans by doing this. Hope you like it and please review more, I really love that and it would make my birthday weekend even more special. (Yes my birthday was yesterday and I am the 22; I know I'm old.)
Personal.Vendetta: Well if you eat angst for breakfast, you must be absolutely full because there is angst everywhere on this site. Thanks for being such a loyal fan and don't worry, there will be plenty of angst coming out at you from every corner.
psychotic KAT: Mistress huh, I like it. Pretty soon I am going to kill the wife and husband and then it will be only me left (ha, ha, ha; cough, sorry something got caught in my throat during my evil laugh). Thanks for reading it and there will be pretty more to come. Stay tuned.
XAngst-PrincessX Thanks, I love your work as well.
wildefireI'm sorry that I made you cry and thanks for the compliments. I take my writing very seriously and try to do my best so I appreciate the reviews. Oh and by the way, it's not sick that you like when your favorite character gets hurt because sometimes I feel the same way. If you are a pyscho then so am I and I don't mind one bit; we can be pyschos together.
The pills go in your mouth Thanks for the compliments, I eat them like cookies.
Dingus485: Thanks and I would never kill Perry off in a story, well at least not this one. Thanks for reading them and hope you enjoy the third one.
Now I would like to dedicate this chapter to Personal Vendetta because they have been a loyal fan and reviewer since day one so (hands the mike to Personal.Vendetta who smiles back at me politely), "Take it Away."
Personal.Vendetta (cries as they grab the mike from my hands.) "Thank you so much Eccarter, it is such an honor. And now ladies and gentlemen, Chapter Four of My Final Battle.; put your hands together and enjoy the story!"
Chapter 4
Turk looked around the empty room and sighed a breath of relief. There was once a time when he thought that his best friend would never occupy it again but never again. His friend was coming home today and Turk couldn't do anything but be grateful.
Once he had gotten the call from Perry telling him about J.D's discharge, he had been cleaning every inch of his room. He had done all the laundry so he would have clean clothes to wear and fixed his room the exact way he preferred it to be. He was so busy getting ready for J.D's arrival that he hadn't slept at all the night before, no matter how Carla tried to persuade him to come to bed. He also switched his shifts so he would have the entire day off to spend with J.D.
He sat down on the neatly made bed and picked up a pictured he had framed for J.D's homecoming. It was a picture of them graduating med school. That was one of the best days of their lives and Turk wanted to let J.D know that they would have more days like that again. He also wanted him to know that he would be there for him through anything.
Placing the picture down and realized that it was almost nine-o'clock. He left out of the room and went to go get Carla. Carla had insisted on going since she was the only one who hadn't seen J.D since he had been found. She had bribed another nurse into covering for so she could go and had been up since seven trying to get ready.
"Babe you ready?"
"Just give me a sec okay." Carla called back to him. A couple minutes later, she came out of the room, a bright smile on her face. "I can't believe I get to see J.D today, I'm so excited."
"Me too baby, me too" Turk smiled back as he grabbed the keys from the table and placed one hand around her waist. "Let's go bring J.D home."
J.D opened his eyes and saw Perry sleeping a chair next to him. He tried to lift his hands to rub his eyes when he realized that they had been restrained. Seeing the black ropes, his memories of the night before flooded back to him, reminding him of what he had done.
"Oh my God." he replied loudly, enough to wake Perry up from his sleep. Perry immediately walked over the bed and bed and took the restraints a loose, placing a kiss on J.D's forehead before he sat down on the bed himself.
"How you feeling?"
"How am I feeling?" J.D scowled at him, rubbing is wrist. "I attacked a nurse, I can't believe that I attacked a nurse."
"J.D it's not your fault."
"It was my fault Perry, don't start telling me that. I wasn't dope on any medicines that made me go crazy, I saw Kenny and I attacked an innocent nurse; how is that not my fault."
"J.D I-"
"Just drop okay," J.D snapped as he laid back down on the bed. "I don't need you to tell me anything else so why don't you leave me alone."
Perry opened his mouth to tell J.D about Walter, feeling that he deserved to know the truth but he found he couldn't. J.D was already going through so much and more bad news would destroy him. He sighed as he got up from the bed and went to sit back in his chair.
J.D felt small shivers all over his body after he spat out his venomous words. He knew that Perry was just trying to make him feel better and he didn't have the right to explode the way he did. Sighing, he got up from the bed and made his way over to Perry; walking until he was directly in front of the older man before crouching down in front of him.
"I'm sorry."
"J.D, it's okay."
