Chris: Okay, because Neo~Star begs so well and persistently… she will be doing the disclaimer. ^_^
*Neo~Star falls from the sky*
Neo~Star: What the hell?! *looks around frantically* Where the hell am I?!
Tigerlily: You get to do the disclaimer, like you begged to. ^_^ Don't you feel special?
Neo~Star: Really? Cool!!
Chris: You may begin…
Neo~Star: Okay, ummm… Chris doesn't own Yugioh. She doesn't own any of these cuties and it breaks her cold, black heart. Suing her would be a pointless waste of time. She's broke, has nothing of real value anyways and is unemployed. And in case you've been living under a rock or haven't been paying attention, unemployment sucks. Credit for the title goes to Taryn (anime AndrAIa), because Chris is lame and couldn't come up with one herself. ^_^
Chris: Thank you, Neo~Star. Tigerlily, read the warning…
Tigerlily: Warning!!! This fic has:
~ yaoi goodness - no lemon, just a bunch of random groping and fantasies (actually, this chapter's kinda plot driven ~_~)
~ lots of bad words (thanks mostly to… pretty much everyone)
~ major angst and darkness
~ horny and lustful yami's
Chris: If you don't know what yaoi is, then this probably isn't for you. Yaoi and shounen ai deals with male x male relationships.
Tigerlily: So if ya don't like that sort of thing do us all a favor and hit the bricks. If you do flame us for it, you will be torched. *pulls out her trusty flamethrower*
Chris: So, if you can't say anything nice, then don't say anything at all.
Tigerlily: So keep your damned mouth shut! You have been warned!!
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Chapter 4
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~~~Ryou's POV~~~
I can't believe how mad I am! I heard Bakura's desire to hurt Yami for the pain and anguish he caused me. It's sweet, he plans to keep his promise to me. As I wander aimlessly, I suddenly realize I'm at the park. And as I continue to walk I find that I do in fact feel a little better. Kura was right, the rage does fade and the crisp air clears my mind.
My heart almost stops as I spot Yuugi in the distance, standing alone on the bridge. He stares into the creek below, oblivious to the world around him. He looks so melancholy and lost. I wonder what's going on in his mind? Well here's my opportunity to clear the air and get Yuugi's side of the story.
"Hello, Yuugi. Penny for your thoughts?"
His head shoots up and out of his trance with wide eyes. His eyes are red and puffy. He's definitely been crying. Poor Yuugi. Why does he have to have such a stupid bastard for a yami? He deserves so much more. I hear Kura whisper something about inbreeding. Yes, that would explain a lot.
~~~Yuugi's POV~~~
Stupid Yami. Why does he have to be such a bastard? Can't the stupid jackass see how much I love him? My life would be so much easier if I didn't. I just wish I knew what was going on. If he didn't want to be alive, then why did he do that damn spell? I wish I never saw that damn book! I hate him so much right now, but at the same time I love him. It's so strange to be able to love and hate someone at the same time
As I sit and wallow in my misery, I hear a voice behind me and get snapped back to my cruel reality.
"…penny for your thoughts?"
Ryou! What's he doing here? Did Yami speak to his other half yet? I don't see any blood, so it's probably safe to say no.
"What?"
Ryou smiles, he looks sweet and angelic, especially with his snowy locks. Why couldn't I have fallen in love with him? He's sweet, kind and really cute. But no, I have to have a thing for bastards. Maybe I should give Kaiba a call? He's the biggest bastard on the planet. But again, no. He doesn't make me feel complete like Yami does, the bastard. Ryou giggles and repeats his question. I swear, he's too kawaii!
"I said, 'Penny for your thoughts.' It looks like you have a lot on your mind… and soul."
I suddenly find my shoes quite fascinating and answer meekly, "Yeah." Ryou lets loose a big sigh.
"It's about Yami, isn't it?"
How the hell does he know? Does this mean Yami's already dead then? No, I would have felt it. Even though we've cut each other off through our link, I still feel it when Yami dies. So, does this mean Bakura said no? I thought he would have jumped at the opportunity! Maybe he thinks it's more amusing to watch him suffer?
