Disclaimer: I don't own Veronica Mars.

A/N: Sorry I know I have not updated in a long time but I was sick for a time and I kind of got caught up in my Trory story, I promise not to let it happen again.

Ok maybe I am overacting a bit, I mean it wasn't all bad, there was a time when Logan did act like he loved me, or that he was at least trying to love me.

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"So I was thinking that we could go take a weekend off, you know go up to Lake Tahoe, I know it's hot down here but up there it's snowing." Logan said as we were lying in his bed, wrapped up in the sheets. We had been going out for a while, and while nobody else seemed to like me much, Logan and I were going great, we were a we, and I was ecstatic.

"Are you serious?" I asked sitting up.

"Of course I am, look I know not everyone is as happy for us as I had hoped so I think we deserve a vacation, just us two. What do you think?"

"Oh gosh Logan I would love to." I said hugging him and kissing him. "Oh I have to go shopping!" I exclaimed getting up and finding my clothes. "Let's see I'll need a jacket, mittens and scarves!" Logan laughed as he watched how excited I was.

"Parker, you do know that it will be just for maximum of four days."

"I know but I still have no winter clothes, plus this just gives me an actual reason to go to the mall. Oh do you think that Mac, will want to go with me? I mean hate going alone." That sort of dampened my spirit, Mac would never go with me not unless Veronica would say it was a good idea which I knew she wouldn't.

"I actually don't think that is her scene." He was being sweet; he wanted to see me happy.

"You're probably right." I said adjusting my make up in the mirror and my blouse.

"You could ask Tina she loves to be at the mall." Tin was visiting for the week she didn't like me very much in fact the moment she shook my hand she straight up told me Veronica was better for Logan than me and that I shouldn't feel too bad when he dumped me. Logan told me not to worry about it, but it stung.

"You know what babe I think I'll just go alone, that'll be faster." I said as I gave him a kiss on the cheek.

"I'll see you later."

"I'll call you." I just gave him a smile.

"Of course." I left him there on the bed, as I went to the mall.

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We never did get to go the Lake Tahoe, Logan got drunk, two days before and got in a car crash. It never mattered to me that we didn't go, what hurt was the fact that Veronica Mars was the one on his in case of emergency list.
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I had rushed over to the hospital the moment Veronica had called which had been at midnight; I stayed all night at the hospital because I couldn't see him until eight in the morning, which was when visiting hours started. As I walked into the room Veronica got up out of her chair she was in which was by his bed and walked up to me.

"Parker, he is doing alright it was a rough night but he got through it, he's stable now."

"Veronica, thank you so much for calling and for helping him get through this."

"Hey don't worry its Logan; I would never have left him alone. Oh and he might act weird he sort of on a lot of medication right now." She just nodded at me and walked out. I was left alone with Logan again. I went to his side and sat down in the chair Veronica had just occupied. After thirty minutes of just waiting Logan finally began to wake up.

"Veronica?" He asked with squinted eyes.

"No, babe, it's me Parker." He gave me this look and I swear he looked sad and then he started to laugh hysterically. "What so funny?" I asked getting worried.

"No, I mean it's so déjà vu I mean during the time when I am all messed up I'm with Veronica and then when I am all better I get to be with you, it's like me and Veronica can only be together if something is wrong with me." I just laughed nervously I mean it's the medication not him.

"You know why don't we, talk about something else."

"Why? I love talking about Veronica, she's the best, and you know I love her, that's why I don't tell you I love you because I don't." He kept on laughing and I could feel tears stinging my eyes. He kept saying how beautiful Veronica was, so I left I couldn't handle it. I ran into Veronica in the hallway.

"Hey Parker is everything ok, is Logan ok." I looked at her she wasn't concerned about me just Logan and I knew they still loved each other.

"He's fine I just think you should be with him, I have classes. Bye." I left the hospital as fast as possible, when I got in my car I let the tears fall.
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We never talked about that visit just pretended it never happened. And maybe that was one of the reasons we didn't work, we never talked didn't want to have problems. So we just swept it under the carpet. I never used to be like that I had been the type of girl that loved to talk about the relationship that was what I based my relationship on, how open we could be with each other. Yet maybe what I had with Logan was deep enough not to need to talk? You could never know you do find love in the strangest places.

I smiled as the realization hit me. As I looked about my room, I knew that it was time to go back; I had finally been able to clear my head. So I packed up my bags which I really I hadn't unpacked in the first place and placed them in my car. As I was about to shut the door to the room, I looked around it one last time, knowing I would come here again if I ever needed to think and just like that I was back on the road headed to Neptune.

A/N: So what do you think? Did she decide to stay with Logan or leave him. You might be surprised. So if you review I'll promise to update fast because reviews make me want to write. So if you want to know, review! Tell me what you think! -Luv U Lots- Ally