"No it's not" J.D replied, pulling Perry's hand into his. "You were just trying to help and I shouldn't take my anger out on you, you don't deserve that."
"Really, it's alright; I've heard worse, been worse." Perry shrugged but not turning his attention away from the window. He feared that J.D might think it was because of him but it wasn't. The real reason that Perry couldn't look at J.D was the fact that he didn't know if he could keep the secret if he did.
"No it's not alright. I know that you just want to be there for me and instead of pushing you away I should be pulling you closer."
"Let's just change the subject okay."
"Okay." J.D sighed as he went back to his bed, still feeling bad for what he said earlier but thought it would be best to just put it aside for now. "What do you want to talk about?"
"Your brother had his surgery this morning and it went well."
"So, he's okay."
"He's fine" Perry smiled as he finally turned his head to face J.D's, causing the young man to smile back at him. "And as soon as he is stable enough he'll be transferred to Sacred Heart."
"Good, that's good" J.D smiled, "I can't believe I get to go home today. I've been waiting to go home for so long now and now that I can I-"
"What, you don't want to go home?"
"It's not that because I want to go home, but I don't know if I can" J.D sighed as he sat up, grabbing his pillow tighter. "The last time I stayed in my room was before Kenn-Walter trashed the place and placed cameras everywhere just to watch me. I can't but to feel scared thinking about staying in that room again."
"Why don't you move out?"
"I don't think I'm ready for that just yet, you know."
"Then why don't you mo-" Perry started to say before Turk and Carla entered into the room, smiles wide on their faces.
"J.D" Carla all but screamed as she came into the room and placed a giant hug around his neck. Tears starting to stream from her cheeks as she hugged him even tighter as if she was afraid to let him go. "I'm so sorry that I haven't been here to see you, it's just with work and being short staffed I couldn't find-"
"Carla, its okay" J.D managed to smile as he released her from the hug. It felt nice to have her close again, having her motherly vibe about her around him. "I'm fine."
"No it's not. I was so worried about you and now, I'm worried about your brother."
"Wait, how do you know about Dan?"
"Perry told us"
"Yeah man, he called us and told us everything" Turk shrugged as he sat down on the bed.
"You told them."
"You didn't want them to know"
"No, I didn't" J.D hissed back.
"I'm sorry I-"
"Why didn't you tell us, most importantly me? You haven't called me at all since the day I was here." Turk interrupted Perry mid-sentence, sending a menacing eye towards J.D. He wouldn't lie and say that J.D not telling him about his brother didn't bother him because it did. It also bothered him that J.D hadn't called to talk to him since the incident the other day but he didn't want to make a big issue out of it, especially while he was in the hospital and his brother was getting surgery.
"Oh" J.D said as he looked over at Turk. A wave of guilt ran through his body as he realized that it was true. He hadn't called Turk at all during the past three days he was in the hospital. He never felt distant from his best friend since they've known each other but it seemed as if they were miles apart, even though they were sitting just mere feet from each other.
"That's all I get is an oh. You best friend doesn't get a "hey, how you doing" or better yet "sorry for not calling and telling you what's been going on."
"Turk, I…I don't know what to tell you; it's just everything's been so hectic and out of control-"
"That's why you call me." Turk scowled, trying not to get upset but it wasn't working for him. He could feel the heat growing under his collar as he began to get angry at how his friend seemed to be treating him. "You have no idea how scared I was when you went missing and I did whatever it took to find you. I even called my cousin Devin and paid him money to give me information about Walter and you don't even call."
"Turk, I'm sorry okay," J.D snapped. "I sorry I didn't call and check in with you so quit jumping on my back."
"That's all I get is an "I'm sorry" Turk screamed. "All the worrying I've been through-"
"Well, I'm sorry that I've been a burden to you."
"Alright that's enough," Carla finally screamed at the two yelling men. She had had enough of the yelling and felt it wasn't the right time for it to be going on. "If you hadn't noticed, we are in the hospital where other patients are being treated so that means you two need to stop it right now. This isn't the time or the place for this, now apologize."
J.D and Turk looked at each other, and realized that Carla was right. This wasn't the time for the argument and they should have waited until they were home to properly discuss it. Giving one last glance to Carla, the two men looked back at each other and mumbled an "I'm sorry."
"That's better" Carla smirked as she hugged J.D again. "Now when are you getting out of here?"
"I don't know, waiting for the doctor to come and let me know"
"Are you ready for discharged; I mean you cuts and bruises-"
"I know how it looks Carla but I'm physically ready to come home." J.D interrupted. "The wounds will heal while I'm at home."