"How did you…"
"Know? Your Yami paid us a little visit. Bakura's still with him at home. He was pissing me off so much I had to get out. Your yami is very stubborn."
Wait a minute here!! BAKURA is still at the house, but Ryou is here. How and when the fuck did this happen?! Aw man, if Bakura's with him then he's as good as dead.
"Yami has that effect on hikari's, I think. But how can Bakura be there if you're here?
"That spell your yami did a month ago, affected my yami too."
"And he didn't kill you yet?" Ryou smiles brightly.
" Nope! As a matter of fact, he hid in the ring for the first 3 weeks. He was seriously freaked out. Not that he didn't try to hurt me at first. But for some reason, he couldn't bring himself to do it. A week ago he came out and apologized."
"HE said he was sorry?! The vile and evil tomb robber, who did multiple evil things while controlling your body? I don't think he's ever been sorry a day in his life or afterlife!"
"Well he was that day…"
~~~Ryou's POV~~~
Should I tell him Bakura said he loves me? It might hurt him. His heart is so full of pain. How could Yami do this to poor Yuugi? Insensitive bastard, Yuugi would probably be better off with someone else. No, I won't say anything right now. He needs my shoulder. I need to be here for him now.
"… Yuugi, did you really tell Yami to ask Bakura to help kill him? And that you hate him?"
Fresh tears flood his eyes. I was too blunt, Bakura is starting to rub off on me.
"I'm sorry, Yuugi. Please don't cry! I didn't mean to be so blunt. It just surprised me, and I couldn't believe it!"
He speaks so softly, I can barely hear him.
"I did… He means so much to me, but he made me so mad and hurt me. I wanted to do the same to him. To show him how it feels. I said it, but I didn't mean it! He won't tell me why he's been doing it. What am I going to do? And what if Bakura does what he asks?!"
"Don't worry, Bakura swore he wouldn't lay a finger on him."
"How can you be so sure?"
"Because… because he loves me. As much as your yami loves you."
"Then you'll find nothing but a bloody puddle when you get home because he doesn't love me."
"Actually he does. In his own sense of seriously warped logic."
"He told you?!"
"Yes."
"That son of a bitch! I'll kill him myself! He can't tell me but he can tell you?!"
"Well, he didn't exactly come out declaring it. Kura figured it out and when we asked him directly he admitted it."
"Then why is he trying to kill himself? Please Ryou, you have to tell me!"
"Well… he has it in his stupid head that if he stays, he's going to taint you."
"…taint me?"
"He feels that he'll taint your innocence. And that for him to do so would be wrong."
"My innocence?! Are you kidding?!"
"I'm afraid not… Yuugi, may I ask you an embarrassing and potentially insulting question?"
Yuugi just smirks. I didn't know he knew how to do that. Maybe he really isn't as innocent as we all thought.
"I guess so."
"Are you really as innocent as you seem? No offense intended, but it seems strange that someone who's supposed to be so innocent would tell someone, especially one they love to go ahead and kill themselves." Yuugi smiles sadly.
"No offense taken. I know I look like an eight year old… even though I do tend to dress like a boy whore. But I do have the same damn hormones that everyone else does. I wonder since I'm so small if it's super concentrated in my system? This past month has been really bad. I'm surprised Yami hasn't said anything about how much time I spend in the bathroom! But then, he is too wrapped up in himself and suicide dreams to care."
"I'm sorry, Yuugi. I know this must be absolutely horrible for you. I know how I'd feel in your place."
"Thanks Ryou. I appreciate it… So you and Bakura are… have a…" He's so cute trying to find just the right words.
"Yes, we are together." Yuugi grins brightly.
"No offense Ryou, but Bakura just doesn't seem type for any kind of relationship." I can't help but smile and a small giggle escapes from me.
"No offense taken. I know exactly what you mean. It took me by surprise too. But I'm happy he loves me."
Yuugi smiles again. I've always liked his smile. It's so full of so many emotions and feelings. Happiness, joy, kindness with a gentle softness. It's amazing one smile can hold so much.
