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DAY 2: NIGHT TIME

I got into the car and there was a weird silence. I was about to say something when I was pulled into a bear hug.

"Kaoru, oh my gosh don't scare me like that."

"Uh?"

"How did you light your self on fire like that?"

"Don't tell your brother about us."

"Well uh, how do you think I set myself on fire?"

"Maybe with all the dry air and so much negative tension that a physical change in the air surrounding you caused you to burn in pink flames."

I was honestly shocked. But if that's how he thought that happened then all I could say to was " Yes that's what I did?"

"Hey do you mind if I study you for school?"

"Sure- what a sec since when did care about science?" I asked raising my eye brow.

"Oh I always cared. You just never noticed." he says shrugging. "Beside that," he started, "How come you were with Kyoya when we came in?"

Crap can't into about that. "Well I bumped into him on the way there. I felt well enough to be driven halfway and I walked the rest.I just happened to stay to take a light nap. I guess he didn't want me on the table, or on the floor, or on the couch so he must have put me between his leg."

"And are you ok with this?"

I chuckled "Why wouldn't I be?"

"Well if you are then I don't really have anything to complain about."

I opened my mouth to say something but instead of words came a six second cough. "Oh and another thing," Hikaru said slowly, "Why did you come to host if you were still sick?"

I sat back and thought about how I wanted to answer this. I knew what I couldn't say: Because you left me by myself while I was sick, I was very lonely. I had nothing else to do so I looked through my phone. Kyoya had sent me a lot of text messages and voice mails. the he called to see if I was alright. Apparently I wasn't because I started to cry while talking to him. The he shows up to our house and comes into my room. We have a make out session, the he sleeps with we show up to host knowing I still feel like crap because of you!

"Well I felt better after you gave me those pills to take." I gave him one of my smiles. But I don't think he bought it though. Hikaru is one of the few people who can see through my fake smiles.

"I think there's more to what you're telling me Kaoru." he said narrowing eyes.

"What more could there be tell you?"

"I don't know I feel like your're telling me what I want to hear."

"Hikaru I assure you , if there was more for me tell you I would."

"...Alright then fine you say so Kaoru."

This was getting a little too weird for me so I changed the topic. "So how was your date with Haruhi?" after I asked that Hikaru's face lit up like the sun. I smiled inwardly. I knew that me asking this would cause him to completely forget me and Kyoya. I for one couldn't give a crap about him and that...girl. I look out into the window I had more important things to think about.

One of them being my other home. Shadowdomica. The one place I really wanted to be right now. Being able to see the nice silver lakes and the big bushy black trees. And letting my shadow side being able to run free. It's really hard to keep this place a secret. Only because if Kyoru, my alter ego wants any guy he sees, then all of my normal control just flies out the window. I will admit that some of the guys he picks up are pretty hot but some of them need more practice. I've had some times where I was able to see him. Call it self-sest but if I could then I would screw him senseless. He has the same color hair as mine except maybe a few shades lighter, and its a little past his collar bone in length. Whenever he gets turned on he shows his canines that would put a vampire to shame because they are so sharp. His eyes are a mixture of red and orange. If my human side gets pissed enough then he'll allow his eye color to replace mine as a death threat. But he's such a hooker. Ask any guy in Shadowdomica they'll tell you that he likes to get around. However he can't stick with one person only because he really belongs to the Shadow King, who is too dense to notice it.

It sucks that I have to stay here until he does realize that my shadow half is calling out to him and does something about it. I remember that today I did happen to see a little of the King but it was so small and limited. I think it was because he saw that Hikaru was pissing me off. Otherwise no amount of shadow would have shown. I'm willing to wait until he decides to not be shy anymore but I don't think Kyoru will be happy knowing that he can't get what he wants. And if he does't then he'll transfer his anger through me, which then transforms me into him and the only thing you see is pink flames and sex themed attacks.

Then you have my guardian. Tamaki is what he would be known as to the humans but in the world we come from he would be Takareno. He's supposed to protect me from overly stressing situations, but today he failed. He can control ice,water and anything close to those two. He's also also the King's right hand man. So if he needed any thing in Shadowdomica, Takareno would be the person to get it. Or if he had an international meeting some where Takareno would stay with me and whatever. But the guy's sensitive. You tell him he has a stain on his shirt he'll start to cry. When it comes to fighting he's a different shadow. So strong and serious and determined...On the plus side he's also very pretty. When Takareno shows up, one could recognize him with his shaggy brown hair with black highlights and dark grey eyes. Either that or you could hear his loud voice from a country away.

The more important person in general is Kyoya. He's the King of our world...and I'm supposed to marry him at some point. But I cant do that. If my shadow was to marry him then that means my human side is married to him as well. We're in the same body but two different people. I don't know if I Kaoru like him THAT much. I mean sure he's great friend but I don't want our shadows to ruin to ruin our normal day to day friendship. And to make it better the guy doesn't even know we're supposed to get married. He's so dense now a days and it kinda bugs me too.