"Still-"
"Baby, J.D hasn't been home in a long time and he's ready to come home" Turk frowned at his wife but smiled at J.D who smirked back at him. "And besides, we did all that cleaning up his room for his arrival today."
"My room"
"Yep. We cleaned it from top to bottom, stocked up on all your favorite snacks and even placed Rowdy in your room for an added homeliness. You're all set and ready to go."
"Yeah" J.D whispered as he looked out the window. "I guess I am"
Perry could tell that J.D was reluctant to return home but knew that he didn't want upset Turk anymore. He wished that the young man would just stop trying to please everyone and look out for himself more often. Seeing J.D happy always made Perry happy and going home wasn't going to make him happy.
Half an hour later, after a clean bill of health from Dr. Morris, J.D was released to go home and Turk couldn't be happier; J.D on the other hand hated every minute that it took to get home. Still not wanting to upset Turk again, he had opted to ride back home with him and Carla, even though he wanted to ride with Perry. His hand griped the seat as ach moment was making him feel like he couldn't breathe while his air passages burned with fear
Finally after about an hour drive they arrived back at their apartment, Elliot already there waiting. She practically jumped into J.D's arms when she saw him enter the apartment, immediately placing kisses all over his face.
"You're home," she shrieked in his arms, not letting him go as she dragged him from the door and onto the sofa. "I've been waiting for almost an hour waiting for Turk to come back with you."
"Elliot I missed you too." J.D laughed as he let her go.
"You don't know how many extra clinic hours I owe Kelso now because I took the day off to spend it with you, not that it's your fault or anything I've just missed you and I think that you really could use your friends right now." Elliot rambled as she hugged J.D again. "You know what I mean."
"Yes Elliot and I appreciate what you did but you didn't have to do it; I could have waited until you got off your shift."
"I know but I really wanted to be here." finally letting him go but still grasping onto his hand.
"Thanks, all of you for everything." J.D smiled as he looked around the room, soon noticing that something was wrong. His heart skipped a beat when he realized that Perry wasn't in the room or anywhere in the apartment for that that matter. "Where's Perry?"
"Oh Dr. Cox, he told me to tell you that he had to get home to talk to Jordan," Turk answered, not fully believing that the man was telling the truth but not really caring if he was or not. He felt that J.D should have a chance to be with his friends without the older doctor around. "You can call him if you want."
"No" J.D said quickly, slightly disappointed. He wanted Perry to talk to Jordan ever since the two got into the altercation at the hospital but he didn't think he would leave so soon. "He needs to spend time with his family and I need to spend time recovering."
"That's right" Turk smiled. "J.D you know that you can talk to us about anything that happened right."
"I know"
"Yeah J.D, we are all here for you; anytime you want to talk or-"
"I said I know, okay" J.D snapped as he snatched his hand away from Elliot's who just frowned in return.
"Just in case you forgot," Turk replied, sensing J.D's anger. Not wanting to upset his friend, he decided to change the subject. "So, what do you want to do?"
"I want to lie down" quickly replying as he sat up from the chair. He didn't way but he started to become dizzy at the thought of talking to his friends about what happened. The cutting, the abuse, the rape; it would devastate his friends to know what happened to him and he didn't want them to know. The burning in his chest was returning and he could feel his hands tingling. He didn't want to let his friends to see him so fragile and he knew the only way he could hide it was to leave the room.
"Lie down, but you just got back-"
"Turk," Carla scowled at her husband. "If Bambi wants to lie down then he should. He needs all the rest that he can get because pretty soon he's going to be wishing he could. Go lay down."
He got up from the chair and slowly walked to his bedroom door. His heart began to race as he reached out to open the door. Placing his hand on the handle, he quickly pulled it back; it was as if the door was covered in a some sort of burning acid. J.D looked back at his friends who were just watching him, as if they were waiting for him to break down. Throwing a fake smile into their direction, he gripped the door again and walked inside his room, collapsing to the floor in tears as soon as he closed the door.
Perry didn't want to leave J.D but he knew there would be hell to pay with Jordan if he didn't come home soon. Sighing as he opened the door to his apartment, he was surprised to see Jordan sitting in the kitchen; drink in her hand. He walked to drink the drink out of her hand, causing her to sit up and look at him.
"Jordan"
"Well if it isn't dead beat dad, glad that you're back," Jordan slurred, as she sat up from the chair; making it clear the she was drunk. "What, your boy toy kicked you out of his room and you thought you come home to me?"