"I'm happy for you, Ryou. Jealous, but happy for you." He hugs me so gently, as if I might break or disappear.
"Thank You, Yuugi. I hope your yami comes around and pulls his head out of his ass." Yuugi smiles again as he lets loose a giggle.
"I hope so too. Ne, Ryou? How come the spell affected Bakura?
"Yami thinks because he used the Sennen Puzzle, that it affected all the yami's."
Yuugi's eyes get as big as dinner plates. I didn't think it was possible for his eyes to get bigger than they normally are. I wonder if that's what I looked like when I realized that Marik might be running loose.
"Oh dear Ra! Does this mean Malik's yami might have his own body too?"
"It's possible. Right now it's just a theory. But the more I think about it, I kind of doubt it even more."
"Why?"
"Well, the spell gives a spirit flesh. Malik's yami came to exist because of his rage, anger and hate. Marik wasn't alive 5,000 years ago. And he wasn't sealed in the rod like Yami and Bakura were in their items. But Malik's yami was always inside him, the rod just allowed him to manifest into the physical world. In a way he was created by the rod."
"Makes sense… But, I still hope he isn't running around loose."
"You and me both. But if he was, wouldn't he have come after you and your puzzle already?"
"Yeah, you're probably right."
"Hey Yuugi, Yami is probably going to be leaving my house soon. Why don't you head back home and wait for him? Maybe if you confront him, he'll stop?
"I don't know. Last time we talked he wasn't willing to listen. It didn't exactly turn out well."
"Well, it can't hurt to try again. Who knows, he might just listen this time."
"Your right, I suppose… I'll talk to you tomorrow to let you know how it goes!"
And off my little friend goes. I wonder how Bakura and Yami's talk is going? I call out to my other half…
/ Bakura? /
// Is something wrong, Ryou? //
/ No everything's fine. I was just seeing how your talk was going. /
// … //
/ Bakura? /
// Yes? //
/ What happened? You didn't kill him did you?! /
// Of course not! I promised you I wouldn't! //
/ Then what's wrong? /
// … Promise you won't get mad? //
/ Yami Bakura, WHAT did you do?! /
// I told him how he could kill himself. //
/ What!? Bakura, how could you?! /
// Umm, it seemed like a good idea at the time? //
/ Don't give me that! How on earth could telling him be a good thing?! /
// *sigh* I thought the method would snap him out of it! And now he's on his way home… //
/ Bakura… what's the method? /
// You're not going to like it. //
/ Tell me anyway. /
// In order for him to die, Yuugi needs to die first. //
/ WHAT!?!? /
// Told you, you wouldn't like it. //
/ How could you tell him to do that?! /
// It seemed the most logical. //
/ That's not what I'm talking about! /
// I'm sorry, koi. I thought the idea would horrify him and snap him back to reality. //
/ Dear Ra. I just sent Yuugi home! He's going to confront Yami! I have to stop him or warn him! /
// You were talking to his hikari? //
/ Yes, he was in the park. I have to warn him before it's too late! /
// Ryou, stay there! I don't want you going by yourself! Wait until I get there! //
/ But… /
// No buts! Wait for me! //
/ Alright, but hurry! /
I hope Bakura hurries. As every second passes, I feel my worries growing. Would Yami hurt Yuugi? Can he be that much of a selfish bastard?
~~~Pharaoh no Baka's POV~~~
I find myself walking back to the game shop, thinking again of Bakura's words. It makes sense but, does Yuugi deserve to die just so I can? After all, I'm doing this to protect him not harm him. What's the saying? Damned if you do and damned if you don't. Well I certainly am damned. Just as I think I've decided that I can't take his life, Ryou's words haunt me again.
"Do you think Yuugi will stay innocent forever? Do you think he'll stay that way long after you're gone? Who's going to protect him if someone decides to 'taint' him forcibly?!"
I see now that I have no choice. Stay and taint Yuugi myself or die and let someone else do it. If Yuugi dies now, he'll always remain untainted for all of eternity. Of course it makes me sick knowing that Bakura will end up getting my puzzle and Ryou. It's not fair! If I can't be happy why should he?