Hikaru...I worry about him too but I can't really trust him right now as long as he's hanging around with Haruhi. The time will come where I have to tell him and everyone else who needs to know. I just want him to lay off and worry about himself or else he's gonna set himself up for trouble.

And then there's me. I can't even think on the fact that I was sired just so I can satisfy some shadow's needs, which was very stupid. So I get to walk around in a former shell of myself who gets to carry this sex craved demon inside me for life. It's not fair any other person would have been born that way or corrupted. Even if I can't really tell anyone about this I still wish I could go back.

"..ru...Kaoru?" a voice said.

"Huh?"

"Dude we're home you gotta get out of the car." Hikaru said chuckling

"Oh home? Yea let me do that." I said smiling. Hikaru held out his hand for me and I took it. We started walking to the front door when my phone vibrated. I stopped to see who it was. I was standing there for at least twelve minutes. When Hikaru came back into the hallway.

"Kao, mom says it's time for dinner."

"I'll be there in a minute." I said not looking up from my screen.

"Now."

"Fine what ever."

When I sat down I felt all eyes on me. "What?"

My mother was the first to speak. "Kaoru, honey are you alright?"

"I'm fine. I feel great." I said smiling.

"Oh. Well it's just the expression your face had looked sad. But if you say so then, how was your day?" she said brightly

"It was ok I guess nothing really happened."

"Who are you texting?" Hikaru said through a mouth full of mash potatoes,

"No one special." I answer coldly.

"Uh-huh sure." he said reaching over and taking my phone from my hands.

"What the heck Hikaru?" I said pouting.

"What can't your brother read your messages?" he said smirking.

"Hikaru you're invading my personal privacy!"

"What privacy?" Hikaru said now laughing.

"Mom!"

"Hikaru, your brother's right dear." she said calmly shifting through her salad.

"Whatever,your messages were boring on anyways." he said tossing my phone back to me.

"Right." I said rolling my eyes."Dinner was great mom. If you need me I'll be in my room." I said getting up to leave.

When I was in my room. Then first thing I did was flop on my bed. Head first into my pillow. I wanted to scream so badly. I miss my Kyoya. I really needed him to be here but he's doing whatever he's doing whatever it was. The thought of him made me moan. Last night's events played replayed nicely in my head. His lips. His touch. His voice. His hair. Oh god those smooth arms and firm chest. Wait a second I can't afford to think like this otherwise my other half will show up and then I 'll start to jack off with myself. Not that I didn't want to it's just that I can't because Hikaru would assume I'm thinking about him when I'm really not and trying to explain that to him would be hell for me.

I sat up in my bed. I can't keep mentally abusing myself. I don't need to over think things. I look around my room looking for something, my journal. When I found it , it was sitting on my dresser. I smile a little as I held it in my hands. The other thing I saw was one of my pillow sheets. I picked it up and a scent hit me and my nose. It smelled like Kyoya. Of course my eyes naturally roll back and close as I get high off of his smell. With thin moments I begin to moan again except a bit louder. I had to stop before Hikaru decides to walk by and hear. I unfold it and walk back to bed, covering my self with it. I grab my journal and a pen to recount on my day. Tomorrow should be better or else I'm gonna kill something.REFLECTIONS:TODAY WAS REALLY ANNOYING WITH THE FACT THAT HIKARU DIDN'T WANT TO LEAVE ME ALONE. OR THE FACT THAT EVERY ONE WAS ACTING LIKE THE WORLD WAS GONNA END JUST BECAUSE I WAS SITTING BETWEEN KYOYA'S LEGS. I MEAN LIKE SERIOUSLY? PEOPLE YOUR GONNA SEE THAT PRETTY OFTEN FROM NOW ON. AND WITH ALL THAT BULL CRAP GOING ON I JUST KNOW THAT HIKARU IS GONNA FORGET ABOUT ME THE SECOND HE SEES HARUHI. THEN HE WONDERS WHY I'M ALWAYS MAD AT HIM. AND I HAVE TO BE CAREFUL ABOUT MY ANGER I DONT WANT ANY ONE ELSE TO SEE MY SPECIAL FLAMES...I'M JUST GONNA TRY AND BLEND IN FOR A WHILE...


OK I REALLY HOPE THIS DOESN'T SOUND SO RUSHED. I WANTED TO EXPLAIN THE WHOLE SHADOW WORLD AS SIMPLE AS I COULD :) BUT THE GIST OF IT IS KAORU, TAMAKI, AND KYOYA ARE HALF SHADOW HALF HUMAN. KAORU WASN'T BORN AS A DEMI SHADOW THOUGH AND HE'S BEEN LIVING LIKE THAT SINCE HE WAS LIKE 5. ALL OTHER THINGS WILL BECOME CLEARER AS THE STORY CONTINUES BUT I JUST WANTED TO MAKE SURE THAT YOU GUYS UNDERSTOOD SOMETHING ABOUT SHADOWDOMICA .

REVIEWS ARE WELCOME JUST NOT FLAMES \^.^/