"Jordan, what have you been drinking?"
"Scotch, vodka but mostly scotch"
"Where is Jack?" Perry asked growing agitated at the drunken Jordan. He had never seen her like this before because it was mostly he who became the drunken idiot, not her.
"So now you're worried about your son. Where was this over protective attitude four days ago when you ran out to take care of D.J.?" Jordan laughed as she grabbed the bottle of vodka. "Because it sure as hell wasn't here."
"Jordan for the last time, I didn't run out on you and Jack. Now where is he?"
"Don't get your panties in a bunch, he's with my mother. When I told her what had happened she had taken the first plane out here to see about me"
"Jor, why are you doing this; this isn't like you?"
"How the hell would you know?"
"Because I know you Jordan and you are not this person standing in front of me." he scowled at her. He had rushed back home to see about his son but now he had to make sure Jordan didn't die of alcohol poisoning because it was apparent that she had had too much to drink.
"I'm not the person…you're not the person."
"What?"
"For years I've tried to make you change, make you stop being the cynical bastard that you were and when we had Jack I thought I had. I thought you would finally realize just how right we were for each other but you didn't, did you. You go and fall in love with the one person that has loved you from day one and it makes me sick that you changed for them but not for me. Not for the mother of your child."
She walked over to Perry as she took another sip out of the bottle until she was standing directly in front of him, showing Perry the redness in her eyes and the puffiness in her cheeks. "You know what's even worse, Per. What's even worse is that I saw it coming; I knew that you had fallen in love with him when I came back pregnant. That the only reason you even went out with that Julie character was to make D.J. jealous, just like you were jealous of me when I slept with him and I still tried to make it work."
"Jordan, please"
"Stupid I was; trying to make you mine when you no longer were. Don't know what the hell I was thinking but I tried, God knows I tried."
"I'm sorry I hurt you, Jordan but I can't help how I feel."
"What about how I feel, you bastard" she lashed out at him, throwing the bottle that was in her hand directly at his head. He tried to duck out of the way but the bottle hit him in the arm, breaking against it, glass shattering everywhere. Perry looked down to see a sharp piece of glass embedded in his arm. "I feel like my heart has been ripped out of my chest and stomped on you heartless bastard. You cold…heartless…bastard."
Perry watched as the emotional Jordan lunged forward at him and before he had a time to react, he felt her alcoholic lips press hard against his. It took his brain a moment to register what was going on and when he did, he carefully pushed her away, not wanting to cause any more damage to the current situation. She laughed as she fell to the floor and laid completely flat on it.
"So I guess that's it huh," she continued to laugh at him. "You don't even like kissing me anymore but that's okay, I'm okay. I am Jordan Sullivan for God sakes and I will be okay without you."
Perry walked out of the room and into his bathroom to grab the first aid kit. Grabbing out the gauze and tissues, he surveyed his arm and realized that the cut wasn't that deep to require stitches. After wiping off all the blood, he tightly wrapped his arm and threw the bloody tissues in the trash. He walked back into the living room to find Jordan still on the floor but having passed out from all the alcohol. Sighing, he picked her up off the floor and carried her to the bedroom that they used to share, laying her onto the bed and quietly closed the door. He couldn't help but feel a bit sad that he had put her in that state.
He couldn't do it. It felt as though his walls were closing in and he couldn't move. He had forgotten how long he had been sitting on the floor, in his own salty tears but he couldn't move. He felt as though he could feel Kenny watching him like before and that made him feel the way he was feeling. Even though his friends were right outside the door, he couldn't feel more alone.
Grabbing the side of his bed, J.D pulled himself off the floor and made his way over to the phone. He needed the one person that hadn't left his side since he had been found; he needed Perry. With trembling fingers, he dialed the number and was met with a nothing but ringing. He tried again but once again he was met with the same fate and by the third time, he decided to give up.
J.D lay down on the bed and let the phone fall to the floor. He turned over to his side, pulled his knees up to his chest, and began to cry again. Drowsiness overtook him as closed his eyes and fell into a dark sleep.
"Johnathan wake up"
"What"
"Open your eyes"
He opened his eyes and saw that he was surrounded by dark wooded area. He felt a cold wind run across his body as he lifted himself off the ground he was laying on. He couldn't see much of anything but he could see a looming figure a few feet away from him and the light reflecting off what appeared to be something metal. "Stay away from me"
"Why are you treating me like this Johnathan?" the voice laughed. "All I wanted to do is help you but you tried to fight me and what happened was all your fault"
"It wasn't my fault," J.D cried as he looked around but the figure seemed to had disappeared from sight. He turned around and saw that the figure was now right behind him instead of in front of him. Not knowing what to do, he started to run in any direction he could just to get away.