The Gods must be smiling on me today. Telling me that my choice is the right one. I see Ryou standing alone on the park bridge, eyes watching and waiting for someone. My guess is Bakura. If I can't be happy why should Bakura? If I have to die, Bakura should too. My choice is clear and the Gods are smiling. Ryou must die as well. I reach into my jacket for the knife I used in my first suicide attempt. Fitting that he will die by his lovers' blade. Rather poetic and melodramatic. I walk up behind him and greet him.
"Hello, Ryou."
"Yami!"
"I just wanted to say I'm sorry for upsetting you earlier. It wasn't my intention." He smiles softly, he's such a sweet boy.
"It's alright, I forgive you." He hugs me.
"Then I hope you can forgive me for this as well."
As he hugs me, I force the blade into his side and twist it. His eyes are wide with surprise and shock. He tries to speak but no words come. Tears fill his eyes as I release him and he falls to the ground. His blood quickly begins to pool around him. I can tell, he'll be dead very soon. I see it all in his eyes; the shock, the fear and the betrayal.
"I'm sorry, Ryou. You have to understand, I can't allow the puzzle to fall into Bakura's hands or let him find happiness."
"Y…ya…mi…"
"Now, I have to go see my hikari. Don't worry, Ryou. You won't be alone in heaven long. Soon, Yuugi will be there to keep you company."
I walk away from the dying boy. I don't want to, but I know his yami will soon be here. I don't have time to let him slow me down or block my path. I have to get to Yuugi. I promised Ryou he wouldn't be alone. After all angels belong in heaven, not on earth. It's time these two return to where they belong.
~~~Bakura's POV~~~
I'm running to the park to meet up with my other half when I suddenly feel this searing pain in my side. I feel my heart drop as my blood goes cold… something has happened to Ryou!
/ Bakura! Help me! … so much blood … feel cold… /
// Ryou? //
/ … /
// Ryou! Answer me! //
/ Y…ya…mi… it… hurts so… much. /
// Koi, what happened?? //
/ Yami… gone mad… /
// What did he do to you? //
/ Stabbed me… Kura… it h… hurts… so much… /
// Ryou! //
/ … /
// Ryou!! //
I pick up my pace but it seems I can't run fast enough. Panic fills me and for the first time in 5 millennia, I find myself praying to any god who will listen. Please don't let Ryou die.
Chris: Mwahahahahaha! Bow before my evil! Hmmmmm, should I or shouldn't I kill Ryou?
Tigerlily: That's one hell of a question.
Ryou: I thought you loved me!
Chris: I do! There are two endings to this and you are alive for at least one! ^_^ I haven't decided yet if you'll live in both.
Bakura: Don't you dare kill my koi!!
Chris: Do I need to have Tigerlily put you in your place again?
Tigerlily: Yeah!! I haven't done that in a while! ^__^
Bakura: ……but I don't want Ryou to die! *wails*
Chris & Tigerlily: O_o
Chris: That is just plain disturbing…
Tigerlily: Maybe we should move on to the reviewers…
Chris: Umm… yeah… to everyone who reviewed, you get a singing Bakura plushie!! ^__^Not to mention my love and adoration. ^_~ And for being so patient you also get a Dark Magician Yuugi plushie. He's almost as cute as Change of Heart Ryou! ^_^
Tigerlily: Singing??
Chris: Yup! Check it out… *pushes the tummy*
Bakura plushie: *sings to the tune of the Barney theme song* I hate you. You hate me. Let's get together and kill Yami! With a baseball bat and a gun right to his head, won't you say that Yami's dead!
Yami: Hey!!
Yuugi: Wai, kawaii!!!
Ryou: *huggles Bakura and plushie* Awww! I love him even more!
Tigerlily: Okay, now reviews make Chris's world go round because she a sad, pathetic and lame excuse for a human being. So click the button and make her happy. Remember, reviewers get plushies… unless they flame. The next plushie sings to the tune of "Joy to the World".
