chapter 4: time
"H-…Hibari!" well…at least he's not the teacher or the principal...BUT STILL!
He looks at me dangerously and he's still not releasing his tight grip on my arm. Does he want to fight again?! But I'm weak… why would he even take interest in a fight where he could surely win effortlessly, I thought he wants a good fighter to have a spar with not with a lame weakling like me.
I look at my arm, the one he had grabbed. 'It hurts'. Have I always been this weak? Hah…why ask when I already know the answer. I snapped out from my thoughts and spoke lamely to Hibari "Uhh…I'm going back to my friends…err" I can't compose the words to say to him. "Uhh...Hi-…" I was cut off by his words.
"18 minutes." He whispered but it's enough for me to hear. I don't get it, my brain's loading of the statement is slow and I just bluntly said "What?" I couldn't understand the concept behind it…I suck at this…is he using math on me now? We just stood there in the middle of the hallway; arm's still grabbed but not that tight now and me…looking more stupid by the minute…WAIT!
I looked at the clock near the end of the hallway. I remembered that I still have 20 minutes left to spare so I decided to walk around the school…so does 18 minutes mean it's the time I have left for my lunch break? Or in the negative side, does he mean that I have only have 18 minutes left to live because of what I did to him earlier? SHIT.
"16 minutes." I'm getting a little panicky here, what if my last idea was the true motive of Hibari? Oh my god, I'm dead meat! 'This is it; meet your end in the hands of Hibari Kyoya, Tsuna' NO! I gathered my strength to release my arm from his grip and I shouted as I closed my eyes "No! I have worked hard earlier to save Hayato and you want to- mmphhhh!" What the…?
He covered my mouth with his hand and moves his face closer to mine…too close. "Shut up herbivore. I don't know what you're talking about." My face is all red and his words seemed like chants making my heart beat race every second…I can't breathe properly. Then suddenly…
"What's that ruckus…!" a teacher came out from one of the classrooms and peeks outside...she couldn't finish her sentence and suddenly she shouted "WHAT ARE YOU TWO DOING?! PUBLIC DISPLAY OF AFFECTION IS STRICTLY PROHIBITED IN THE SCHOOL GROUNDS!" WHAT THE HELL IS SHE TALKING ABOUT?! Hibari removes his hand on my mouth and faces the teacher. As soon as Hibari removes his hand, I quickly explained what we were doing earlier "Uh teacher we-…weren't doing anything malicious here in-" "NO! I SAW BOTH OF YOU WITH MY OWN TWO EYES…KISSING!" She pointed her finger at us.
Her voice got the attention of the other classes and other teachers were looking outside to see what happened, this is bad…I'll be embarrassed in front of everybody again! "WHAT?!" my jaw dropped. We didn't kiss! HELL NO! Hell would freeze all over if that happens! "But we-." "GO TO DETENTION ROOM! NOW!" the teacher shouted at us "AND DO NOT TRY CREATING A LOVE SCENE AGAIN!" she added, I flinch at her tone of voice; I look at Hibari and he didn't even budge a bit…his face remained stoic as ever; I wonder why Hibari didn't even bother trying to explain that he's the prefect and we really didn't do anything *sigh*. Why is luck never on my side?
The both of us walked slowly to the direction of the detention room. We were quite until Hibari suddenly spoke "10 minutes herbivore. You're wasting time." I look at him trying to understand the meaning behind his words. I give up…why bother answering a question that you can't really answer *sigh*. Hibari seemed to notice my defeated sigh and said "…speak up. Reborn told me something."
"HUH?" I gave him a stupid reply, damn it Tsuna can't you answer correctly for once. From what he said, Reborn might have told Hibari something…something…uhh I don't know. Reborn didn't tell me anything about him having a conversation with Hibari, "Do-does it have something to do about me?" I asked, "He said that you're interested in me."
"He was strong and strategic...say Tsuna, are you interested in Hibari?"