"It was your fault," the voice barked back as they walked slowly behind J.D. No matter how fast he ran, the figure was still behind him every step of the way. Not paying attention to where he was going, J.D suddenly tripped and fell face first into the dirt. He tried to crawl his way up but before he could, the figure grabbed him by the back of his shirt and pushed him against what appeared to be a tree. With the person, that close to him he was finally able to see who it was but still couldn't see what they were holding.
"It's your fault that your brother got shot. If you would have just listened to me and did what I said it wouldn't have happened."
"No it's not true"
"It's true"
"No it's not"
"Yes it is," he yelled as he pushed J.D harder against the tree. Before J.D could say anything, the figure had pinned both his shoulders to the wall so he couldn't move. He tried to struggle but they appeared to be too strong for him to overthrow.
"Let me go" J.D screamed but only earned a slap to the face and was pinned even harder. By this time, the tears had begun to stream down his face and his body started to shake.
"You can't run from me Johnathan"
"Let me go"
"J.D open your eyes?"
"Let me go, let me go"
"J.D man, open your eyes," the voice yelled at him again and he could feel their hands on his shoulder.
Eyes shot open as J.D looked to see a worried Turk holding onto his shoulders to keep him from jerking to the bed. He quickly pushed Turk's hands off him and jumped up from the bed. Before Turk had a chance to say something to him, J.D ran out of the room and quickly ran out of the apartment. Turk called out to him but it was too late. By the time he got to the door, J.D had run out of sight and Turk had no idea where to look for him.
Silently cursing to himself, Turk grabbed his coat and went off to run after J.D. Before he could get down to the ground floor, he was met by Carla and Elliot who had bags in their hands.
"Baby did you see J.D?"
"Why would you ask me that Turk?"
"Because he just ran out of the apartment and I don't know where he went."
"What!" both women screamed into his ear as the bags dropped from their hands. "How could you let that happen?"
"It's not like I meant to." Turk shrieked back, angry that his own wife would say something like that to him. "He was having a bad dream and when I woke him up, he took off. I tried chasing him but J.D was too fast."
"He probably took the stairs because we used the elevator so we wouldn't have seen him" Elliot replied as she started to make her way back to the elevator. She stopped when nobody was following her and turned around to give them an annoyed look. "What are we waiting for, let's go?"
"Go where, we wouldn't know where to look."
"Then we'll find someplace Carla, he couldn't have gotten far and besides he had no money to anywhere out of walking distance."
"Elliot I don't think-"
"I don't care what you think." Elliot snarled as she pushed the button for the doors to come open. She had just gotten her best friend back and she wasn't about to lose him again. Sighing in defeat, Carla kissed Turk on the cheek as she grabbed the bags from the floor and walked to the apartment.
"Baby aren't you coming?"
"No," shaking her head as she opened the door. "Somebody needs to be here incase he decides to call for a ride right."
Shaking his head, he smiled one last time as he walked onto the elevator when the doors open. He looked over to Elliot who still bore an angry expression on her face but this time it was accompanied by tears. Saying nothing, he just grabbed her hand and the two of them rode silently on the elevator down to the first floor. Without talking, they got into Elliot's car and made their way to where they thought J.D might be Dr. Cox's apartment.
He ran. He ran and he ran until he couldn't run anymore. He didn't know why he ran away from his friend but he felt as though he didn't have a choice. He couldn't stay in that room any longer, the place where he felt as though he was being watched. J.D didn't care that he didn't have his wallet on him or the fact that he was currently without shoes; he just wanted to be as far away from everyone as he possible could.
J.D didn't have to run far because he was soon there, the place where he went to gain a sense of peace; enlightenment even. It was where he felt the safest and no one knew about it. He knew that his friends would probably be worried about him but right now, he didn't care, he just wanted to be there and he was.
Climbing the ladder, he soon found himself inside of the tiny house. It was an abandon tree house that he had found a few months ago and it quickly became his place of solitude. It looked old but J.D found that it was in fact sturdy than it looked and he never worried about it crumbling to the ground. Grabbing the blanket that he placed in it to keep him warm on the colder evenings he was in there, he wrapped it around his body and fell back to sleep.
Perry was awaked with a start at the sound of knocking at his door. He looked over at the bed and found that Jordan was passed out and groaned as he went to answer the door. He prayed it wasn't Jack because he didn't need to see his parents like this broken and distraught.
Swinging open the door, he was surprised to find that it was Elliot and Turk instead of Jordan's mother with Jack. He started to ask him what the hell they wanted but before he could, they rushed inside the apartment without even asking.
"What the hell-"
"Is J.D here?" Elliot quickly said as she began searching around the apartment looking for any signs of J.D.
"No Betty isn't here, isn't he supposed to be with you?"
"He was but earlier he ran out of the apartment" Turk replied.
"You let him leave, how could you let him leave?" Perry found himself yelling. He couldn't believe that it had been less than ten hours and they had already lost J.D again.
"I'm going to tell you the same thing I told Carla, I didn't let him leave" Turk yelled back at the older man. "He was having a nightmare and I went into his room to try to wake him up and he ran past me and out of the room. There wasn't anything I could have done."
"Whatever" Perry grumbled as he grabbed his coat from the couch and made his way out the door.
"Wait for us?" Elliot yelled out as she followed behind him but soon stopped when he turned back around to look at them.
"You're not going."
"What?"
"I said you're not going" Perry growled even louder. He had an idea of where J.D was and he knew he needed to see him alone; didn't want to risk scaring him off again.
"What do you mean we're not going, you know where he is."
"Maybe."
"Then how come we can't go?"
"Because Gandhi, he ran away from you the first time and I have a feeling that he's going to run away from you again and this time, you may not find him."
"So you think that he won't run away from you" Turk scoffed as placed his hands across his chest.
"I know he won't."
"How can you be sure, what makes you think that J.D even wants to be anywhere near you right now? He needs his friends"
"I am his friend."
"Now," Turk hissed as he walked up to Perry and stood directly in his face. He was growing tired of Perry acting like he had always been there for J.D when he hadn't been there before. "Now you're his friend but what about before, before this whole Walter thing happened. You treated him like shit and you didn't care, you had no sympathy at all for him or anyone else and now you want me to believe that you do."
"I've always showed it, maybe not in the best way but I was there for him; even when I didn't want to be" Perry yelled as he pushed Turk out of his face who immediately pushed him back. He felt his hand curl up into a fist as anger quickly filled his body and felt that he close to hitting the younger doctor right in the face. He would have too if Elliot hadn't jumped in between the two of them and separated them. It didn't work because they again tried to jump back into each other's face.
"Would you two stop it, you're supposed to be looking for J.D not acting like a bunch of jackasses," she shrieked as she pushed the two men farther apart.
"Tell him to stop acting like he cares about J.D"
"I do care about him, dammit why do you think I did all the stuff I did for him"
"What stuff?"
"I have been there for him ever since he walked into Sacred Heart. I listened to every single ridiculous story he ever experienced; hell I was there for him when his dad died."
"Yeah after you punched him in his face." Turk spat.
"I admit that I made some mistakes but I'm not perfect and I never pretended to be. I am who I am and J.D accepts that about me and it's time you did too because I'm not going anywhere."
"We'll see about that"
"We will" Perry growled as he walked out of the apartment. Elliot shot a annoyed look in Turks direction and soon followed behind Perry. She was glad that the elevator hadn't come down yet and walked up behind him.
"What do you want Barbie?" Perry growled without even turning around.
"How do you do that…you know what never mind?" She said as the elevator doors opened up. "I'm sorry for Turk's behavior and if it's any constellation, I don't believe that you don't care about J.D and I know that in your own twisted maniacal way, you've always cared about J.D."
Perry said nothing as he turned around to stare at Elliot. He could tell that she meant what she was saying to him. Curling up his lip slightly, he gave her a smile in return for her kind words. He walked inside the elevator but immediately remembered that Jordan was still passed out on his bed. Knowing that he wouldn't be able to concentrate on J.D if Jordan was alone by herself, he decided he needed to ask Elliot a favor.
"Barbie."
"Yeah Dr. Cox."
"Could you do me a favor and stay to keep and eye on Jordan. She had too much to drink earlier and passed out on my bed."
"Jordan's here" Elliot gulped as he eyes widen in terror. If there was, anyone that scared her more than Dr. Cox it was the mother of his child. She was like a vicious pit bull that was always ready to rip you to pieces.
"Yeah she is and I can't leave her alone but I need-"
"Don't worry; I'll take care of her until you get back." Elliot forced herself to smile as she watched him get back into the elevator. Her eyes drifted to his shoulder where she finally noticed the band-aid on his arm wrapped in gauze. "Dr. Cox, did Jordan-"
"Remember what I told you before Barbie. Don't be afraid of that third eye because it's just as afraid of you as you are of it.