"Good luck with Hibari, Tsuna!" Reborn shouted
WTF?! I could really use a gun right now and shoot it right into my face or maybe a floor that could swallow up people who wants to die instantly…I mean, you get my point right? Why in the history of the universe did Reborn told Hibari that I was interested in him? I wasn't interested in him…well he's handsome and strong…but that's all there is to it. Nothing more…there is really nothing to it…nothing. "Ah...Ha-ha…I-err" this is too embarrassing.
"7 minutes." "I…I just…well…" you're handsome and strong damn it, why can't I just say it!? I'm blushing really hard here and my heart's beating is pounding me…what is this I'm feeling. "You look like a middle school girl when he's around…looking oh so timid and cute." Reborn smirked as he said the last part. My face was dusted another shade of red as I remembered what Reborn said earlier, great thing Hibari is walking ahead of me… he won't see my tomato face. You know that this isn't a walk in the park for me, I'm trying to pluck up all the courage I have to answer Hibari but my fear always gets the better of me…I hate it.
We turned left. Every step we took inches us closer to detention room; every step I make without answering Hibari wasted seconds turning into a minute. It gives me that uneasy feeling that I'll never have this chance to talk to him again like this and it breaks my heart that it could possibly become true. Reality is harsh you know.
"6" he said. Ugh, why is this so hard?! Come on Tsuna! You can do this! My legs are turning into jelly and my head feels light, it's so hard! "I-…its not that I'm interested…" I spoke softly. "So what Reborn says is wrong?" he asked, "NO! HE'S NOT WRONG!" whoops! Maybe I got a little bit carried away there by my feelings.
Wait, what did I just say? My feelings? There must be something wrong with me…
"So you are interested in me…" Hibari answered. I guess I don't have to deny it now, it's pretty obvious already that…that you know…I may have feelings for him. OH CRAP TSUNA! IT'S LIKE YOU'RE ADMITTING THAT YOU'RE GAY!
Well, should I tell him? Should I tell him that I have these feelings for him? But…what if he hates me more after I confess my feelings? Hibari must have someone he likes right? A pretty girl whose smile can complete your day; a girl who is smart and witty in all times; a girl who could keep up with him; and the type that he could be proud of...that must be the kind of girl Hibari likes…and it's definitely not me. Ouch.
We went upstairs to the 2nd floor of the building. We were getting closer to detention building and I'm debating whether I should tell him about my new found feelings for him. God, maybe I look what Reborn told me earlier; looking oh so timid and cute.
I'm wasting time here but I'm scared that this confessing thing here might end up bad or worse he'll quit being a guardian! NO! I just can't think of a right way to say it to him. Ugh, well I could always keep this feelings all to myself you know…but that would mean wasting my chance here. Great.
"3 minutes left herbivore." What to do now?! I only have 3 minutes to think this through! I need more time! Okay…I need to calm down first…think Tsuna, think!
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I'm saying it. No more doubt about it.
"2 minutes." We're getting close to the room now, only a few steps away. Oh crap, I feel like melting right now! Go on Tsuna! You just have to say 3 measly words to Hibari then it's done. You can go back to how your life was before this confession thing happened.
"Last minute." Hibari said. I take deep breaths shakily; I straightened up my posture and made myself concentrate on what I was going to say. Then we stopped in front of the detention room, he looks at me.
"I…I have something to tell you…" I said looking at the floor and blushing madly. "10 seconds left for you." He said. I inhaled and exhaled deeply, it's now or never Tsuna.
"5."
I ignored his countdown and gets a hold of the doorknob.
"4."
"…"
"3."
I twist the doorknob but I didn't let myself enter yet.
"2."
"I…" I stared at him. This is it!
"1."
"I love you…Hibari…" I went inside brushing pass him, I left him there outside hanging by my words as I let the door close behind me.
"Now I'm speechless, over the edge and just breathless, I never thought that I'd catch this love bug again. Hopeless, head over heels in the moment, I never thought that I'd get hit by this love bug again."
Awww, Tsuna's really cute here. R & R
*Love bug by the Jonas brothers