Those words caused Elliot to squeak as the doors closed and Dr. Cox disappeared. She walked back into his apartment where Turk had already made himself comfortable and was watching TV. Elliot said nothing as she walked up to him, giving him the evil eye once more.
"Can you believe him?" he asked her without even looking up from the screen.
"No I can't believe you Turk," she snarled as she grabbed the remote from his hand and turned off the TV. "Could you be a bigger ass tonight?"
"What me, I was talking about Dr. Cox"
"Well I was talking about you. Wow I can't decide who's the biggest jerk right now, you or him."
"What did I do?"
"Are you kidding me?" she cried. "You try tell him that he doesn't care about J.D and then you try to fight him; what the hell is wrong with you?"
"How can you be taking his side?" Turk yelled as he too stood up from the couch and walked over to her. "He's been a bastard to you and J.D ever since you were interns; hell even now he's still a bastard to you. You know what a jerk he was to J.D before all this even started. Why should I believe that he magically changed overnight?"
"Because Turk people can change. Sometimes for the better and sometimes for the worse but they still can change and it's time that you realize that Dr. Cox has changed.
"I don't believe it."
"Then if you can't believe it for yourself then believe it for J.D, unless you're too selfish for that."
"I would do anything for J.D, you know that" Turk hissed as he made his way towards the door. He couldn't believe that he was arguing with Elliot about Dr. Cox and she was taking his side. Even after all the stuff, the older doctor had put her through; she was standing in his living room defending him.
"Then it's time you accept Perry because like he said, he isn't going anywhere"
He didn't say anything as he walked out of the apartment. Elliot sighed as she walked out of the room and went into Perry's room to check on Jordan who was still asleep. She made her way over to the chair in the corner and sat down in it, wondering when the world around her would return back to normal.
He arrived at the tree house and instantly knew that J.D was there. He had only been here once before but he knew that it was the place J.D would go if he needed to get away from the world, where he felt the safest. He quietly climbed the ladder and made his way inside where he saw J.D curled up in a blanket fast asleep. He looked so peaceful that Perry didn't even want to wake him up but knew he had too. Too many people worried about him and he needed to get somewhere safer.
Gently shaking him, he smiled when J.D woke up with a confused expression on his face. He sat up to look around at his surroundings and remembered that he had run to the tree house. What he didn't understand was how Perry found out where he was.
"How did you find me, am I low jacked?"
"No Judy, you do not have a locator device anywhere on your body but that's not a bad idea considering you ran out of your apartment in the middle of the night with no shoes on and no one knowing where you were at." Perry scowled at the young man.
"Turk told you huh."
"Yeah that and some other things too."
"What?"
"Never mind, let's go I'm taking you home."
"I don't want to go back to the apartment." J.D whispered as he lay back down on the floor.
"You have to go back home, your friends are looking for you."
"I can't sleep in that room alright," J.D finally screamed as he sat up and began to cry. He hated breaking down so easily at every little thing someone said or did, but he couldn't help it. His body was once again betraying him in every way possible. "Every time I think about sleeping in that room it feels like he's watching me, waiting to attack like he was before and I hate that feeling. It feels like I'm suffocating and I can't breath. I close my eyes and I can imagine him there standing over me and I don't want to feel that way."
"J.D-"
"Please don't make me go back; please I can't go back just yet."
"Okay." Perry whispered as he pulled J.D into his arms and let him cry. He wasn't about to push J.D into doing something he didn't want to do and he didn't want to go home. After some time passed, he finally opened his mouth again to ask J.D the same question he started to ask previously that day. "
"Move in with me?"
J.D moved his body away from the older man and looked at him with shock. He wanted him to move into his place. J.D assumed that the man was either drunk or doped up on pain medication. He looked into his eyes to see if he could sense any anything but all he could see was seriousness in the man's eyes.
"Are you serious?"
"Yeah, I mean you don't have to but it's an alternative to living in a tree house."
"What about Jordan?"
"She moved out already so there's room for you."
J.D thought about the man's question inside his head and realized that he felt safest when he was with Perry. He liked the idea of having Perry there to help him through whatever the hell he was going through. He hoped that Turk would understand his decision about moving out but he needed to do what was best for him.
"Okay, I'll move in as long as you're sure about this because if you're not-"
"I asked didn't I." Perry interrupted the bumbling J.D.
J.D smiled at Perry as he moved his head closer to his. Before either of them knew it, they felt their lips pressed together. J.D grabbed the back of Perry's neck as he pulled the older man closer to him and opened his mouth to let Perry enter his.
Perry grinned at the moan that escaped from J.D's mouth as he let his tongue plunge deeper inside. J.D still had a sweet taste about him, like he had just eaten a bag full of candy. To him it seemed like he couldn't get enough of J.D as he pulled his body as close as he could possible get and soon felt J.D's hands tugging his shirt out of his pants. Soon his felt pair of warm hands run all over his chest and across his back.
J.D moved his hands from across Perry's back down to his thighs as he pulled the man closer, almost in an on top of him manner. He swirled his tongue further into Perry's mouth tasting every inch of it. He could feel his own erection rising and suddenly had a need to have Perry closer to him than ever before. Quickly, his hands left Perry thighs and made their way down to pants, tugging on them as he tried to get them open. As he was trying to get them unbutton, he could feel Perry suddenly become tense at his touch.
Thoughts of uncertainty swirled through Perry's head as he felt J.D tug at his jeans. Perry had expected J.D to be more closed off after what happened to him but it seemed as though J.D was more lustful than he had ever been before. He felt as though it would be too soon for J.D to engage in anything like this, especially after everything he had been through. He didn't believe that J.D was ready for something like this and he wasn't about to have him regret going that far with him.
Reluctantly, Perry pulled away from J.D and slid to the other side of the tree house. He watched as J.D tried to regain his breath and look at him with confused eyes. Perry tried to sense if he was hurt by his actions or was he more along the lines of confused.
"Why'd you do that?" J.D finally asked after he could breathe again. He hadn't expected Perry to back away from him; he always assumed it would be the other way around instead.
"J.D, I don't think we should do this, at least not now."
"Why not?"
"Because I don't think you're ready for this," Perry answered honestly. "I don't think you want to do this now, here, in a tree house built for an eight year old and his playmates.
"But I am, I want to do this with you and only you." J.D replied back, bitterness in his voice. He didn't like being rejected and thought that Perry was the only one who wouldn't reject him. He stood up and made his way towards the door to leave. "And I thought you wanted me too but I guess not."
Perry grabbed J.D's hand to keep him from leaving, hating himself for making J.D upset. He didn't want him to think that he didn't want to be with him anymore because that couldn't be far from the truth. He wanted J.D more than anything but couldn't take advantage of him like that.
"Let me go."
"J.D just listen to me," Perry whispered. "I want you, shit sometimes I want you so bad I have to take about a dozen showers a day to get rid of the hard on I get just thinking about you but I can't do this when you're like this."
"What do you mean like this, Perry I'm fine?"
"That's what you keep saying to everyone but I know different. I know that you have nightmares every time you go to sleep and those times at the hospital you pretended to be asleep so you wouldn't have to talk to anyone, I knew you weren't sleeping. I know that you're not fine and the only reason you keep saying that you are is because you think that what we want to hear but it's not. I want you to be completely fine when we do this and I don't want you to do anything that you regret because you think it's what I want.
He sighed as he pulled J.D back towards him and into his chest. "When we do this, whenever we do this I want you to be completely sure with no doubts at all and when you're ready, I mean really ready you come to me, look me in the eye with a straight face and say I want you right now and I will gladly rock your world Debra."
J.D stayed quiet as he moved his head away from Perry's chest and looked him in the eyes. Deep down he knew that Perry was right. A part of him wasn't ready to have Perry that close to him but a part of him was. He realized that Perry didn't want half of him but all of him when they advance their relationship to the next level. He didn't say anything but smiled as he placed a kiss on Perry lips and placed his head back to his chest. That's how the two men stayed for almost the entire night until they were both ready to go home.
So there is chapter four. I hope you liked it because if you didn't, I don't care. J/K but really this is my longest chapter ever. It was nineteen pages long and I didn't know it was that long until I got ready to post it. I know that you might think it was weird that I had Jordan break down like that but come on. Most stories have Jordan so happy go lucky that the father of her baby falls in love with another man. I mean, she has a right to be mad as hell so I made her mad as hell; I know I would be. So if it was a little OOC, don't worry that's how I wanted it to be and don't worry, the fallout between Turk and J.D won't last long. J.D's mom will make an appearance and it will not be pretty. And my favorite bitchy therapist will also come back to make J.D admit his inner feelings as well as J.D 2. I'm going in the midst of writing chapter 5 right now and as soon as I'm finished I will post it; promise.
Love
"Ricka"
